The Keys of the God-self: Third and Fourth Keys

Disappointment. Distraction. These two factors could block us from progressing further in our path towards finding ourselves, not just as precious jewels of Creation embodied in a human body, but as souls born directly from the essence of Source itself. You feel that there is no point anymore in thinking about having big dreams in your mind. Just think about how many things you do each day, that prevent you from spending time with yourself in silence. Yes you could say…but I have many responsibilities to attend to. So much to do in such little time. What about a few minutes before going to sleep? Or during the weekend? Are you 100% sure you do not have time?

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As we progress in our reconnection process with our soul, the notion of time dissolves. Taken from: tribunahoje.com

Third key: The state of timelessness of the mind and zero point

Over the last years we have been reading and hearing that in order to ascend we need to reach zero point and step out of time. I suspect though, that so far, there has not been a clear recipe provided for such colossal mission. Do you have any idea how to step out of time?

It is not an easy task. That is for sure. Yet stepping out of time is a natural step towards becoming one with our Higher Mind and Higher Heart. We can help ourselves reach that beautiful godly state of peace and potential for the highest harmonious manifestation possibilities.

Time is not something that can be overcome just by switching from one modern calendar to an ancient one. It is a bit more complex than what we have been told. Meanwhile, we naturally approach such state of anchoring our consciousness in zero point as we become whole and we step out of suffering.

Going back to the previous parts of this essay, in summary, we must have in mind that these are the things that we need to let go:

  • Expectations on how things should be in our lives, in the lives of others, and the world in general, simply because we do not hold the greatest picture. Our information available is limited.
  • Expectations on when certain occurrences or situations should happen. This one is very much linked to the first point.
  • Any ideas we hold related to scarcity. If we focus for the most part in all the things that we wish we had, and all the things that we think we need but that we do not have, or the things that others should have, then we need to evaluate very deeply from where these scarcity perceptions come from in our subconscious.
  • Expectations on how others should behave. This one is often times a huge source of disappointment.
  • Our suppressed emotions.
  • All things that we think are threatening to us and to others. In other words, sometimes we need to surrender, and to understand that we are not always meant to fight huge fights, or even some smaller fights lead nowhere but to more cycles of suffering. Sometimes we need to let go the control, and to stop resisting the things that we perceive as dark. Fighting against what we think is dark might lead to further polarization and further disconnection from our Higher Mind and Higher Heart which perceives things as unified and who understands the greater picture.
  • The painful past. We cannot change the past, but we can accept what happened to us and to others. By understanding new depths of the past, we can heal what once seemed impossible to forgive.

The factors mentioned above contribute greatly in the creation of time in our consciousness. However, as we already know from the second key, these perceptions have their origin in suffering across many timelines of experience, including our current lives.

First sub key: understanding how the perception of time is created

The clock is ticking, and you feel that you might die, or maybe you are just wasting your life, or simply, you do not have enough time to do all the things that you want to do. You say that you wish that you could turn back in time to fix that problem that nags you, right?

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Soft Watch at the First Moment of Time Explosion By Salvador Dali

Let us go back to the rumor-fact that when we ascend to a new density, with a new dimension of consciousness, that we will live in a state of timelessness or zero point. Before that, we simply feel that time is not enough, something is being lost…lost…lost…lost…lost.

That is how time was created in our minds, since the very first moment in some incarnation, a very long time ago, when we felt for the very first time that we lost something. Maybe even since the moment we are born, we come out of the cozy womb, and feel for the first time a certain coldness. That security we once had, is now lost. With this feeling came the first notion of time. Part of your consciousness left your being and got stuck in a lapse, when that something precious to you was lost.

So there you go, you now have an awareness from one point, to another, the point of the loss, to the point in which you live. Then, you lost more, and more, and more, and more. And now, you drive yourself nuts with all your loses at subconscious level, feeling as you vibrate higher, that you have less time to repair, what you lost. You are afraid that you will never have enough time to recover what you lost, a very long time ago. Something or someone, took that love away from your heart and your subconscious is stuck in a line of experiences or points, that you call linear time.

The more you heal then, the more you bring back your pieces, the less concerned you are about time, and you just flow with the flow. Yes the planets keep spinning, the Sun goes down, the moon goes up and so on…but you live in a less linear way, and you are more allowing, and you have more patience and you can wait for an eternity, because you are actually waiting less, and living more in the now, in the state of timelessness or zero point.

You even realize at some point, that the thing that you were waiting for, might have become somehow flawed once again if you had ventured in a humongous mission of looking for that thing that would make you happy. You had to find what was blocking you subconsciously and now that you see it with new lens, you prefer to slow down and start perceiving things differently and start doing things differently.

Remember then, always, that time begins since the first moment you feel something was lost.

Second sub key: training yourself to reach zero point

You get back home from having a stressful time with your boss or with some family member and maybe one of the first things you do is to turn on your computer or look in your phone and you start feeling bad because of the latest news on how the natural resources of Earth are being destroyed, the latest news on what some authorities did to perpetuate a war, or how there is an archon right beside you to take your potential peace away. So you rant and say to yourself that there is no hope for a better future.

You feel trapped, enslaved, imprisoned, out of place, burdened. You feel that inner child crying, because this world is not a safe place for you.

When you realize how much a great part of you cries and demands your attention, you seek the tools that you need. But often times you become distracted with what sounds promising and then you have to switch to other tools. Remember that you must listen to the depths of your broken heart. Know that you can do this, and only you can do it better for yourself than anyone else.

Disconnect now, from the outer world. Take a seat, and rest for a moment. Think for a few minutes how much time you spend thinking everyday about what burdens you. You see the minutes passing by. Think about all the things that bother you right now. The clock keeps ticking. Perhaps it is a lot? Maybe no longer as much of a burden as it was years ago? Maybe worse? Now start feeling the emotions.

Notice how many of the things that burden us and that we wish we could control and change create energy leaks in our system. Perhaps the problem even comes from giving energy to others who are not open to receiving our energy, so we leak and leak and leak.

Other times we are so blocked to receiving love that no matter how much love we are given, we simply do not feel it. We need to restructure our whole system and understand where the imbalances come from subconsciously. How can we do that then if we think that we do not have time? Maybe it is time to sacrifice some activities and the way we try to love others in our perception and start attending more to our own needs for a while.

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Leaking sculpture by Fredrik Linge.

Learn to deal the best way you can with your emotions, but never suppress them. There are uncountable treatments, like natural medicines, meditation, inner dialogue, etc. What is important is to allow yourself to feel what you must feel and that way, the less we resist our own emotions, the less they will overwhelm us over time. The more we will be able to navigate them and turn them into energy that comes back to us.

As silly as it sounds, we often forget to breathe properly. Our brains might be dying each day of suffocation without us even being aware. Breathing is not just about providing our brains with the necessary daily doses of oxygen, but also our energy flows better and we allow our missing parts to come back energetically.

Learn to control your kundalini and not the other way around. In our current society we are taught that we must overindulge in sexual practices, even spiritual ones and that we must meditate to trigger intense kundalini experiences. If we cannot control our own energy, we cannot control the rest of our system.

Sometimes, without us becoming fully aware, kundalini is triggered by fragmented parts of other souls and I doubt you would want to share your sexual energy with any entity. Energetic exchanges between you and other entities is very real, so ask your subconscious mind and your heart why you are allowing these explosions to happen without control. You will be surprised to learn about this unexplored or misunderstood area. As blissful as merging might feel, learn to respect your energetic system as much as you want your physical body to be respected and treated like a sacred tool. Do not worry too much about entities, but learn to set healthy boundaries in the energetic planes of existence and treat entities with respect and compassion, establishing if needed a healing dialogue.

Learn to clear your negative thoughts not by suppressing them but by understanding where these patterns come from.  Listen to these thoughts, and if needed bring all this broken energy down to the emotional system, to the level of the heart where you can safely get in touch with the wound and see how these thoughts disappear. You can do this with positive practices like art, exercise, meditation, inner dialogue and therapy.

Learn about nature itself, we are part of it. Our broken minds and hearts are like the exacerbated forces of water, fire, earth and wind. When we learn to navigate the elements within ourselves, we learn to flow with the natural forces of the Universe.

Disconnect each day from any source of distraction that prevents you from being intimate with yourself. By intimacy it is understood that you open up your heart to your soul, you learn to listen to yourself and you learn to communicate with your soul. Only then, we can learn to have true intimacy with others. Intimacy involves facing our deepest fears and embracing every part of ourselves with love, grace and compassion. We stop avoiding our pain. We stop distracting ourselves with any addictive pattern.

Once we manage to achieve the above points each day, then we learn to control our physical bodies. Our body starts regaining its functions of self regeneration and we become energized. We become efficient in all we do and we feel less scattered. We feel more anchored and we gain a new sense of physical and spiritual security. We feel that we have finally created a true home for ourselves in our inner world and in our physical homes.

Fourth key: approaching our god-self and inner peace

The more we spend time in communion with our souls without neglecting our chosen responsibilities in life, the more we recognize and feel nurtured by our own soul vibration or energetic signature. We become more whole and feel less need to fulfill our needs and expectations from outer energetic resources, but we accept the love that we receive.

We learn to navigate the challenges that life presents to us and we accept the gifts behind these challenges. We feel less worried about what we cannot touch in the outside, yet we add magic to that which we are allowed to touch. We shine light for ourselves, and others learn to see it.

The outer chaos of this world no longer consumes us, and instead we walk among chaotic nodes of global experience left untouched. We have created our safe space in our inner world and we have created our home in a physical space.

Others see that there is this radiance in you that emanates a peaceful energy. You have arrived to a station where you have reached the peace that you longed for, but that you could not even grasp. You thought it came in other forms that you craved for. You leave behind old dreams, and create new and better ones. You manifest better outcomes, based on inner fulfillment and no longer on outer scarcity. You feel confident about who you are, and you feel strength. You enjoy your creations a little more each day and time expands in front of you. Time stretches because for you, it is now an abundant resource. One that truly never existed.

The Keys of the God-self: Second Key

The Second Key: Letting go is the road to Inner Peace

In the previous part of this essay, the first key and the nature of dreams were expounded. As I explore the gifts of my subconscious, I share with you the next keys. What exactly do we need to let go in order to align with the highest dreams of our soul? In which ways can we make peace with the apparent failure of the previous dreams explored throughout our journey that lead in the past to suffering? Do we have to conform to achieve less than what we wanted?

You see my beloved that there is a long road to follow towards inner peace but this journey ends up being one of true empowerment and one that you will never regret.

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Unintegrated realms of the subconsciousness vs integrated God-self

Going back to the first diagram, the ball named “God-self” is the state of inner peace in which we can feel our true soul vibration. It is the state that is for the most part clouded by our current fluctuations, while we integrate little pieces of perhaps hundreds of aspects. When we hold a daily practice of emotional control and allowance of the integration/healing process to take place with more grace and less resistance, it is easier to reach more consciously a higher vibration. This vibration transcends the illusions of the non integrated light and the non integrated darkness.

It is in a state of emptiness where we enter inner balance and we anchor ourselves in the now moment. We allow life to happen to us and we then truly BEcome. In a state of mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual balance, we affect with our stable energy our environment in ways we do not even imagine.

If you like to do art, think about this moment of communion in which you are so focused on what you do, centered in your heart, nothing disturbs this moment of inner peace. You create and you allow your intuition to guide you through the process. It is a beautiful moment of communion with your soul, with the desire to create something special, and maybe even to share it with another. Perhaps you do not even have a very clear idea of what you will create, you just do it. Or you have an idea but throughout the process you allow for the creation to be birthed from your deepest desire.

In order to let go, first you must align yourself with your inner light and your inner darkness. You evaluate so far what you have manifested, and what you currently perceive as lack. You must ask both sides of yourself why, perhaps, when you manifested a dream in the past it was not your perfect dream, your ideal scenario, one that was in your mind flawless or simply beautiful enough to fulfill you.

In which areas was your manifested dream far from perfect? Where there energetic leaks in your system that left you drained, unfulfilled, unhappy in some other way? Why, if so far you have put so much effort in this dream, is it not yet what you crave or is it draining you? Even worse, why what you have expected all your life is not there yet within your reach? Does your dream involve the active presence of other souls?

If your dream is related to a personal project, like for example a house, a job, a career, a business, maybe the tools are easier to reach than if these dreams involve the presence of other souls.

What is complicated about manifesting dreams when it involves your relationship to other individuals, is the fact that you expect these people to align their will to your own will. Very likely there are imbalances within you or/and them which prevents the energy between each other to flow. This also applies to collectives, for example a whole nation and its leaders. Those leaders can be present physically as role models or authorities, or perhaps even spiritual leaders or guides that have not yet manifested physically in your life.

At this point, it is clear that something has not been working and maybe it is not even related to your outer circumstances, or your resources, or other people, but there is something within yourself that is simply not flowing like a river of energetic potential blocked by rocks, thus preventing material reality from morphing.

It is then, when if we ask our heart, our soul, our Higher Self, and Source to guide us to understand what is not working, a process of more conscious exploration begins that allows us to get in touch more deeply with our subconscious.

One by one, we can then start making peace with those blocks, letting them go, and allowing space for inner peace to be born within us. Only then, in this void, can we tap into the true potential of our soul as a whole and we align our will to the will of Creation.

First sub key: dealing consciously with the wounds

Often times we hear that we are the ones creating our reality. But sometimes we might miss some fine details about such process. We carry within our subconscious, and around us, the ghosts of the past. No matter how much we desire to manifest a more positive reality for ourselves and for others, we come across uncountable death ends, or we end up feeling that we need to conform to something lesser than what we originally had in mind.

Ask yourself these questions:

From 2012 to this day, how much have your dreams, hopes and desires changed?

  • Do you feel disappointed about the way in which so far you have progressed in your spiritual development and your life in general?
  • Are you disappointed of your outer circumstances and the world in general?
  • Do you feel more empowered in some ways compared to how you felt a year ago, or many years ago?

Perhaps many times you reach the point in which you know that you have done a lot of inner work over the course of years. However, there is always something in your way that makes you feel that you are fighting. Perhaps the social, political and economic scenarios seem to be grim from some angles, or maybe the situation with your family is messy at the moment. Perhaps your job is not exactly what you wanted to accomplish in your professional life. There is always a challenge to face as we progress.

In many cases, it is very clear that when we make a list of the things that do not feel right about this physical reality, we can see that many of these situations are apparently out of our control. Actually, if we think about how others behave, there is very little we can do to control or change the situations.

Then, you start seeing how control, and the idea on how things should be or how others should act are the first things that you must let go, in one way or another. Easier said than done and very likely you have heard this before, elsewhere.

You can read all over again how we have to deal with our inner wounds and how we must let go control and any rigid ideas. But there is no way this process can take place if there are unexplored corners within our psyche, those sides of us that need the love of our heart, and that we decided to forget, because it was all too painful to face.

There are strong sides of us that might feel that other sides of us are too vulnerable. At a level we feel that our vulnerable sides can interfere in our life in many ways, so it is best not to face them. Often times, it is the abused sides of our soul what might makes us feel that we failed to stand up for ourselves, when we needed to be strong and wiser in our processes of decision making. We might then develop a stronger side, one that at times might be aggressive or that tries to avoid situations.

We might have achieved a level of spiritual maturity (our side of non integrated light) and try to convince ourselves that at soul level we chose our experiences. That we have infinite power to manifest. That we are sovereign individuals and that we do not need an outer force to act as an authority above us in detriment of our progress.

What we do not know is that sometimes we carry aspects within our subconscious and soul that act against our conscious will to manifest a higher path. This is true, especially if it involves the presence of other souls, which could also include a specific location. These parts of us that are denied by our conscious mind know something about these dreams that we are not aware of. As a consequence, they simply do not want for these dreams to become manifested in such a way that brings joy to ourselves and to others.

How is this possible? Why would a part of our soul want to act against an apparently positive intention?

The simple answer is that these aspects reside in a dimension of denial, in one way or another. It is not uncommon to feel that we have left behind much pain, and that we can even hardly remember certain painful stages of our lives, especially childhood and other earlier stages. We cannot blame ourselves for keeping these aspects in the lower realms of trauma. It is simply not an easy task to align them with our heart and to heal them. Healing them involves facing their pain in one way or another, and sometimes it really does not have to be that painful to make peace with our suffering.

For example, think about times in which we faced any forms of abuse during childhood, or even in other timelines in which our hearts were open and vulnerable and we faced deep traumas without little awareness of the nature of our soul. How do you explain to a child that there is a purpose in everything and that we are made of pure spiritual essence at a higher level?

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Denied aspects lead to suffering. Untitled by Karla Crystalika

A child is vulnerable and dependent of their families, teachers, and other soul companions and often times has partial or absolutely no awareness of a higher spiritual purpose and soul path. Therefore, if a child has been severely imprinted with deep traumatic experiences, this part of us has become disconnected from the new spiritual mature adult.

This child that is disconnected from our conscious mind, resides in lower realms of ether. They are wandering like a ghost, observing how life happens to us, and touching us in such a way that affects our daily experiences and perceptions. Perhaps the child comes in the form of a traumatized teenager. Or a martyr coming from another timeline. Or simply, the child that you were in your current incarnation.

You are in the process of manifesting a dream with enthusiasm, and maybe at first things are going well, until you start facing those patterns. You come across people who are not in alignment with your intention, or the dream collapses for other reasons. You leave behind a trail of disappointment along the way. Even worse, that which you wait for is not coming to meet you, yet.

You do not understand why the world is as it is, why there is so much unfairness and why as a collective we do not seem to progress yet towards that reality where there is peace and a more genuine sense of connection among people. The repulsive forces within ourselves and the world in general continue to bring chaos into our lives.

Even in Kabbalah, the concept of Satan is one in which the Universal force of repulsion and absorption acts against the light side of Creation that unites and gives love. It absorbs without having the capacity to love The denied side of us, far from attracting the big dream, uses its repulsive force to avoid more pain, ironically causing in us deep disappointment.

It is then, when you can start working more consciously with the part of us that resides in the lower realms through any means that you can find. You ask for assistance and somehow, you will receive the guidance needed to align yourself to the will of your higher mind.

I have faced in my own life the disappointment of asking many times for assistance to deal with the part of myself that has been denied, only to come across some strange circumstances in which I was given many times things that I perceived as things that I did not need. I was blocking myself from seeing love been given to me in lots of ways. It had been in my life a repeating pattern, and a sense of being upset would grow over time.

Second sub key to letting go the pain: only you can fully know what you need

From this difficult experience came the notion that not only was I always been given the necessary assistance in spirit form each time I asked and could not find the most suitable tools in physical. Also, I was lead to understand that in this world, absolutely no one will ever know more what are our own needs than ourselves. No one will help us more to reach a state of balance and inner peace than ourselves. We can come across lots of tools, in one way or another, that help us greatly. Even so, it is our task to be the ones to rescue those parts of ourselves that have been forgotten and denied, by others and by ourselves.

You might be able to connect this sub key to the sober experience of not having the leaders or authorities that we wish in our hearts that we could see in our physical reality. If we cannot know in full depth what the needs of our subconscious world are, then how can we expect that the world can have honest leaders that can provide to us what we need? The perfect partner? The perfect family? Perfect friends? Perfect students or teachers? Perfect jobs? Etc.?

How can we know then how much we have suppressed and denied and how much we need to provide to ourselves?

By asking our subconscious. By getting in touch with our own darkness. By truly disconnecting ourselves for at least a moment each day, from the rivers of information and stimuli we expose ourselves to, and ponder about those difficult stages in our lives that we rather forget, and ask the individual that we were in such times, the simple questions:

  • How do you feel?
  • What can I do for you?
  • What is it that you want to tell me?
  • What can you offer to me and what can you offer to me?

Sometimes, only by listening to these parts of us, the pain starts dissolving. Sometimes we might find ourselves crying lots of things we could not face before. And then, the miracle of seeing our world turning upside down and seeing our beliefs fall apart happen.

It might be a very uncomfortable process but at the same time, you feel how the power of your soul starts flowing. It is worth it.

Third sub key to letting go the pain: redefining our own value and what we deserve in life

When you have seeing more clearly what exactly are your needs as a human being and when you see in which miraculous ways you can truly provide for yourself the first resources that you need, by claiming back the parts of you that are denied, then you can take the next steps.

The next steps involve to think very deeply and often in which ways do you feel that others have defined your value and sense of self worth as a human being. These people include your parents, your siblings, your friends,  your colleagues, your partner or ex partners, and many others.

You can then see how much you value yourself or what exactly is for you the concept of value according to your experiences and perceptions. Perhaps you find yourself thinking that you deserve better than what you have or what you have gone through, but you still find yourself going through tough experiences. Others who find themselves and the world less valuable make you feel uncomfortable, even if you know they have their own patterns and issues.

Based on the previous notion of value comes the notion of deserving. What do you think and what do you feel do you deserve in life? Are you sure that you deserve only the best? What if those parts of you that reside in lower realms think otherwise? Perhaps part of you feels guilty for previous decisions? Perhaps others made you feel over time that you do not deserve?

These are important questions that one needs to ask oneself often.

The more we get in touch with the non integrated part of our soul that has been traumatized over time, we will start feeling that we are providing ourselves with the first and most important need. That need is to listen to our shadow self or aspects that exist in the lower dimensions of consciousness. By establishing an inner dialogue with our soul we can face these deep wounds in several timelines and we can then start creating a safe haven for ourselves in this constant inner dialogue.

If we cannot get to know ourselves and remember those times when we suffered greatly, such as the moments during childhood when our family could not give to us the confidence that we need, then the world will seem to be a dangerous place that is not safe for us or for others. It is true that bad things happen to lots of individuals and groups each day, but we must remember that very likely we cannot control those situations.

Before anything else we need to feed ourselves with the love of our heart and our soul to make space for the denied aspects of the psyche to come forth and feel that we are finally safe. We can let them know that we have unmeasurable value, and that we really do deserve the best. Maybe you think that others have value and that they deserve the best, but it is up to them to do their part and see this for themselves.

We cannot judge others fully for their actions more than we can judge ourselves. It is an act of humbleness to say to ourselves and to others that we no longer can say who should exist and who should not (think about how many people desire for the elitist groups to disappear from Earth without understanding their real purpose and their value as souls).

Over time, you can then establish a solid foundation in love with yourself, with your soul, with your heart and you can become confident seeing that all your efforts are worthwhile. You can feel that you value yourself enough to deserve better as you progress in life.

Only then, you can start attracting better situations and better resources, while you let go pain, old ideas, old expectations, old hopes, and you redefine your dreams and your desires. You desire less things that you previously desired based on the perceptions of scarcity. Your dreams are more genuine and aligned with the will of your soul and the will of other souls and Universal consciousness.

Peace starts to flood your being a little more each day. You have established an inner sense of confidence. You are safe, and you are loved by the brightness of your soul. You find more peace in the Now moment, and you worry less about that which you cannot change. You know that change is the only true constant.


The Keys of the God-self: First Key

The First Key:  Natural cosmic process of reintegration of the soul essence known as soul retrieval

Soul retrieval holds the first key to manifestation of better dreams, better experiences, and a higher path, by consciously embarking on a true savior mission of one’s own soul. From aspects in countless timelines, first sub keys of darkness and light are revealed. Soul retrieval is the art of ascension in its unconscious or conscious first stages of prismatic Cosmic rearrangement. By learning the secrets of the worldly light and the worldly darkness the next keys are revealed.

The sub keys of the First Key can be seen in the diagrammatic literal representation of scientific configuration of energy in the manifested and non-manifested Universes. Simple is the diagram, yet revelation holds its nature when one sees a mirror reflection of the soul in this larger fractal soul configuration:

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The Universe is mostly made of matter, dark matter and dark energy. Taken from: NASA.

You can see that, for the most part, the Creation that we know about is composed of dark energy and dark matter. These are forms of very light energy with a heavy density that cannot be seen in physical, as opposed to the condensed particles that make up the physical configuration of Universes.

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Electromagnetic layers of Earth which are similar to the energetic system of each human being known as aura. Taken from: http://galactic.no/rune/oscarBusch_theLand_beyond.htm

We as individuals are no different from the Cosmos in our composition. Our shadow self is made up of antimatter for the most part. You can imagine that much of what we are is made up of etheric self. Imagine then how the astral realms are made up of the same substance. However, dark energy and dark matter vibrate differently in each layer of each dimension and density and these energies need to be imprinted to create antimatter and matter.

Very much like how, for the most part, our brain is in apparent state of slumber, as is the large portion of DNA known as “junk”, so are the layers of astral/etheric substance.

How are then the astral/etheric layers connected to the notions of dark energy, dark matter, antimatter and what we call the light in higher dimensions, our brain and our DNA? How are these concepts associated to the soul vibration, to inner peace, to letting go? Before we reach those keys take a look at the following diagram:

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Unintegrated realms of the subconsciousness vs integrated God-self

From our uncountable experiences on Earth we have created what people call the Matrix, both in physical and in astral/etheric layers.

What is truly the mass of energy that makes up then the astral/etheric realms (multidimensional)?

A person who is grounded and who is not interested or ready to tap into what people often refer to “spiritual” are people who either have a great capacity to generate physical resources or are not efficient in such task (i.e. wealth). However, these individuals are less aware of how their thought processes generate as well as the meaning of their dreams while asleep, and the collective energies surrounding them at all times. Such individuals are also either service to others oriented or service to self.

First Sub key: understanding the non integrated light of unity consciousness in a polarized world

When an individual activates the capacities of his/her third eye and crown chakras they become aware of the energetic environment surrounding them. However, in a transition process, the very first fallacy of this individual is to believe that he/she is following since the very first moment of this realization a path of pure goodness and service (this is not always the case though). On the contrary, a long path of self-awareness begins. Over time, the individual assimilates and integrates the information of the soul as a whole to understand, that in essence, there is no such thing as being defined by the basic notions of good or evil.

The awakening individual begins a new journey through the grid or layers of non integrated light. Sometimes they believe to be always of goodness, always different and abused by society in general, with a mission to save others, seeking oneness, unity, and the merging of energies with others indiscriminately. This process is achieved often times by raising the vibration to the level of the Little Heaven of light where the first notions of spirituality are learned and remembered.

In these dimensions of consciousness, with or without spiritual notions or practices, all individuals seek joy, bliss, and the manifestation of dreams with such emotional qualities. Energetically, part of this thick layer is also built when individuals exchange sexual energies. The blissful energetic explosions of life force are spread in the environment through the merging of the bodies and chakras. At this level, it is difficult to distinguish between the soul frequencies of vibrations of each individual, simply because at this level all energies are merged into a collective energy, a grid of light where parts of the consciousness of certain beings reside.

These layers are also built when the souls that pass to the other side after death, seek comfort in them where their traumatic imprints become inactive and cannot be perceived anymore.

It is an energetic vibration of joy and bliss, where the beautiful dreams of individuals and the collective are forged and desired to be manifested. For this reason, I call it the Little Heaven.

Is there anything wrong with this? Absolutely not. However, in a dualistic paradigm in the 3rd density with lower 3rd and 4th dimensional levels of consciousness, during cycles of thousands or millions of years, this thick layer of blissful light is built, in some cases through the most selfish and heinous motives. How is this possible? To this point beloved brother or sister, I shall come back later.

Second Sub key: Understanding the non integrated darkness of separation in a polarized world

When a collective of individuals begin an ascension process to a higher density, awareness of inner conflict of light and dark forces begin. It is a difficult integration process of a personal Universe of aspects residing in different timelines that converge in the Now moment in astral/etheric realms. What this means basically is that each aspect of your soul is an incarnation of the past or parts of incarnations, which also include futuristic past lives that hold possibilities for future manifestation.

The fragmented soul then resides for the most part in these higher realms, either in a hellish reality or in a heavenly reality. Their residence depends on the frames of each timeline playing itself simultaneously in the Now moment. Only one incarnated aspect which is us in physical has the colossal mission to integrate over time all other aspects of the soul. This process can also happen during the course of several incarnations, as long as it happens during an extensive ascension process to the 4th and 5th densities of individual expression (not to be confused with dimensions!).

In this initial process, the individual begins a conscious recalling process of tiny pieces of information from this convergence of other lives in many ways. However, very little is recalled in the initial cases of the negative path of the soul throughout millennia of incarnations. Sometimes, some gruesome scenes are seen without a link to repeating patterns and decisions. The abusive/abused nature of many of these aspects of the soul that affect greatly the path of the incarnated soul, as much as in previous incarnations where ascension was not possible, is not understood.

For the most part, many individuals with a spiritual aspiration think of themselves as initially being always the abused or the victim. Such inner projection is then seen in the conflict in relationships, from the biological family to society as a whole. Conflicts are especially projected directly at the individuals who chose to reflect the massive darkness of society: a dark cabal. During this confusing process we might feel constantly threatened by other individuals and other unseen forces and lives in the illusion of not living a life of true freedom. Spiritual ideas clash with the ideas of their loved ones and society in general. There is much inner conflict projected in the outside in this initial stage of ascension.

A small group of negative oriented individuals in government positions, spiritual organizations, large corporations, financial corporations and in other sectors, reflect the nature of the recollection of the collective subconscious nature in the darkness of lower realms, where the most dominant parts of each aspect reside. These are the dominant aspects that seek control at all costs, who take actions based purely on impulse, who seek to divide and destroy without hesitation.

Even the apparently most spiritual individual carries a degree of negativity from soul aspects, without exception. However, it is in the creative capacity of these aspects where so much of our True Power resides, including the power to generate physical resources and a sense of balance and empowerment. No wonder then why a small group holds the key to manifest the largest amount of physical resources, at all costs.

Remember that our subconscious, our brain, our DNA, is for the most part made up of imprinted dark matter or antimatter, where the lower realms of hell and the higher realms of little heaven exist. We are for the most part made up of a magnificent amount of aspects that have been abused and who have abused, but also who have lived for many causes and who have experienced love in uncountable ways through much suffering. For such reason, an incarnated individual cannot come to the physical with such a great level of integration of these aspects. Integration in itself is the ascension process.

The most negative and impulsive aspects of the soul hold such degree of pain and anger that these forces were in negative timelines converted into the purest impulse to destroy and to harm. An analogy of this is a very traumatized dog that attacks without hesitation and kills. Think about criminals who seem to be in a state beyond reason who hunt people to fulfill a negative impulse to destroy.

At this point my dear reader, everything sounds perhaps dreadful. Think about the most difficult moments in history when wars and other conflicts took place and decisions were made based mostly on impulse and not on the kind of rationale that we apply when we face pain. During our current stage of ascension of our consciousness, very likely you see that there is a much higher path than the previously known path of impulses.

it is then with the application of values like forgiveness, mercy, compassion, acceptance, empathy and awareness in general, that we dissolve all the negativity in our soul and our most negative aspects are then seen as aspects that took decisions based on much suffering, in times where there was no genuine guidance from the soul and from the heart of Creation.

Third Sub Key: Understanding conflict of polarities during global ascension

The light in our consciousness is what prevents us from becoming the worst of our souls, from experiencing the pain of our past without any filters or restrictions. We will not harm what we perceive as an opponent, we might not even punch someone, even if we are abused. Over time we learn to stand up for ourselves in the best possible way, without perpetuating conflict like in ancient times, during the most destructive stages. We reach for a higher path in which we internalize conflict and we assimilate the lessons of the past.

What many spiritual aspirants to ascension share in common is the early experiences of abuse in our current incarnation. Such abuses trigger the wounded aspects of the soul to integrate in such a safe way that we do not end up harming others out of revenge with our most negative potential. Even if there is revenge, the circumstances in which we are placed allow for us to take the higher road of awareness and mastery.

You can see these experiences of abuse as portals or reminders of our soul paths in multiple incarnations that lead us to a new path of higher inner resolution. These experiences remind us at subconscious level of the level of abuse experienced in millennia in 3rd density, from the standpoint of the victim but also to understand how we became the abusers.

When such experiences are not fully understood, then the aspirant begins an inner struggle with himself/herself and also with the world. So is the case of millions of individuals who display much physical, emotional, mental and spiritual confusion and turmoil and who also feel threatened by the outer circumstances. Some then seek in the higher layers of non integrated light, subconsciously, the presence of some higher power to come for their rescue and that of humanity.

The struggle intensifies in such a way that the aspirant feels overwhelmed with the following outer conflicts:

  • The presence of “negative entities” or “demons” in lower realms and even engaging in fights with them, perpetuating conflict and increasing the collective level of polarization.
  • The conflict with a dark cabal, from governments to large corporations and lower levels of authority.
  • The threats of terrorist attacks, threats of war, threats of high technologies used by negative individuals, etc.
  • Threats of financial collapse and inability to manifest resources in physical.
  • Conflicts with religious beliefs and institutions.
  • Conflicts with family and friends.
  • Conflicts with personal identity, gender, tastes, beliefs, etc.

If such inner conflicts are constantly mirrored in the outside, the spiritual aspirant slowly becomes overwhelmed with his/her own negative or service-to-self oriented aspects that cannot be fully integrated. The aspirant feels in much conflict with the outer world as a consequence.

Two cases come to my mind when I think about how, when we seek to hold on to a spiritual path without proper integration we can become imbalanced. Some examples include spiritual masters who over history left us magnificent teachings, but who took actions that seemed contradictory and even extreme in some cases.

Another case is simply what we often see as an increasing and unforgiving repulsion towards the collective shadow that is blatantly mirrored by many of the people who control the resources of the planet. The latter in particular can drag us down into a spiral of negativity. Far from assisting in neutralizing the negativity of the planet we might contribute to worsen the inner polarization of the elite minority and that of the astral environment, depending on how we use our psychic capabilities. By sending our hate to them, we fragment ourselves further and we block their own capability for positive change.

Only by coming to terms over time with our own levels of soul polarization will true transformation begin and the origins of darkness will find in all expressions a common ground in the light.

The true nature of the dreams of the fragmented self

Before the next keys are analyzed, let us examine now the following diagram to understand the current polarized psychology of manifestation in a stage of increasing polarization:

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Psychology of dreams and previous timelines

In this diagram, which is closely associated to the previous diagram, you can see that our thought processes and dreams are highly influenced by the presence of the aspects of our souls residing in multiple timelines of previous physical incarnations. In a way, what we do when we receive inspiration is to take memories of astral/etheric nature from such pieces of our soul and their experiences. This is, for the most part, a subconscious way to recall other lifetimes of experience. Remember dear one, what you feel and sense and desire is a convergence of timelines in the Now moment.

However, just like in certain spiritual doctrines like Buddhism and Kabbalah, many times our recurrent dreams, desires and longings lead to a long road of expectations, hopeful mental projections of a desired future, disappointment and suffering. Our consciousness becomes plagued with constant longing, anxiety and despair. More so, if our dreams involve not only ourselves but others, an entanglement of complications plagues our bruised hearts beloveds.

In the diagram above, take as an example three lifetimes or timelines of much suffering, in which  the aspect lived a service-to-self oriented life or a service-to-others oriented life. From these three aspects that are not integrated and healed in the auric field of the currently incarnated aspect comes a series of thought forms or desires taken from little moments of joy and bliss from such timelines. From those moments, the incarnated aspect longs to fulfill such dreams and desires recurrently and serve like the gas for the car that takes them through the path of life.

However, sometimes such dreams cannot be fulfilled, either because the God-self has placed the incarnated aspect into a path of more restrictions to avoid following the previous paths that lead to painful deaths and harmful relationships and decisions. Other times, such desires come to fruition over time, but at the high cost of another path of decisions that once again leads to disastrous consequences. Or simply, it just takes a considerable amount of time to allow for the conditions to be manifested within and outside of the individual to create those dreams.

Take as an example the vision of a happy couple with children in a peaceful place. The aspirant then has a goal to fulfill such desire. However, imagine that in such timelines the aspirant had for the most part a very painful life with the partner and the children, or that such union was a consequence of the destruction of a previous family. Perhaps such visions of the past or thought forms of desire are based on a selfish desire. Maybe, outer circumstances made the life of the family an impossible one to bring to a joyful outcome. If, in the first case the relationship with such family must be healed, it might take a very long and tedious road of awareness and healing to repair such timelines to manifest a peaceful outcome.

In such cases it is then when dreams, desires and longings come from places of suffering and destruction in the subconscious mind of the one who seeks to manifest a higher path towards inner peace.

The Keys of the God-self: Introduction

“For those who seek peace in times of unprecedented destruction and transformation.”

By the end of 2015, I decided to let go and let God.  When the apparent decisions of the light in my life were coming to fruition, the poison of darkness came as an echo of ancient trauma, thus bringing conflict to my consciousness.

To serve the light invites darkness to come from the most unexpected places. The war of ages begins in each corner of the planet and in the dusty figments of lost knowledge within the configuration of the human mind. I decide to leave once again, and enter introspection. It is time to face an ancient bomb of my own creation that travels within the fluid realms of astral and etheric layers.

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Oriental dragon painting, taken from: http://fengshui-paintings.com

Locked in my quarantined space I ponder on the ancient knowledge of the Buddha, the avatar state of emptiness and eternal peace. From such ancient knowledge, I am being shown something that I had not felt or seen before.

Aspects of some beloved soul connections greet me in the spirit realms and excitement floods my being. One of my companions stare at me and then these cryptic words she pronounces:

“Distortions you hold in your mind of my nature dearest sister. Stop your outbursts of love and lower your vibration so that you are able to meet me in a state of more balance, only then can you see more of who I am.”

I breathe slowly, stop the flow of love from my heart and stare into her piercing eyes, feeling then the fear and the pain in our karmic contract. Somewhere in this world she lives in a physical body. Most of her soul essence travels within the realms of light and dark in what we know as the astral/etheric world.

I feel the fear but slowly within my being a power is being reborn, slowly, very slowly, almost unnoticeable. As days pass, I am guided in what sometimes felt for days like a military and Asian training of sorts, based on the ancient knowledge of the Buddha and other Oriental practices.

“Soon must you let us go my dearest sister, thou shall no longer seek us, for only when you transcend all desires, will we appear in your physical reality. Many are we, yet vibration of the individual expression of the One is what you seek, your own soul vibration.”

To let go was more reasonable those days, sometimes reaching an overindulgence of it and its consequential peace, as opposed to other days of painful dreams. For you see, some keys have been shared with me, of the true meaning of letting go. Before I share them with you, dear beloved, dear brother, dear sister here is what I saw, unexpectedly one night:

After restless nights of incomprehensible energetic explosions in all bodies of the being, the greatest truth was revealed. How was this gift granted? After days of fasting of dreams, desires, longings, light explosions of the thirsty heart, and other glitches, moments of inner peace came.

Inner peace would then lead to another octave of being, integration and energetic fatigue, in the hyper mind trapped in a hyper body.

Magnificent came the feeling and the vision, of the greatest dream ever dreamt, but hardly understood at first sight and first touch of the soul. There were we, up above in some perception of a sky of golden hue with clouds of gold, many of us, holding hands with each other, inviting me to come and bathe in eternal balance and peace. There, in the circle of beloveds, I was sharing the metaphysical flow of the heart and the hands, with serious yet peaceful countenance. As my consciousness entered the holographic projection of my soul, what I felt can hardly in words be described.

I felt a power beyond words in full individual brilliance and expression, powerful beyond constraints and elegantly dark. There I stood, calm and in love, feeling first the flow of the hand of one of my beloveds and then of the others. What came next is the even hardest part to describe at first sight and touch.

The vibration of us all feels dark, tremendously high vibrationally dark, with a purity of wisdom and purity of heart, yet dark. Dark? How come this darkness that I feel is so full of peace and infinite love? I no longer feel the feeling of blissful merging of a kind of light that we have known for too long. This a different feeling of pure individual freedom, no merging of minds or hearts in a single vibration as if we are one energy but instead something higher and better. Perfectly suitable for individual expression of the soul but in communion with other souls.

My own vibration is strong, serene, yet powerful, wise and loving beyond words. So is the soul vibration of my beloveds. Their energies feel like the love of Cosmos itself. Yet each has its own taste, so beautifully strong and spicy with power beyond what we consciously have known.

Perhaps the idea of a taste is not adequate and the term “dark” in itself is not accurate either because of the idea that we have about darkness. Is is not evil at all or negative. On the contrary, it is the energy of void but expressed individually. It is the pure integration of light and dark that creates something more magnificent.

In such perfect balance I was shown how just with the stare, or the holding of hands, or with the intention of the heart, subtle, yet powerful flows of energies travel from being to being, from heart to heart, from hand to hand, which reminds me of the bonding of molecules.

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Molecules joined together create a greater substance

Each atom keeps its own essence, its nucleus, yet it is in the sharing of electrons that the atoms sum up to create molecules and a greater force. Such is the flow of love and life force from being to being. The energy is shared from one heart to another and goes back and forth, returning to its owner and going to the other again and again and again but never losing individual power and expression or vibration. We do not merge as One. We remain individuals sharing One Love.

For days I ponder on this kind of vibration that feels better than the light that I know, the light that unifies in dimensions in one single apparent explosion of bliss, the one that we are being taught about sometimes. The one that feels like some sort of sexual passion of chakra merging, the kundalini merging that people crave and experience often in certain layers of astral/ethers and that feels like a complete dissolution into Source, where individual identity no longer exists.

This dark vibration is then not negative; it is the pure essence of the soul. It is not the darkness of the darkworker who hates and seeks separation and destruction, out of the deepest feelings of rejection and lack of acknowledgement and respect. Not the kind of darkness that, in such state of lack of love seeks to accumulate material wealth and dominates and seeks to control.

Instead, this is a beautiful elegant high-vibrational void energy that actually emits a certain new kind of light at will in perfect balance. I go insane, to taste my own soul vibration once again, and that of my beloveds.

So are then the words of my beloveds in their true soul vibration expression:

“Seek not at this time your true soul vibration or your true power, seek not to reach this state as long as attachments you hold towards us your beloveds. Your desire is not pure and as such the farther you are from thyself. Seek thyself first in synchronicity with timelessness, and seek us not. Let your soul vibration come back to you. Love will find its way to you.”

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A Dark Knight by Jonathon E. Bowser, taken from: http://www.JonathonArt.com

Pondering further on this state of new integrated darkness with light, an image I see, as memories of ancient pasts come forth to reveal the truth of desires. Journeys of time travel each night and each day reveal one by one the nature of dreams, for dreams in astral layers are often forged through timelines of suffering and pain.

For many months, I had been seeing lots of positive futures with those beloveds in my inner perception. There was a limited awareness that those positive futures were in some way a desire and a dream to correct or give a positive closure to ancient timelines of pain, of suffering, of what in human terms we perceive as mistakes.

Is this not then, the calling of the Buddha, to watch out for our wildest dreams, longings and desires? Is this not then the space and the time in the mind where suffering and pain is born and then the decay of body manifests? Is this not then how reincarnation and karma are related to each other?

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A whole year passed since that strange experience of feeling the nature of my own individual soul vibration, and the soul of some of my loved ones. My mind continued generating dreams, desires and hopes for some possible near future. Such visions were based on previously lived experiences in other timelines with my loved ones.

As time passed, I could really see that there was something else behind these dreams, that lead to a certain waiting. It was a very uncomfortable process. These images and feelings flashing all the time were preventing me from seeing other essential aspects of life in the now moment. I could see how much I still needed to do to align myself more with the true will of my own soul.

From that point in time when I got to see that vision and feel that vibration within my soul, to this point by the end of 2016, a lot changed in my perception. I had to go through a very intense process of letting go, so much, in order to see how far is the path in life to reach that vision. More than ever, it feels as far away as it can be, but the difference now is that other individual goals have been accomplished. So much healing has taken place to understand other painful scenes behind those old dreams. I swim deeper and deeper into the subterranean cave of uncertainty, and surrender to it, as uncomfortable as it feels.

The Inner and Outer Balance Between Aspects in our Current Time of Global Transition…Part 1

Sometimes it is hard to see or to even imagine how globally the human collective will reach a peaceful balance in which everyone can live harmoniously with their needs perfectly met. Theoretically, at soul level, everyone has their needs already met in their own individual scheme of desired experiences and explored lessons to approach the eternal knowing of love.

More than a year ago I was shown in a vision something that I felt could be reached on the long term at a global scale, with a dose of doubt as to what I was shown. I rather not soak my mind in the sea of possibilities that provide the necessary fuel in the creation of specific predictions. However, I think this vision is worth mentioning for several reasons.

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The vision in itself is something that already exists in our physical reality but the only difference between the vision and the current manifestation of such vision is the imbalance of the present paradigm.

The shadow of Oneness vs the shadow of individual expression

In the first part of this vision, I was shown how there is this dark spot within the human collective where the power is or was concentrated as a consequence of a subconscious desire of the collective for Oneness in a state of entropy. In this chaotic state, deep wounds determine the movement of such dark spot. The dark spot is not necessarily fixed but is expressed as the collective thought form that only a small single group of individuals retain the power of manifestation of the collective in physical. In this way, the illusion that only this single group owns the power of the collective exists and is perpetuated.

Not long ago it would seem as if, as part of the balancing process, the collective of people who desired Oneness was in some way subconsciously feeding the idea of a New World Order in which, in one way or another, dominant belief systems would be established and this single dark spot would make the decisions. Even if consciously people did not intend for such outcome to be manifested, it was the collection of individual subconscious wounds what was feeding this outcome.

Currently this tide has been reversed in such a way that now we see how in many regions of the planet certain nationalist movements in the political arena are expanding, which are less supportive of the original idea of a unique culture, a unique system without boundaries where only the single spot would govern this uniform society. The current focus is more on placing barriers to prevent an imbalanced Oneness to take over.

What this all means is that collectively we are fluctuating between old timelines and paradigms in which we are basically trying to find a new balance between Oneness and individual expression.Such process brings forth the subsequent set of problems related to the still prevailing lack of mutual understanding between the needs of groups who desire to preserve certain cultural, social, religious and economic paradigms, the fight for resources and defining territory as the needed homeland. The root of such problems extend back in time to societies outside of Earth.

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Before a new balance can be reached, a certain degree of collective and individual healing is still required to reach a consensus between how much people desire to:

-Share physical resources through different economic, social, religious and cultural means.

-Share ideals, beliefs, doctrines both in their individual lives and collectively.

-Allow for small regions, countries and continents to continue cultivating hybrid systems and reach more uniformity or instead to preserve the uniqueness that defines such regions, countries and continents.

-End conflicts by reaching a higher understanding of the mutual needs of apparently different groups and step out of blaming games.

-Redefine consumer patterns and production means through individual and collective balance.

I personally see a great potential that goes beyond the unique desires of each individual to focus or to stick to certain life styles, ideas, belief systems and even physical and non-physical manifestation potentials.

There is instead the potential to acknowledge Oneness while at the same time being respectful of differences in life styles, economic wants and needs, culture, philosophies, belief systems and acceptance among groups with unique DNA configuration. We often fear what we do not understand or what we think might threaten our existence.

When we think that something has to be eradicated instead of being brought to balance and to acknowledge any positive aspect of it, then we contribute further to the chaos and imbalance that exists in our world.

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Going back to the vision, in the second part I was shown how reality is fractalized in such a way that taking as an example food markets, a possible scenario of peaceful balance could be manifested:

Major retail stores as we already know them selling and promoting more natural products coming from diverse regions of the world, expanding the supply. Fair prices and fair conditions for sellers and employees. Beautiful modern designs in such major stores with elegant natural concepts making the buying experience a very pleasant one like visiting a museum. Some places already exist but there would be more expansion of such food markets to other regions where they are non existent and where people have less access to such products and less income.

Beautiful balance in small food stores fortifying local markets and good logistics, not in conflict with the major retail stores.

No more problems with harmful chemicals in agricultural products or unfair treatment towards animals, no unfair commerce and more cleanliness.

Major companies can then coexist with smaller business with the goal of becoming the larger cultural, social and economic expressions for the collective while respecting the smaller regions and producers and creating balance between products of diverse countries.

Currently it is difficult to approach such vision when there is so much work to do to bring peace and balance to this world. More and more this vision is manifesting in several places though, at least in steps.

Hybrid systems are being created that allow for people to use more diversified digital/virtual forms of money, but in a world where the needs of people are very diverse then physical mediums of exchange are not sacrificed to bring forth fully such systems that are not applicable to certain places, especially very poor regions. Others find new solutions in fair barter. More balance in the economy and in the lives of people.

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The splendor of Earth is the possibility for different physical manifestation potentials to coexist peacefully without the eradication of any aspect or paradigm that can contribute in positive ways to the collective.

What prevents us as a collective society to reach such balance in which Oneness is not in conflict with individual expression?

Our feelings of inadequacy, of not being valuable enough, of not being understood or feeling like our voice is not powerful enough. That others have more power over us or that our decisions do not affect the collective. That we are not loved enough, or accepted for who we are. That we are always different from the rest of the world in such a way that we cannot fit. That we wish sometimes that we were not different or that we wish that we could be the best of ourselves with our unique differences.

Elevate these feelings to the collective level and see then why there is not always a consensus or harmony between families, regions, countries and ultimately as a planet. Even those people that you label as dark ones carry such feelings within and are not acknowledged to be human beings with the potential for change within their hearts.

Now let me tell you something else. Go back to the notion of a dark spot or a global group of control and think how everyday people project their feelings of disempowerment towards this group of groups and how the individual shadows of people feed this dark spot further and further. People do not even know exactly how many individuals make up this dark spot or if the people from ancient times who were labelled as the dark ones still have an influence. It is in my understanding that many of these ancient people are not even holding any power positions and some are even going through healing and fulfilling positive roles but the ancient wounds remain.

Redistribute this power in such a way that each individual becomes fully responsible for their own creations, their own feelings, their own thoughts and in some way or another can open up new paths for better individual expression. A burden would then be lifted from the dark spot, shrinking it and allowing for more balance to happen.

In the next part of this essay, the current healing, integration and merging of aspects of each individual is explored in the context of ascension.

 

The Neptune-Saturn-Pluto Dance in our Subconsciousness

This article is an extension or a complement for the long essay “Divine Dreams of the Timeless Mind” which contains additional notes from a simple astrological/archetypal perspective (See post Divine Dreams in Zero Point and DNA Activations).

The three celestial bodies and basic archetypes

There are three planets in our solar system that have some very unique electromagnetic and etheric properties which mirror well the dance of our polarized soul at subconscious level. Such planets are the three outer planets Neptune, Saturn and Pluto. The other planets also mirror well our conscious and unconscious dynamics in the multiple realms of matter and spirit that we inhabit.

First of all you might ask, what is the relationship between the movements of the spheres that make up the solar system and ourselves as individuals? Every planet has a set of physical and energetic qualities that together make up a system in which each part influences the other parts.

Compared to the proportion of the planets, physically and energetically, we are very tiny. We are bound to Earth by her gravity, her own electromagnetic and etheric fields and her ecosystems. The other bodies that surround her also have their own qualities, and their masses and etheric dynamics are large enough to influence each other. On top of that, the rotation and passage movements of each body create special flows of energy, affecting each other throughout time. Planetary movements and the celestial movements of larger or smaller bodies and the characteristics of these can be used as a reference to understand our own dynamics. Reality is like a fractal.

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The planets of the solar system and their archetypal meanings.

Physically speaking and in terms of archetypes, let us take a look at some basic information about the three large bodies that mirror the way our thought processes are generated:

Neptune is one of the large outer planets of the solar system with an aqueous surface and gaseous atmosphere. The chemical composition of the gaseous-aqueous substances gives to it its characteristic light blue color. Blue is often associated to the spiritual, that which cannot be seen, the sky, high above the ground. The archetypal role of this planet in astrology is to represent the spiritual nature of the individual soul and the collective, the dream world, the lack of boundaries, the illusions, delusions and addictions and spiritual unity.

Saturn on the other hand is a dense aqueous-gaseous planet with a different chemical composition made of a hard metallic core, a liquid surface and yellowish atmosphere. It is well known for its rings which is a result of the destruction of one or more of its moons. The yellowish color can be compared to the material world and power, in all its forms. Its archetype is one of much discipline, sometimes harsh, austere, hard work and the concept of time.

Pluto is the last official large body orbiting the Sun, which has been debated over time to be a planet or simply a dwarf object. It is rocky in composition and its archetype is one of death, transformation and the subconscious.

Based on these essentials, you can start getting an idea on how these three bodies mirror well our conscious and subconscious nature.

Dreams, desires and hopes and the three celestial bodies in a chart

In the middle of my personal evaluation and re-evalulation of dream generating process, I realize that I am ready to let go more than before so many of my old ideas, dreams, desires and hopes, based on timelines playing within my subconsciousness. I was able to remove some etheric attachments and start seeing more clearly how some old dreams were indeed based on unfulfilled desires of the past. Some were simply based on conflicting situations that had left the desire to manifest the same dream all over again and see if this time it would work out well. We know somehow that this is not how it works. If the same wounds are carried and are being played out over and over again then it is more than obvious that the dream will collapse and taste sour.

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On top of that, sometimes our dreams might carry a whole burden of ancient promises that were never fulfilled and of either imposed social pressures or self imposed pressures of all kinds. Take as an example the idea that, if you do not excel in your activities maybe you are being stripped away from your dignity. If you do not have the partner of your dreams or other relationships of your dreams, you are not a dignified human being. If the ones who you want to be with are not there with you, then you are unfulfilled. If things look chaotic outside then there is no peace within your mind and your heart. If you do not look the way you want to look then you are not worthy of yourself or of others. If you do not have enough money then you cannot have joy at least for a moment during the day.

Notice then how we are the first ones to impose limitations on ourselves when subconsciously we feel forced to have certain things in our lives or to live under certain circumstances. Otherwise, we are not valuable enough, not worthy enough, not integral enough, and ultimately not whole enough.

So go ahead and go back to your dreams, to your hopes, to your desires, and make a list of how much are these dreams colored by the above limitations and pressures within your own soul.

-Are you sure you desperately need what you crave for?

-Are your dreams realistic and compatible with your current reality?

-Can you create a bridge to take you from your current reality to the reality that you crave for?

-Are your desires taking away your peace of mind and heart in the now moment?

-Do your hopes and desires for the future prevent you from enjoying the potential of oy in your present life?

This is the turning point where you start seeing how you move down from the purely Neptunian mindset of dreams, higher realms and illusions, into the Plutonic realms of death of old limiting ideas, old programs, limitations, loss, and despair through the gates of Saturnian discipline and hard realistic work of what you must do to manifest better dreams. Or you are guided to let go old dreams that now you know are no longer in your higher interest to achieve.

You do not have to be an astrologer to get the basic notions of this article and its previous parts, but I do find astrology to be an excellent complementary tool to understand our soul path, our subconsciousness, our deep wounds, the possibilities for future manifestation of dreams and the way in which we can bring forth our talents to manifest in the physical.

You can ask for guidance from an astrologer to help you see in which areas Neptune, Pluto and Saturn are present in your chart and work more consciously with these influences in your life path.

What is important is to allow the current energies to transform you and reach a new balance in your life. A merely Neptunian mindset without going deep enough into your subconscious, will only cause trouble, disappointment and confusion. A purely Saturnian existence would be a life full of sober routine, an austere one without joy and playful manifestation.

Within the now moment is the potential for radical transformation, empowerment and new tools for a more fulfilling existence, unlike one of constant longing, never fulfilled dreams and eternal expectations of something that might or might not happen the way we wish it happened in our lives and outer circumstances.

The Keys of the God-Self: Divine Dreams of the Timeless Mind

by Karla Damarelya Segura

“For those who seek peace in times of unprecedented destruction and transformation.”

Exactly one year ago, by the end of 2015, I decided to let go and let God.  When the apparent decisions of the light in my life were coming to fruition, the poison of darkness came as an echo of ancient trauma, thus bringing conflict to my consciousness.

To serve the light invites darkness to come from the most unexpected places. The war of ages begin in each corner of the planet and in the dusty figments of lost knowledge within the configuration of the human mind. I decide to leave once again, and enter introspection. It is time to face an ancient bomb of my own creation that travels within the fluid realms of astral and etheric layers.

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Oriental dragon painting, taken from: http://fengshui-paintings.com

Locked in my quarantined space I ponder on the ancient knowledge of the Buddha, the avatar state of emptiness and eternal peace. From such ancient knowledge, I am being shown something that I had not felt or seen before.

Aspects of some beloved soul connections greet me in the spirit realms and excitement floods my being. One of my companions stare at me and then these cryptic words she pronounces:

“Distortions you hold in your mind of my nature dearest sister. Stop your outbursts of love and lower your vibration so that you are able to meet me in a state of more balance, only then can you see more of who I am.”

I breathe slowly, stop the flow of love from my heart and stare into her piercing eyes, feeling then the fear and the pain in our karmic contract, for you see, somewhere in this world she lives in a physical body. Most of her soul essence travels within the realms of light and dark in what we know as the astral/etheric world.

I feel the fear but slowly within my being a power is being reborn, slowly, very slowly, almost unnoticeable. As days pass, I am guided in what sometimes felt for days like a military and Asian training of sorts, based on the ancient knowledge of the Buddha and other Oriental practices.

“Soon must you let us go my dearest sister, thou shall no longer seek us, for only when you transcend all desires, will we appear in your physical reality. Many are we, yet vibration of the individual expression of the One is what you seek, your own soul vibration.”

To let go was more reasonable those days, sometimes reaching an overindulgence of it and its consequential peace, as opposed to other days of painful dreams. For you see, some keys have been shared with me, of the true meaning of letting go. Before I share them with you, dear beloved, dear brother, dear sister here is what I saw, unexpectedly one night:

After restless nights of incomprehensible energetic explosions in all bodies of the being, the greatest truth was revealed. How was this gift granted? After days of fasting of dreams, desires, longings, light explosions of the thirsty heart, and other glitches, moments of inner peace came.

Inner peace would then lead to another octave of being, integration and energetic fatigue, in the hyper mind trapped in a hyper body.

Magnificent came the feeling and the vision, of the greatest dream ever dreamt, but hardly understood at first sight and first touch of the soul. There were we, up above in some perception of a sky of golden hue with clouds of gold, many of us, holding hands with each other, inviting me to come and bathe in eternal balance and peace. There, in the circle of beloveds, I was sharing the metaphysical flow of the heart and the hands, with serious yet peaceful countenance. As my consciousness entered the holographic projection of my soul, what I felt can hardly in words be described.

I felt a power beyond words in full individual brilliance and expression, powerful beyond constraints and elegantly dark. There I stood, calm and in love, feeling first the flow of the hand of one of my beloveds and then of the others. What came next is the even hardest part to describe at first sight and touch.

The vibration of us all feels dark, tremendously high vibrationally dark, with a purity of wisdom and purity of heart, yet dark. Dark? How come this darkness that I feel is so full of peace and infinite love? I no longer feel the feeling of blissful merging of a kind of light that we have known for too long. This a different feeling of pure individual freedom, no merging of minds or hearts in a single vibration as if we are one energy but instead something higher and better. Perfectly suitable for individual expression of the soul but in communion with other souls.

My own vibration is strong, serene, yet powerful, wise and loving beyond words. So is the soul vibration of my beloveds. Their energies feel like the love of God, yet each has its own taste, so beautifully strong and spicy with power beyond what we consciously have known.

Perhaps the idea of a taste is not adequate and the term “dark” in itself is not accurate either because of the idea that we have about darkness. Is is not evil at all or negative. On the contrary, it is the energy of void but expressed individually. It is the pure integration of light and dark that creates something more magnificent.

In such perfect balance I was shown how just with the stare, or the holding of hands, or with the intention of the heart, subtle, yet powerful flows of energies travel from being to being, from heart to heart, from hand to hand, which reminds me of the bonding of molecules.

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Molecules joined together create a greater substance.

Each atom keeps its own essence, its nucleus, yet it is in the sharing of electrons that the atoms sum up to create molecules and a greater force. Such is the flow of love and life force from being to being. The energy is shared from one heart to another and goes back and forth, returning to its owner and going to the other again and again and again but never losing individual power and expression or vibration. We do not merge as One. We remain individuals sharing One Love.

For days I ponder on this kind of vibration that feels better than the light that I know, the light that unifies in dimensions in one single apparent explosion of bliss, the one that we are being taught about sometimes. The one that feels like some sort of sexual passion of chakra merging, the kundalini merging that people crave and experience often in certain layers of astral/ethers and that feels like a complete dissolution into Source, where individual identity no longer exists.

This dark vibration is then not negative; it is the pure essence of the soul. It is not the darkness of the darkworker who hates and seeks separation and destruction, out of the deepest feelings of rejection and lack of acknowledgement and respect. Not the kind of darkness that, in such state of lack of love seeks to accumulate material wealth and dominates and seeks to control.

Instead, this is a beautiful elegant high-vibrational void energy that actually emits a certain new kind of light at will in perfect balance. I go insane, to taste my own soul vibration once again, and that of my beloveds.

So are then the words of my beloveds in their true soul vibration expression:

“Seek not at this time your true soul vibration or your true power, seek not to reach this state as long as attachments you hold towards us your beloveds. Your desire is not pure and as such the farther you are from thyself. Seek thyself first in synchronicity with timelessness, and seek us not. Let your soul vibration come back to you. Love will find its way to you.”

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A Dark Knight by Jonathon E. Bowser, taken from: http://www.JonathonArt.com

Pondering further on this state of new integrated darkness with light, an image I see, as memories of ancient pasts come forth to reveal the truth of desires. Journeys of time travel each night and each day reveal one by one the nature of dreams, for dreams in astral layers are often forged through timelines of suffering and pain.

For many months, I had been seeing lots of positive futures with those beloveds in my inner perception. There was a limited awareness that those positive futures were in some way a desire and a dream to correct or give a positive closure to ancient timelines of pain, of suffering, of what in human terms we perceive as mistakes.

Is this not then, the calling of the Buddha, to watch out for our wildest dreams, longings and desires? Is this not then the space and the time in the mind where suffering and pain is born and then the decay of body manifests? Is this not then how reincarnation and karma are related to each other?

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A whole year has passed since that strange experience of feeling the nature of my own individual soul vibration, and the soul of some of my loved ones. My mind continued generating dreams, desires and hopes for some possible near future. Such visions were based on previously lived experiences in other timelines with my loved ones.

As time passed, I could really see that there was something else behind these dreams, that lead to a certain waiting. It was a very uncomfortable process. These images and feelings flashing all the time were preventing me from seeing other essential aspects of life in the now moment. I could see how much I still needed to do to align myself more with the true will of my own soul.

From that point in time when I got to see that vision and feel that vibration within my soul, to this point by the end of 2016, a lot has changed in my perception. I had to go through a very intense process of letting go, so much, in order to see how far is the path in life to reach that vision. More than ever, it feels as far away as it can be, but the difference now is that other individual goals have been accomplished. So much healing has taken place to understand other painful scenes behind those old dreams. I swim deeper and deeper into the subterranean cave of uncertainty, and surrender to it, as uncomfortable as it feels.

The First Key:  Natural cosmic process of reintegration of the soul essence known as soul retrieval.

Soul retrieval holds the first key to manifestation of better dreams, better experiences, and a higher path, by consciously embarking on a true savior mission of one’s own soul. From aspects in countless timelines, first sub keys of darkness and light are revealed. Soul retrieval is the art of ascension in its unconscious or conscious first stages of prismatic Cosmic rearrangement. By learning the secrets of the worldly light and the worldly darkness the next keys are revealed.

The sub keys of the First Key can be seen in the diagrammatic literal representation of scientific configuration of energy in the manifested and non-manifested Universes. Simple is the diagram, yet revelation holds its nature when one sees a mirror reflection of the soul in this larger fractal soul configuration:

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The Universe is mostly made of matter, dark matter and dark energy. Taken from: NASA.

You can see that, for the most part, the Creation that we know about is composed of dark energy and dark matter. These are forms of very light energy with a heavy density that cannot be seen in physical, as opposed to the condensed particles that make up the physical configuration of Universes.

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Electromagnetic layers of Earth which are similar to the energetic system of each human being known as aura. Taken from: http://galactic.no/rune/oscarBusch_theLand_beyond.htm

We as individuals are no different from the Cosmos in our composition. Our shadow self is made up of dark energy and dark matter. You can imagine that for the most part, we are made up of etheric self. Imagine then how the astral realms are made up of the same substance. However, dark energy and dark matter vibrate differently in each layer of each dimension and density.

Very much like how, for the most part, our brain is in apparent state of slumber, as is the large portion of DNA known as “junk”, so are the layers of astral/etheric substance.

How are then the astral/etheric layers connected to the notions of dark energy and dark matter and what we call the light in higher dimensions, our brain and our DNA? How are these concepts associated to the soul vibration, to inner peace, to letting go? Before we reach those keys take a look at the following diagram:

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The subconscious mind stores the experiences of the soul in different timelines and creates dimensions of consciousness of light and dark in contrast with the space of integrated experiences within the highest expression of the soul.

From our uncountable experiences on Earth we have created what people call the Matrix, both in physical and in astral/etheric layers.

What is truly the mass of energy that makes up then the astral/etheric realms (multidimensional)?

A person who is grounded and who is not interested or ready to tap into what people often refer to “spiritual” are people who either have a great capacity to generate physical resources or are not efficient in such task (i.e. wealth). However, these individuals are less aware of how their thought processes generate as well as the meaning of their dreams while asleep, and the collective energies surrounding them at all times. Such individuals are also either service to others oriented or service to self.

First Sub key: understanding the non integrated light of unity consciousness in a polarized world.

When an individual activates the capacities of his/her third eye and crown chakras they become aware of the energetic environment surrounding them. However, in a transition process, the very first fallacy of this individual is to believe that he/she is following since the very first moment of this realization a path of pure goodness and service (this is not always the case though). On the contrary, a long path of self-awareness begins. Over time, the individual assimilates and integrates the information of the soul as a whole to understand, that in essence, there is no such thing as being defined by the basic notions of good or evil.

The awakening individual begins a new journey through the grid or layers of non integrated light. Sometimes they believe to be always of goodness, always different and abused by society in general, with a mission to save others, seeking oneness, unity, and the merging of energies with others indiscriminately. This process is achieved often times by raising the vibration to the level of the Little Heaven of light where the first notions of spirituality are learned and remembered.

In these dimensions of consciousness, with or without spiritual notions or practices, all individuals seek joy, bliss, and the manifestation of dreams with such emotional qualities. Energetically, part of this thick layer is also built when individuals exchange sexual energies. The blissful energetic explosions of life force are spread in the environment through the merging of the bodies and chakras. At this level, it is difficult to distinguish between the soul frequencies of vibrations of each individual, simply because at this level all energies are merged into a collective energy, a grid of light where parts of the consciousness of certain beings reside.

It is an energetic vibration of joy and bliss, where the beautiful dreams of individuals and the collective are forged and desired to be manifested. For this reason, I call it the Little Heaven.

Is there anything wrong with this? Absolutely not. However, in a dualistic paradigm in the 3rd density with lower 3rd and 4th dimensional levels of consciousness, during cycles of thousands or millions of years, this thick layer of blissful light is built, in some cases through the most selfish and heinous motives. How is this possible? To this point beloved brother or sister, I shall come back later.

Second Sub key: understanding the non integrated darkness of separation in a polarized world.

When a collective of individuals begin an ascension process to a higher density, awareness of inner conflict of light and dark forces begin. It is a difficult integration process of a personal Universe of aspects residing in different timelines that converge in the Now moment in astral/etheric realms. What this means basically is that each aspect of your soul is an incarnation of the past or parts of incarnations, which also include futuristic past lives that hold possibilities for future manifestation.

The fragmented soul then resides for the most part in these higher realms, either in a hellish reality or in a heavenly reality. Their residence depends on the frames of each timeline playing itself simultaneously in the Now moment. Only one incarnated aspect which is us in physical has the colossal mission to integrate over time all other aspects of the soul. This process can also happen during the course of several incarnations, as long as it happens during an extensive ascension process to the 4th and 5th densities of individual expression (not to be confused with dimensions!).

In this initial process, the individual begins a conscious recalling process of tiny pieces of information from this convergence of other lives in many ways. However, very little is recalled in the initial cases of the negative path of the soul throughout millennia of incarnations. Sometimes, some gruesome scenes are seen without a link to repeating patterns and decisions. The abusive/abused nature of many of these aspects of the soul that affect greatly the path of the incarnated soul, as much as in previous incarnations where ascension was not possible, is not understood.

For the most part, many individuals with a spiritual aspiration think of themselves as initially being always the abused or the victim. Such inner projection is then seen in the conflict in relationships, from the biological family to society as a whole. Conflicts are especially projected directly at the individuals who chose to reflect the massive darkness of society: a dark cabal. During this confusing process we might feel constantly threatened by other individuals and other unseen forces and lives in the illusion of not living a life of true freedom. Spiritual ideas clash with the ideas of their loved ones and society in general. There is much inner conflict projected in the outside in this initial stage of ascension.

A small group of negative oriented individuals in government positions, spiritual organizations, large corporations, financial corporations and in other sectors, reflect the nature of the recollection of the collective subconscious nature in the darkness of lower realms, where the most dominant parts of each aspect reside. These are the dominant aspects that seek control at all costs, who take actions based purely on impulse, who seek to divide and destroy without hesitation.

Even the apparently most spiritual individual carries a degree of negativity from soul aspects, without exception. However, it is in the creative capacity of these aspects where so much of our True Power resides, including the power to generate physical resources and a sense of balance and empowerment. No wonder then why a small group holds the key to manifest the largest amount of physical resources, at all costs.

Remember that our subconscious, our brain, our DNA, is for the most part made up of dark matter and dark energy, where the lower realms of hell and the higher realms of little heaven exist. We are for the most part made up of a magnificent amount of aspects that have been abused and who have abused, but also who have lived for many causes and who have experienced love in uncountable ways through much suffering. For such reason, an incarnated individual cannot come to the physical with such a great level of integration of these aspects. Integration in itself is the ascension process.

The most negative and impulsive aspects of the soul hold such degree of pain and anger that these forces were in negative timelines converted into the purest impulse to destroy and to harm. An analogy of this is a very traumatized dog that attacks without hesitation and kills. Think about criminals who seem to be in a state beyond reason who hunt people to fulfill a negative impulse to destroy.

At this point my dear reader, everything sounds perhaps dreadful. Think about the most difficult moments in history when wars and other conflicts took place and decisions were made based mostly on impulse and not on the kind of rationale that we apply when we face pain. During our current stage of ascension of our consciousness, very likely you see that there is a much higher path than the previously known path of impulses.

it is then with the application of values like forgiveness, mercy, compassion, acceptance, empathy and awareness in general, that we dissolve all the negativity in our soul and our most negative aspects are then seen as aspects that took decisions based on much suffering, in times where there was no genuine guidance from the soul and from the heart of Creation.

Third Sub Key: understanding conflict of polarities during global ascension.

The light in our consciousness is what prevents us from becoming the worst of our souls, from experiencing the pain of our past without any filters or restrictions. We will not harm what we perceive as an opponent, we might not even punch someone, even if we are abused. Over time we learn to stand up for ourselves in the best possible way, without perpetuating conflict like in ancient times, during the most destructive stages. We reach for a higher path in which we internalize conflict and we assimilate the lessons of the past.

What many spiritual aspirants to ascension share in common is the early experiences of abuse in our current incarnation. Such abuses trigger the wounded aspects of the soul to integrate in such a safe way that we do not end up harming others out of revenge with our most negative potential. Even if there is revenge, the circumstances in which we are placed allow for us to take the higher road of awareness and mastery.

You can see these experiences of abuse as portals or reminders of our soul paths in multiple incarnations that lead us to a new path of higher inner resolution. These experiences remind us at subconscious level of the level of abuse experienced in millennia in 3rd density, from the standpoint of the victim but also to understand how we became the abusers.

When such experiences are not fully understood, then the aspirant begins an inner struggle with himself/herself and also with the world. So is the case of millions of individuals who display much physical, emotional, mental and spiritual confusion and turmoil and who also feel threatened by the outer circumstances. Some then seek in the higher layers of non integrated light, subconsciously, the presence of some higher power to come for their rescue and that of humanity.

The struggle intensifies in such a way that the aspirant feels overwhelmed with the following outer conflicts:

-The presence of “negative entities” or “demons” in lower realms and even engaging in fights with them, perpetuating conflict and increasing the collective level of polarization.

-The conflict with a dark cabal, from governments to large corporations and lower levels of authority.

-The threats of terrorist attacks, threats of war, threats of high technologies used by negative individuals, etc.

-Threats of financial collapse and inability to manifest resources in physical.

-Conflicts with religious beliefs and institutions.

-Conflicts with family and friends.

-Conflicts with personal identity, gender, tastes, beliefs, etc.

If such inner conflicts are constantly mirrored in the outside, the spiritual aspirant slowly becomes overwhelmed with his/her own negative or service-to-self oriented aspects that cannot be fully integrated. The aspirant feels in much conflict with the outer world as a consequence.

Two cases come to my mind when I think about how, when we seek to hold on to a spiritual path without proper integration we can become imbalanced. Some examples include spiritual masters who over history left us magnificent teachings, but who took actions that seemed contradictory and even extreme in some cases.

Another case is simply what we often see as an increasing and unforgiving repulsion towards the collective shadow that is blatantly mirrored by many of the people who control the resources of the planet. The latter in particular can drag us down into a spiral of negativity. Far from assisting in neutralizing the negativity of the planet we might contribute to worsen the inner polarization of the elite minority and that of the astral environment, depending on how we use our psychic capabilities. By sending our hate to them, we fragment ourselves further and we block their own capability for positive change.

Only by coming to terms over time with our own levels of soul polarization will true transformation begin and the origins of darkness will find in all expressions a common ground in the light.

The true nature of the dreams of the fragmented self

Before the next keys are analyzed, let us examine now the following diagram to understand the current polarized psychology of manifestation in a stage of increasing polarization:

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Positive dreams come from small figments of experience.

In this diagram, which is closely associated to the previous diagram, you can see that our thought processes and dreams are highly influenced by the presence of the aspects of our souls residing in multiple timelines of previous physical incarnations. In a way, what we do when we receive inspiration is to take memories of astral/etheric nature from such pieces of our soul and their experiences. This is, for the most part, a subconscious way to recall other lifetimes of experience. Remember dear one, what you feel and sense and desire is a convergence of timelines in the Now moment.

However, just like in certain spiritual doctrines like Buddhism and Kabbalah, many times our recurrent dreams, desires and longings lead to a long road of expectations, hopeful mental projections of a desired future, disappointment and suffering. Our consciousness becomes plagued with constant longing, anxiety and despair. More so, if our dreams involve not only ourselves but others, an entanglement of complications plagues our bruised hearts beloveds.

In the diagram above, take as an example three lifetimes or timelines of much suffering, in which  the aspect lived a service-to-self oriented life or a service-to-others oriented life. From these three aspects that are not integrated and healed in the auric field of the currently incarnated aspect comes a series of thought forms or desires taken from little moments of joy and bliss from such timelines. From those moments, the incarnated aspect longs to fulfill such dreams and desires recurrently and serve like the gas for the car that takes them through the path of life.

However, sometimes such dreams cannot be fulfilled, either because the God-self has placed the incarnated aspect into a path of more restrictions to avoid following the previous paths that lead to painful deaths and harmful relationships and decisions. Other times, such desires come to fruition over time, but at the high cost of another path of decisions that once again leads to disastrous consequences. Or simply, it just takes a considerable amount of time to allow for the conditions to be manifested within and outside of the individual to create those dreams.

Take as an example the vision of a happy couple with children in a peaceful place. The aspirant then has a goal to fulfill such desire. However, imagine that in such timelines the aspirant had for the most part a very painful life with the partner and the children, or that such union was a consequence of the destruction of a previous family. Perhaps such visions of the past or thought forms of desire are based on a selfish desire. Maybe, outer circumstances made the life of the family an impossible one to bring to a joyful outcome. If, in the first case the relationship with such family must be healed, it might take a very long and tedious road of awareness and healing to repair such timelines to manifest a peaceful outcome.

In such cases it is then when dreams, desires and longings come from places of suffering and destruction in the subconscious mind of the one who seeks to manifest a higher path towards inner peace.


The Second Key: Letting go is the road to Inner Peace

In the previous part of this essay, the first key and the nature of dreams were expounded. As I explore the gifts of my subconscious, I share with you the next keys. What exactly do we need to let go in order to align with the highest dreams of our soul? In which ways can we make peace with the apparent failure of the previous dreams explored throughout our journey that lead in the past to suffering? Do we have to conform to achieve less than what we wanted?

You see my beloved that there is a long road to follow towards inner peace but this journey ends up being one of true empowerment and one that you will never regret.

Going back to the first diagram, the ball named “God-self” is the state of inner peace in which we can feel our true soul vibration. It is the state that is for the most part clouded by our current fluctuations, while we integrate little pieces of perhaps hundreds of aspects. When we hold a daily practice of emotional control and allowance of the integration/healing process to take place with more grace and less resistance, it is easier to reach more consciously a higher vibration. This vibration transcends the illusions of the non integrated light and the non integrated darkness.

It is in a state of emptiness where we enter inner balance and we anchor ourselves in the now moment. We allow life to happen to us and we then truly BEcome. In a state of mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual balance, we affect with our stable energy our environment in ways we do not even imagine.

If you like to do art, think about this moment of communion in which you are so focused on what you do, centered in your heart, nothing disturbs this moment of inner peace. You create and you allow your intuition to guide you through the process. It is a beautiful moment of communion with your soul, with the desire to create something special, and maybe even to share it with another. Perhaps you do not even have a very clear idea of what you will create, you just do it. Or you have an idea but throughout the process you allow for the creation to be birthed from your deepest desire.

In order to let go, first you must align yourself with your inner light and your inner darkness. You evaluate so far what you have manifested, and what you currently perceive as lack. You must ask both sides of yourself why, perhaps, when you manifested a dream in the past it was not your perfect dream, your ideal scenario, one that was in your mind flawless or simply beautiful enough to fulfill you.

In which areas was your manifested dream far from perfect? Where there energetic leaks in your system that left you drained, unfulfilled, unhappy in some other way? Why, if so far you have put so much effort in this dream, is it not yet what you crave or is it draining you? Even worse, why what you have expected all your life is not there yet within your reach? Does your dream involve the active presence of other souls?

If your dream is related to a personal project, like for example a house, a job, a career, a business, maybe the tools are easier to reach than if these dreams involve the presence of other souls.

What is complicated about manifesting dreams when it involves your relationship to other individuals, is the fact that you expect these people to align their will to your own will. Very likely there are imbalances within you or/and them which prevents the energy between each other to flow. This also applies to collectives, for example a whole nation and its leaders. Those leaders can be present physically as role models or authorities, or perhaps even spiritual leaders or guides that have not yet manifested physically in your life.

At this point, it is clear that something has not been working and maybe it is not even related to your outer circumstances, or your resources, or other people, but there is something within yourself that is simply not flowing like a river of energetic potential blocked by rocks, thus preventing material reality from morphing.

It is then, when if we ask our heart, our soul, our Higher Self, and Source to guide us to understand what is not working, a process of more conscious exploration begins that allows us to get in touch more deeply with our subconscious.

One by one, we can then start making peace with those blocks, letting them go, and allowing space for inner peace to be born within us. Only then, in this void, can we tap into the true potential of our soul as a whole and we align our will to the will of Creation.

First sub key: dealing consciously with the wounds

Often times we hear that we are the ones creating our reality. But sometimes we might miss some fine details about such process. We carry within our subconscious, and around us, the ghosts of the past. No matter how much we desire to manifest a more positive reality for ourselves and for others, we come across uncountable death ends, or we end up feeling that we need to conform to something lesser than what we originally had in mind.

Ask yourself these questions:

From 2012 to this day, how much have your dreams, hopes and desires changed?

-Do you feel disappointed about the way in which so far you have progressed in your spiritual development and your life in general?

-Are you disappointed of your outer circumstances and the world in general?

-Do you feel more empowered in some ways compared to how you felt a year ago, or many years ago?

Perhaps many times you reach the point in which you know that you have done a lot of inner work over the course of years. However, there is always something in your way that makes you feel that you are fighting. Perhaps the social, political and economic scenarios seem to be grim from some angles, or maybe the situation with your family is messy at the moment. Perhaps your job is not exactly what you wanted to accomplish in your professional life. There is always a challenge to face as we progress.

In many cases, it is very clear that when we make a list of the things that do not feel right about this physical reality, we can see that many of these situations are apparently out of our control. Actually, if we think about how others behave, there is very little we can do to control or change the situations.

Then, you start seeing how control, and the idea on how things should be or how others should act are the first things that you must let go, in one way or another. Easier said than done and very likely you have heard this before, elsewhere.

You can read all over again how we have to deal with our inner wounds and how we must let go control and any rigid ideas. But there is no way this process can take place if there are unexplored corners within our psyche, those sides of us that need the love of our heart, and that we decided to forget, because it was all too painful to face.

There are strong sides of us that might feel that other sides of us are too vulnerable. At a level we feel that our vulnerable sides can interfere in our life in many ways, so it is best not to face them. Often times, it is the abused sides of our soul what might makes us feel that we failed to stand up for ourselves, when we needed to be strong and wiser in our processes of decision making. We might then develop a stronger side, one that at times might be aggressive or that tries to avoid situations.

We might have achieved a level of spiritual maturity (our side of non integrated light) and try to convince ourselves that at soul level we chose our experiences. That we have infinite power to manifest. That we are sovereign individuals and that we do not need an outer force to act as an authority above us in detriment of our progress.

What we do not know is that sometimes we carry aspects within our subconscious and soul that act against our conscious will to manifest a higher path. This is true, especially if it involves the presence of other souls, which could also include a specific location. These parts of us that are denied by our conscious mind know something about these dreams that we are not aware of. As a consequence, they simply do not want for these dreams to become manifested in such a way that brings joy to ourselves and to others.

How is this possible? Why would a part of our soul want to act against an apparently positive intention?

The simple answer is that these aspects reside in a dimension of denial, in one way or another. It is not uncommon to feel that we have left behind much pain, and that we can even hardly remember certain painful stages of our lives, especially childhood and other earlier stages. We cannot blame ourselves for keeping these aspects in the lower realms of trauma. It is simply not an easy task to align them with our heart and to heal them. Healing them involves facing their pain in one way or another, and sometimes it really does not have to be that painful to make peace with our suffering.

For example, think about times in which we faced any forms of abuse during childhood, or even in other timelines in which our hearts were open and vulnerable and we faced deep traumas without little awareness of the nature of our soul. How do you explain to a child that there is a purpose in everything and that we are made of pure spiritual essence at a higher level?

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Denied aspects lead to suffering. Untitled by Karla Segura

A child is vulnerable and dependent of their families, teachers, and other soul companions and often times has partial or absolutely no awareness of a higher spiritual purpose and soul path. Therefore, if a child has been severely imprinted with deep traumatic experiences, this part of us has become disconnected from the new spiritual mature adult.

This child that is disconnected from our conscious mind, resides in lower realms of ether. They are wandering like a ghost, observing how life happens to us, and touching us in such a way that affects our daily experiences and perceptions. Perhaps the child comes in the form of a traumatized teenager. Or a martyr coming from another timeline. Or simply, the child that you were in your current incarnation.

You are in the process of manifesting a dream with enthusiasm, and maybe at first things are going well, until you start facing those patterns. You come across people who are not in alignment with your intention, or the dream collapses for other reasons. You leave behind a trail of disappointment along the way. Even worse, that which you wait for is not coming to meet you, yet.

You do not understand why the world is as it is, why there is so much unfairness and why as a collective we do not seem to progress yet towards that reality where there is peace and a more genuine sense of connection among people. The repulsive forces within ourselves and the world in general continue to bring chaos into our lives.

Even in Kabbalah, the concept of Satan is one in which the Universal force of repulsion and absorption acts against the light side of Creation that unites and gives love. It absorbs without having the capacity to love The denied side of us, far from attracting the big dream, uses its repulsive force to avoid more pain, ironically causing in us deep disappointment.

It is then, when you can start working more consciously with the part of us that resides in the lower realms through any means that you can find. You ask for assistance and somehow, you will receive the guidance needed to align yourself to the will of your higher mind.

I have faced in my own life the disappointment of asking many times for assistance to deal with the part of myself that has been denied, only to come across some strange circumstances in which I was given many times things that I perceived as things that I did not need. I was blocking myself from seeing love been given to me in lots of ways. It had been in my life a repeating pattern, and a sense of being upset would grow over time.

Second sub key to letting go the pain: only you can fully know what you need

From this difficult experience came the notion that not only was I always been given the necessary assistance in spirit form each time I asked and could not find the most suitable tools in physical. Also, I was lead to understand that in this world, absolutely no one will ever know more what are our own needs than ourselves. No one will help us more to reach a state of balance and inner peace than ourselves. We can come across lots of tools, in one way or another, that help us greatly. Even so, it is our task to be the ones to rescue those parts of ourselves that have been forgotten and denied, by others and by ourselves.

You might be able to connect this sub key to the sober experience of not having the leaders or authorities that we wish in our hearts that we could see in our physical reality. If we cannot know in full depth what the needs of our subconscious world are, then how can we expect that the world can have honest leaders that can provide to us what we need? The perfect partner? The perfect family? Perfect friends? Perfect students or teachers? Perfect jobs? Etc.?

How can we know then how much we have suppressed and denied and how much we need to provide to ourselves?

By asking our subconscious. By getting in touch with our own darkness. By truly disconnecting ourselves for at least a moment each day, from the rivers of information and stimuli we expose ourselves to, and ponder about those difficult stages in our lives that we rather forget, and ask the individual that we were in such times, the simple questions:

-How do you feel?

-What can I do for you?

-What is it that you want to tell me?

-What can you offer to me and what can you offer to me?

Sometimes, only by listening to these parts of us, the pain starts dissolving. Sometimes we might find ourselves crying lots of things we could not face before. And then, the miracle of seeing our world turning upside down and seeing our beliefs fall apart happen.

It might be a very uncomfortable process but at the same time, you feel how the power of your soul starts flowing. It is worth it.

Third sub key to letting go the pain: redefining our own value and what we deserve in life

When you have seeing more clearly what exactly are your needs as a human being and when you see in which miraculous ways you can truly provide for yourself the first resources that you need, by claiming back the parts of you that are denied, then you can take the next steps.

The next steps involve to think very deeply and often in which ways do you feel that others have defined your value and sense of self worth as a human being. These people include your parents, your siblings, your friends,  your colleagues, your partner or ex partners, and many others.

You can then see how much you value yourself or what exactly is for you the concept of value according to your experiences and perceptions. Perhaps you find yourself thinking that you deserve better than what you have or what you have gone through, but you still find yourself going through tough experiences. Others who find themselves and the world less valuable make you feel uncomfortable, even if you know they have their own patterns and issues.

Based on the previous notion of value comes the notion of deserving. What do you think and what do you feel do you deserve in life? Are you sure that you deserve only the best? What if those parts of you that reside in lower realms think otherwise? Perhaps part of you feels guilty for previous decisions? Perhaps others made you feel over time that you do not deserve?

These are important questions that one needs to ask oneself often.

The more we get in touch with the non integrated part of our soul that has been traumatized over time, we will start feeling that we are providing ourselves with the first and most important need. That need is to listen to our shadow self or aspects that exist in the lower dimensions of consciousness. By establishing an inner dialogue with our soul we can face these deep wounds in several timelines and we can then start creating a safe haven for ourselves in this constant inner dialogue.

If we cannot get to know ourselves and remember those times when we suffered greatly, such as the moments during childhood when our family could not give to us the confidence that we need, then the world will seem to be a dangerous place that is not safe for us or for others. It is true that bad things happen to lots of individuals and groups each day, but we must remember that very likely we cannot control those situations.

Before anything else we need to feed ourselves with the love of our heart and our soul to make space for the denied aspects of the psyche to come forth and feel that we are finally safe. We can let them know that we have unmeasurable value, and that we really do deserve the best. Maybe you think that others have value and that they deserve the best, but it is up to them to do their part and see this for themselves.

We cannot judge others fully for their actions more than we can judge ourselves. It is an act of humbleness to say to ourselves and to others that we no longer can say who should exist and who should not (think about how many people desire for the elitist groups to disappear from Earth without understanding their real purpose and their value as souls).

Over time, you can then establish a solid foundation in love with yourself, with your soul, with your heart and you can become confident seeing that all your efforts are worthwhile. You can feel that you value yourself enough to deserve better as you progress in life.

Only then, you can start attracting better situations and better resources, while you let go pain, old ideas, old expectations, old hopes, and you redefine your dreams and your desires. You desire less things that you previously desired based on the perceptions of scarcity. Your dreams are more genuine and aligned with the will of your soul and the will of other souls and Universal consciousness.

Peace starts to flood your being a little more each day. You have established an inner sense of confidence. You are safe, and you are loved by the brightness of your soul. You find more peace in the Now moment, and you worry less about that which you cannot change. You know that change is the only true constant.


Disappointment. Distraction. These two factors could block us from progressing further in our path towards finding ourselves, not just as precious jewels of Creation embodied in a human body, but as souls born directly from the essence of Source itself. You feel that there is no point anymore in thinking about having big dreams in your mind. Just think about how many things you do each day, that prevent you from spending time with yourself in silence. Yes you could say…but I have many responsibilities to attend to. So much to do in such little time. What about a few minutes before going to sleep? Or during the weekend? Are you 100% sure you do not have time?

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As we progress in our reconnection process with our soul, the notion of time dissolves. Taken from: tribunahoje.com

Third key: The state of timelessness of the mind and zero point

Over the last years we have been reading and hearing that in order to ascend we need to reach zero point and step out of time. I suspect though, that so far, there has not been a clear recipe provided for such colossal mission. Do you have any idea how to step out of time?

It is not an easy task. That is for sure. Yet stepping out of time is a natural step towards becoming one with our Higher Mind and Higher Heart. We can help ourselves reach that beautiful godly state of peace and potential for the highest harmonious manifestation possibilities.

Time is not something that can be overcome just by switching from one modern calendar to an ancient one. It is a bit more complex than what we have been told. Meanwhile, we naturally approach such state of anchoring our consciousness in zero point as we become whole and we step out of suffering.

Going back to the previous parts of this essay, in summary, we must have in mind that these are the things that we need to let go:

-Expectations on how things should be in our lives, in the lives of others, and the world in general, simply because we do not hold the greatest picture. Our information available is limited.

-Expectations on when certain occurrences or situations should happen. This one is very much linked to the first point.

-Any ideas we hold related to scarcity. If we focus for the most part in all the things that we wish we had, and all the things that we think we need but that we do not have, or the things that others should have, then we need to evaluate very deeply from where these scarcity perceptions come from in our subconscious.

-Expectations on how others should behave. This one is often times a huge source of disappointment.

-Our suppressed emotions.

-All things that we think are threatening to us and to others. In other words, sometimes we need to surrender, and to understand that we are not always meant to fight huge fights, or even some smaller fights lead nowhere but to more cycles of suffering. Sometimes we need to let go the control, and to stop resisting the things that we perceive as dark. Fighting against what we think is dark might lead to further polarization and further disconnection from our Higher Mind and Higher Heart which perceives things as unified and who understands the greater picture.

-The painful past. We cannot change the past, but we can accept what happened to us and to others. By understanding new depths of the past, we can heal what once seemed impossible to forgive.

The factors mentioned above contribute greatly in the creation of time in our consciousness. However, as we already know from the second key, these perceptions have their origin in suffering across many timelines of experience, including our current lives.

First sub key: understanding how the perception of time is created

The clock is ticking, and you feel that you might die, or maybe you are just wasting your life, or simply, you do not have enough time to do all the things that you want to do. You say that you wish that you could turn back in time to fix that problem that nags you, right?

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Soft Watch at the First Moment of Time Explosion By Salvador Dali

Let us go back to the rumor-fact that when we ascend to a new density, with a new dimension of consciousness, that we will live in a state of timelessness or zero point. Before that, we simply feel that time is not enough, something is being lost…lost…lost…lost…lost.

That is how time was created in our minds, since the very first moment in some incarnation, a very long time ago, when we felt for the very first time that we lost something. Maybe even since the moment we are born, we come out of the cozy womb, and feel for the first time a certain coldness. That security we once had, is now lost. With this feeling came the first notion of time. Part of your consciousness left your being and got stuck in a lapse, when that something precious to you was lost.

So there you go, you now have an awareness from one point, to another, the point of the loss, to the point in which you live. Then, you lost more, and more, and more, and more. And now, you drive yourself nuts with all your loses at subconscious level, feeling as you vibrate higher, that you have less time to repair, what you lost. You are afraid that you will never have enough time to recover what you lost, a very long time ago. Something or someone, took that love away from your heart and your subconscious is stuck in a line of experiences or points, that you call linear time.

The more you heal then, the more you bring back your pieces, the less concerned you are about time, and you just flow with the flow. Yes the planets keep spinning, the Sun goes down, the moon goes up and so on…but you live in a less linear way, and you are more allowing, and you have more patience and you can wait for an eternity, because you are actually waiting less, and living more in the now, in the state of timelessness or zero point.

You even realize at some point, that the thing that you were waiting for, might have become somehow flawed once again if you had ventured in a humongous mission of looking for that thing that would make you happy. You had to find what was blocking you subconsciously and now that you see it with new lens, you prefer to slow down and start perceiving things differently and start doing things differently.

Remember then, always, that time begins since the first moment you feel something was lost.

Second sub key: training yourself to reach zero point

You get back home from having a stressful time with your boss or with some family member and maybe one of the first things you do is to turn on your computer or look in your phone and you start feeling bad because of the latest news on how the natural resources of Earth are being destroyed, the latest news on what some authorities did to perpetuate a war, or how there is an archon right beside you to take your potential peace away. So you rant and say to yourself that there is no hope for a better future.

You feel trapped, enslaved, imprisoned, out of place, burdened. You feel that inner child crying, because this world is not a safe place for you.

When you realize how much a great part of you cries and demands your attention, you seek the tools that you need. But often times you become distracted with what sounds promising and then you have to switch to other tools. Remember that you must listen to the depths of your broken heart. Know that you can do this, and only you can do it better for yourself than anyone else.

Disconnect now, from the outer world. Take a seat, and rest for a moment. Think for a few minutes how much time you spend thinking everyday about what burdens you. You see the minutes passing by. Think about all the things that bother you right now. The clock keeps ticking. Perhaps it is a lot? Maybe no longer as much of a burden as it was years ago? Maybe worse? Now start feeling the emotions.

Notice how many of the things that burden us and that we wish we could control and change create energy leaks in our system. Perhaps the problem even comes from giving energy to others who are not open to receiving our energy, so we leak and leak and leak.

Other times we are so blocked to receiving love that no matter how much love we are given, we simply do not feel it. We need to restructure our whole system and understand where the imbalances come from subconsciously. How can we do that then if we think that we do not have time? Maybe it is time to sacrifice some activities and the way we try to love others in our perception and start attending more to our own needs for a while.

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Leaking sculpture by Fredrik Linge.

Learn to deal the best way you can with your emotions, but never suppress them. There are uncountable treatments, like natural medicines, meditation, inner dialogue, etc. What is important is to allow yourself to feel what you must feel and that way, the less we resist our own emotions, the less they will overwhelm us over time. The more we will be able to navigate them and turn them into energy that comes back to us.

As silly as it sounds, we often forget to breathe properly. Our brains might be dying each day of suffocation without us even being aware. Breathing is not just about providing our brains with the necessary daily doses of oxygen, but also our energy flows better and we allow our missing parts to come back energetically.

Learn to control your kundalini and not the other way around. In our current society we are taught that we must overindulge in sexual practices, even spiritual ones and that we must meditate to trigger intense kundalini experiences. If we cannot control our own energy, we cannot control the rest of our system.

Sometimes, without us becoming fully aware, kundalini is triggered by fragmented parts of other souls and I doubt you would want to share your sexual energy with any entity. Energetic exchanges between you and other entities is very real, so ask your subconscious mind and your heart why you are allowing these explosions to happen without control. You will be surprised to learn about this unexplored or misunderstood area. As blissful as merging might feel, learn to respect your energetic system as much as you want your physical body to be respected and treated like a sacred tool. Do not worry too much about entities, but learn to set healthy boundaries in the energetic planes of existence and treat entities with respect and compassion, establishing if needed a healing dialogue.

Learn to clear your negative thoughts not by suppressing them but by understanding where these patterns come from.  Listen to these thoughts, and if needed bring all this broken energy down to the emotional system, to the level of the heart where you can safely get in touch with the wound and see how these thoughts disappear. You can do this with positive practices like art, exercise, meditation, inner dialogue and therapy.

Learn about nature itself, we are part of it. Our broken minds and hearts are like the exacerbated forces of water, fire, earth and wind. When we learn to navigate the elements within ourselves, we learn to flow with the natural forces of the Universe.

Disconnect each day from any source of distraction that prevents you from being intimate with yourself. By intimacy it is understood that you open up your heart to your soul, you learn to listen to yourself and you learn to communicate with your soul. Only then, we can learn to have true intimacy with others. Intimacy involves facing our deepest fears and embracing every part of ourselves with love, grace and compassion. We stop avoiding our pain. We stop distracting ourselves with any addictive pattern.

Once we manage to achieve the above points each day, then we learn to control our physical bodies. Our body starts regaining its functions of self regeneration and we become energized. We become efficient in all we do and we feel less scattered. We feel more anchored and we gain a new sense of physical and spiritual security. We feel that we have finally created a true home for ourselves in our inner world and in our physical homes.

Fourth key: approaching our god-self and inner peace

The more we spend time in communion with our souls without neglecting our chosen responsibilities in life, the more we recognize and feel nurtured by our own soul vibration or energetic signature. We become more whole and feel less need to fulfill our needs and expectations from outer energetic resources, but we accept the love that we receive.

We learn to navigate the challenges that life presents to us and we accept the gifts behind these challenges. We feel less worried about what we cannot touch in the outside, yet we add magic to that which we are allowed to touch. We shine light for ourselves, and others learn to see it.

The outer chaos of this world no longer consumes us, and instead we walk among chaotic nodes of global experience left untouched. We have created our safe space in our inner world and we have created our home in a physical space.

Others see that there is this radiance in you that emanates a peaceful energy. You have arrived to a station where you have reached the peace that you longed for, but that you could not even grasp. You thought it came in other forms that you craved for. You leave behind old dreams, and create new and better ones. You manifest better outcomes, based on inner fulfillment and no longer on outer scarcity. You feel confident about who you are, and you feel strength. You enjoy your creations a little more each day and time expands in front of you. Time stretches because for you, it is now an abundant resource. One that truly never existed.

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