Something within me broke, when I was shown an astral incident. Some people I had known in past lives, who I admittedly admired to the core…where not what they pretended to be. Neither was I what they might have thought I was. Then our worlds shattered, there was war, and finally all hope ended. Our worlds literally ended, and today many people keep going, chasing dreams and power. I am learning in greater depth about human motivation to seek hopes, dreams and power. Some people can have all that they want, and they might be happy, others might have it all and not value it.
Before the great quarantine, I did feel like I saw a brief dream that felt good enough come to an unexpected end. The more time alone I was forced to spend, I went deeper and deeper and saw that such dream served as a temporary remedy or a balm to ease an eternal pain I was carrying inside. Today, part of this pain became very accute and then became milder, when I saw threads of dark matter, appearing literally black, connecting me to those timelines of failure and broken dreams. Then I saw the faces of these beings, so full of power and promises, completely defeated, defenseless, and lost. Oh those beings…carrying broken wings.
One of them showed me a pair of fake white wings on his back. He said that this is what we usually get to see. His real wings were broken, and he eventually lost those magnificent broken limbs on his back. We humans do not have wings, so we have to create artificial means to fly. He fell down and said that he lost his value without his real wings, so now he wears fake white wings. And so did I try but mine, never got me above. I was too heavy to even fly with my attempt to carry fake wings.
The more I went deeper these weeks and put myself together even further, I recalled something a colleague told me about viruses. He said that somehow, viruses are neither alive nor death. They are like tiny zombies, carrying DNA that somehow managed to split apart from living organisms, like a form of mutation that now attacks living organisms.
It hit me hard that viruses are in essence part of us. They carry memories in their RNA about creation and evolution. They carry imprints of dark matter, and it is this dark matter what has the potential to attack people and even kill. Our DNA is damaged, that is a well recorded fact. Otherwise, our junk DNA would be fully activated. Like cancer cells, viruses are part of this entropy that can be healed within the collective of Earth.
If they are fabricated little monsters, they can still be defeated with our activated DNA. But the only way to activate it is to spend time, alone, without any distraction, overcoming the anxiety. Then, once you silence the desire to run away from this stillness, you go deeper, and feel deeper your inner voice. You start listening to the broken soul and broken heart, and start activating those pieces that got damaged during traumatic experiences, or for other artificial reasons.
The more you fill yourself with self love, the more you activate your DNA and the more you either protect yourself from the dark matter contained within viruses, or you incorporate back to yourself the RNA that might belong to you and transmute it to generate healthy cells.
The Exploration of Separation and Disconnection from Unity
Within the minds of a group of ultracosmic beings, curiosity was not lacking. They were naturally space explorers and scientists. Not everything was known to them, yet their advanced knowledge about the workings of Cosmos was both intuitive and logical.
Evil was lacking in the hearts and minds of these beings,
only growing awareness of experience. Communication was everlasting, base don
heart to heart and mind to mind connection. If imbalances presented themselves
in the life of these beings, eventually the natural progression of Cosmic life
would bring forth new equilibriums.
That is how natural evolution of species always was and is
always meant to be. However, once a new unknown form of perturbation is
created, results can be predicted and somehow foreseen in the minds of the
advanced people, but trial and error is always existent where there is no
complete information or knowing of consequences.
In the mind of an ancestral scientist, ideas abounded to
boost new levels of growth and exploration. One particular idea involved the
disconnection of the heart to heart and mind to mind streams of energetic flow
that would perpetuate natural unity and empathy among beings.
The original idea was simply to explore contrasts, among a
line of ideas that would aim to catalyze growth for other less evolved groups
of beings, initiating the programs within the evolved group. Some of these
fundamentals have been explained over time by several authors, be it in the
form of channeled material or narrated directly from their own experiences.
Within the group, several agreements were made, including
one that involved the reversal of the disconnection and separation programs. To
the misfortune of the Cosmic players, including those groups affected directly
and indirectly, the resolution of such distortion never came to be fully
Instead, an eternity of incarnations were created, as if all
souls involved became stuck in time loops and oblivion. The love was forgotten
over time and wars erupted from the soul fragmentation and forgetfulness that
Background on ecological and
In simple traditional ecology and thermodynamics theory, a
closed system would tend to generate the same amount of energy that is
introduced as input. Thus, energy behaves linearly and is not created nor
However, within an open system that is conformed of several
subsystems within a large ecosystem, subject to be studied, the energy
generated surpasses in much the energy received as input. The system is said to
be efficient in its production of energy, as the interaction of all components
generate greater amounts of energy and a balance is present. This does not mean
that predatory behavior is inexistent but simply that all exists within the
larger system in a state of balance, and all parts of the system and subsystems
can coexist and evolve in such a way that the interconnections are strong.
These open systems will work on reducing entropy within the
community and reject any form of outer entropy, or simply to repair entropy by
removing that which is perturbating the efficient production of energy.
If the conditions within the larger ecosystem are such that
the connections between elements have weakened the energetic flows and there is
entrophy then, the incorporation of a different species will perturbate the
system and weaken it even further. This can lead to greater imbalances and
disaster for several of the species inhabiting the ecosystem.
The polarity integration failures and lessons
With the previous theories in mind, now we can examine the
practical circumstances that lead to failed experiments and incomplete lessons
in our Cosmic past and the time loops that lead to reincarnation and
If soul families decided to split up, in order to experience
previously unexplored paths, the breaking down of a previous order will lead to
different results, probably not when expected if such conditions were
previously not explored.
This was often the case when souls decided to consciously
separate from their loved ones and choose to represent either the “light” or
the “dark” factions. Some of the goals of such agreements would be to transcend
the differences, to understand the fundamentals of what love is and what love
is not and create the reconnective links.
The real problem with such journeys was that the levels of
soul fragmentation experienced along the way became so great that even at soul
level, the loss of information increased.
The soul records of the people who participated in such
projects began shattering to the extent in which only in non-physical could
some of this information be retrieved once again and a certain level of
consciousnessof love could be recovered.
This was no longer the case in physical. As more and more
souls began fragmenting further, it became imposible for many of the lessons
and agreements to come to completion, leaving a trail of fragmented lifetimes
and soul essence scattered across the explored sides of Cosmos.
Thus the reincarnation problem began, and the creation of
space/time and time/space constrictions accentuated. The lifespans of beings
decreased and hierarchies at all levels became darker. Predatory behavior
became brutal in countless of Cosmic paradigms as a result of lack of
remembrance and individual fragmentation, leading to darker cycles.
Not all was lost though. From each incarnation, each experience, much was gained about love, lack of love, healing, and different sets of values like forgiveness, acceptance, compassion, honor, dignity, integrity, etc.
Even so, the conditions were not fully met as to give
closure to the reincarnation cycles in countless star systems. It was decreed
by the ultracosmic beings that on Earth this seemingly endless cycle would end,
at least gradually enough.
Application of the ecology and themodynamics theory to Cosmic cases
Imagine a scenario in which
a group that has reached a point of stability is now efficient enough to
perpetuate a relative peace with Little enthropy. The community in itself is a
Now imagine that the stability, relative peace and sets of
values define the community as being a lighthearted space for growth and
interaction. Sometimes these communities were labeled as communities of light
(whether they really practiced their ideal or their definition still allowed
for some forms of predatory behavior). Remember that, in ecology and
thermodynamics of open systems combined, predatory behavior can exist.
The enjoyed and perceived stability and efficiency in the
production of energy through interactions will create strong bonds and the
desire and perceived need to perpetuate such condition.
When there are physical and non-physical agreements between
soul groups and families to create a new paradigm based on polarity integration
attempts, the incorporation of a set of elements, species or group of species
will lead to at least two posible results: the succesful integration to the community, leading to a peaceful enough
outcome, or failure and disaster.
Naturally these scenarios apply to the core physical reality
of soul fragmentation without remembrance of the love bond that exist between
When a dark species or dark elements bring entrophy, if the
light-hearted community attempts to incorporate the dark elements through
healing means and love, eventually the experiment will prove to fail for
several reasons. One reason is that the light hearted community has gained
enough strength to perpetuate relative peace, without fully resolving the
previous entrophic interactions of other timelines, leaving hidden scars that
exist in non-physical in the realms of antimatter, dark matter and dark energy.
In this case, ecological and thermodynamic theories must be complemented with
the metaphysical notions of the invisible dynamics of space/time and time/space
The other reason being that the light hearted community does
not have the complete tools or understanding to uncover the whole reality
previously experienced by the dark elements. The community might give enough
love or not enough incentive exists to do an extra effort to heal the dark elements,
but the depth of the scars of the dark elements will only bring further
entropy, consuming the energy of the community.
The end result will be the expulsion (could also be
imprisonment) or the gradual death of the incorporated species within the open
ecosystem. This scenario took place in several timelines in countless of star
systems, leaving the paradigms unconcluded and soul groups separated.
Since the light-hearted community is strong to create
relative peace, yet not strong enough to be left undisturbed by the
incorporation of dark elements, then the arrival and incorporation of these
elements will perturbate the ecosystem even further, weakening all of its
This is another scenario that took place in places like
Earth where migratory issues tend to increase and the blending of different
cultures and even starseed paradigms bring deterioration or difficulties for
the polaried paradigms to be completed physically.
Simple is the mentioning of the following examples, yet
complex was the reality lived and the fact that these paradigms still affect
-The ancestral angelic and demonic paradigms in planetary
hells and heavens physically (these species were usually genetic blends of
avian, feline, vampyr, naga, pan-goat and dragon species).
-The Lyran-Draco interactions leading to
-The Galactic Federation of Worlds and the failure of the
Ashtar Command destroying Maldek.
-The difficulties and failures of the Christ community.
Within these paradigms, soul groups were separated into the
sociopolitical groups and by genetic and environmental differences, leading to
deep collective traumas, still not fully understood or resolved.
The incorporation of Self Love and Self Compassion for ultimate resolution
If a collective effort to help dark species and individuals
heal from the conscious or unconscious decision to become extremely fragmented
over countless of timelines proved to fail, what else could work?
In some timelines, sucessful projects were completed in
which the adoption of traumatized souls born from difficult species could be
raised with love since birth. However, these paradigms would have failed if all
elements of the soul groups would have been incorporated, leading only to
Other paths were explored in which tools for self inner
exploration were developed and applied by millions of soul from across the
explored side of Cosmos. These programs included specialized training for
Avatarian programs designed by the same group or groups that initiated the
explorations of separation and contrast.
These programs yielded succesful results when the masters
were induced to spend as much time alone as posible, while receiving some
degree of guidance from non-physical aspects of their own souls or from their
soul families. Other forms of guidance included the counseling from members of
However, not always could these programs yeild the desired
results when much of what was integrated and healed was meant to be applied
while interacting with the members who carried the darker codes.
The masters decided around the time of the Harmonic
Convergence not to incarnate together anymore and to remain astrally available
to humanity in order to complete a series of protocols for the Cosmic
The path of the starseed would bring about several dark
nights of the soul for as many individuals as posible in order to create the
necessary restrictions for the programs of forced understanding of self love
and self compassion. This program would create enough pressure as to deal with
the individual entropy created from the previous Cosmic wars and separations.
Many of these individuals have found themselves restricted
and separated from several members of their soul families for the reasons
mentioned above. It is a lonely path and one full of challenges, but one that
has lead to better results as opposed to forced collective interactions that
would weaken the communities intended to become integrated and healed.
Another important aspect of these resolution stages is the fact that in order to give closure to the ancient contracts, instead of gathering physically, many souls have gathered in the astral planes. While a starseed experiences conventional life lessons, there is conscious interaction with other beings in the non-physical planes, where dimensions converge and limitations of space/time and time/space are being lifted. Some of these lessons are not easy, but they are designed in such a way that resolution is now possible.
On the other hand, aspects of soul family or soul group members accompany the incarnated individual throughout the journey of transformation in non-physical form. Communication is established in different ways.
Once a level of self love and self compassion is achieved,
then the aura and DNA become repaired enough to hold as much love and light as
necessary to bring about resolution of these paradigms in physical. While
collective interaction with other soul family members will become more tangible
in the future, the strenghthening of communities will not be based on the
interaction and the bonds themselves, but the capacity of individuals to show
resilience and inner strength from the assimilation of self love and self
How exactly can you remove those hidden attachments that hold you back? If they go about unnoticed many times during the course of your life, is it unavoidable to keep them for perhaps another eternity?
Not really. There is always a solution at hand, and this one is simpler than you think, yet not always easy to attain. It is in the knowing of your own resonance, the vibration of your soul, that you get to know yourself at the deepest level. You often hear that you must know yourself, and you might think that it might just be about your thoughts, your feelings, your ideals, your appearance. There is this little thing that makes up your soul that maybe you have not even known so well in life. It is the arrangement of your own energy, and your own imprinted experiences.
The soul vibration is constituted by your personality, your aspects, that specific tone, song, or however you want to call it, that distinguishes you from the rest of Cosmic manifestation. You do not have to be one with everything and everyone. You do not have to deny your individuality, only because the collective of old masters and masses have told you to do so. Neither do you have to suppress or deny your shadowy aspects.
The little secret is to accept that shadow, that you have been taught to despise. He or she is not your enemy, but simply a mirror image of yourself that got a bit lost along the way, when others dictated what it had to be or what it was not meant to be. If others would not bother accepting those parts of yourself, and the robotic society we sometimes seem to be heading to tells you to act like everyone else, then why not retreat from that noise and ask yourself what parts are missing in your DNA coding?
Who or what is overshadowing those unheard parts of your Self? Was it an ancient master who dictated the rules for a while? Or maybe an ancient promise of saving from certain difficulties of evolution itself?
Did you hear their voices and their opinions a little too much as to forget what was that you really needed? Did you feel fragile enough as to let that little part of yourself be known and felt to yourself and to others?
Perhaps it was in that vulnerability that a long time ago you decided that it was cool to follow the steps of another, whether they had it all right or they really messed up with the collective big time, for their own reasons and by the means of their own fragilities.
It was then that you decided to suppress a part of your soul and substitute it for the part of another, dear one. And so now, maybe you admire the ideal of that master a little too much, or you feel that a certain abominable being is grabbing you by the shoulders and suffocating part of your light.
If you think about it for a moment, with a little logic (yes please forget for a moment that excessive visceral intuition that you are often encouraged to follow) and think deeper how, in a world of billions, chances are that the soul vibration of another can only occupy a single body that matches to their perfection their specific symmetrical DNA coding. It is then not yours to take and neither is their spirit meant to take that which is yours.
In a world of billions, if so much of the soul essence of a master being is out there, jumping, from body to body, then chances are, they would not even remember themselves all that well, as to claim their throne. Even worse is the fact that maybe you carry a soul shard of themselves, not allowing you to feel your own song.
Your soul vibration is fundamental to understand who you are. It can only be felt and tasted, once you leave behind too much of the collective noise and its successful or failing stories. Meditate, and ask your own light to guide you to the feeling of your uniqueness. It has a specific feeling to it, and it has a spectrum of light and darkness, always keeping the same tone. The only variation is how your own vibration is expressed, in light and dark ways, but they are all yours, and for you to take, to complete yourself a little more and reach that joy and peace you cannot have, if you hold on to the long forgotten past, when the norms of others ruled out the individual expressions of those who were learning, or felt vulnerable, or followed the causes of another.
Reach out, to yourself, hold yourself tight and never let yourself go again. Thank your masters, your angels, your favorite teachers, your enemies, the controllers, and tell them you just want to be a little more whole within yourself, that you are ready now. Do so with gentleness and loving detachment. Now bring back to yourself what is yours.
The most difficult aspect of possession at the DNA level is the changes that, throughout our lives, we can experiment in the form of radical ideas, dramatic swings in personality and even physical changes that reflect a certain incompatibility with our original template.
This is not the case for everyone at the most evident level of possession. It is mostly through the first three waves of awakening souls that this phenomenon takes place, with a certain degree of impact in future generations. Most people are not aware of how much they are affected by the physical and etheric DNA of other beings, and by that I do not refer to the common genes that we carry from our parents, our grandparents and other ancestors.
By this I mean possession by beings that are either recognized for having fulfilled a collective mission physically and non-physically, and whose collective contracts with humanity are still playing out, in one way or another.
Between the last three or four decades and the first glimpses of the new coming decade, how many thousands of people have not claimed, at least once in their lives, that they are the incarnation of a very famous being? Do they believe in this notion blindly?
What goes through the minds and hearts of these individuals holding on to this ideal of being a famous ancient master, archangel, queen, king, etc.? Many things for sure, especially confusion.
Of the so many cases that I saw between the years 2009 and this year, of mild or severe possession, none of these people were fully aware of the level of possession taking place. Many even claimed to hold vivid memories of the master beings they feel at their core they are or have been, or simply, a feeling makes them believe. Even in QHHT sessions, some these memories can be uncovered unavoidably. For this reason, not even the apparently most precise forms of conscious or subconscious regression are exempt from this phenomenon.
All cases had in common something that I noticed almost right away: none of these people had the soul vibration of the true master they claimed or claim to be. Yet, in severe cases, they did hold the soul vibration of the being possessing them at core level along with their real vibration. There was something mismatching in all cases. Only very few particular cases were too severe as to identify the real soul vibration of a master being embodied in these people, and incurring in a cognitive dissonance for a while.
Up to this day, some of these people claim to be one or more of the relevant masters who hold in their original templates large amounts of collective karmas with the people of Earth. For several reasons, the soul shard of the original masters is not released from the layers of the individual they affect with their physical or etheric DNA. Such connection can last a whole lifetime, without the individual even realizing what they are carrying at all levels of their being.
One of the biggest reasons why such phenomenon of possession takes place with such intensity and recurrence is the lack of self-love that exists in the one who is possessed. This is not a lack that should be judged in any way, even if some of these cases seem to be an extreme form of narcissism. However, there are other more complex reasons, behind that apparent or evident lack of self-love. Through severe soul fragmentation, certain beings come to us and temporarily or permanently intend to leave within us part of their soul. This is not always caused by an ill-intention from the being who wanders astrally. In fact, some higher purposes exist, and if these purposes could be understood at the core, a whole enigma and series of Cosmic problems from the long forgotten past could be solved and healed permanently at individual and collective levels.
The deeper causes of recurrent possession and false identity disorder are explored in the coming sections of this long essay….
Our physical DNA is far more complex than what we might think. If you were to dissect it and translate the information it contains into images, it would probably not be too different as to what a medium can do while attempting to tap into the Akashic records. The difference is simply that physically this information is hidden from our visible eyes, and from any current artifact used to do microscopic or nanoscopic measurements.
I found out that even the most precise methods of hypnosis, like QHHT practices have a flaw when it comes to extracting information from the subconsciousness. These irregularities and inconsistencies presented themselves in several cases I read about.
If you were to see the layers of your aura, of your etheric template and the dark matter, dark energy and antimatter that makes up your DNA, you would find several energetic frequencies or vibrations that do not match each other. It is like a puzzle that has its pieces placed in disarray, forced to fit, creating a blurry image. If you were to read the Akashic constitution of the DNA, depending on the level of soul fragmentation of the individual, the more fragmented, the more incoherent the scenes would appear to be.
It is similar to what you get in the least coherent and consistent channelings. It is like tuning into several radio stations all at once and the information flows in a continuum and tries to tell you a story, then jumps to another story, and another one.
The human DNA is a blend of physical blending of genes from the parents who give birth to a child and their own DNA is embedded with the genes of their own ancestors, creating long chains of information that goes back to countless generations. If it was as simple as just carrying the pieces of codes of our own bloodlines, there would be less inner pressure in our human template.
Reality is far more complex than it seems. In the invisible, answers to the unexplained are found. The fragmented souls of beings in spirit form can take over our physical bodies, temporarily or almost permanently throughout the course of our lives. Often times, entities travel from body to body, for justified and unjustified reasons. Depending on the etheric mass of these entities, is the degree of influence they have over our consciousness and our very own DNA.
Most often, the reason why entities come willingly to us is for karmic reasons that extend to lifetimes prior to our current incarnation. By karmic it means that interaction with these beings in physical form had a diverse set of consequences. Such interactions could yield positive results, or the opposite. In cases in which interaction brought negative and painful results, they bring about the most difficult cases of interaction and possession associated to what we term as negative entities.
Some of these past life interactions manifest as a variety of mental, emotional and physical problems caused by wounds. The wounds can manifest as temporary mood swings, depression, lack of mental focus, lack of concentration, lack of motivation and physically the wounds manifest from something as simple as temporary pains to life threatening diseases.
The most complicated part about the relationship between the presence of entities and damaged DNA is the fact that entities are made of soul essence just like our very own soul, and as such, the soul of all beings is made up of imprinted memories from our physical existence in all timelines. Additionally, the information that makes up a soul builds up the unique soul vibration of each individual. Every being has a special set of codes in the form of photons, dark matter, antimatter, dark energy and ultimately matter. These combinations of visible and invisible particles carry all our personal soul records or Akashic records that make up our unique energetic signature.
The problem comes from the fact that when we interact physically with other people, in one way or another, we share the genetic material with each other. The genetic material can be physical or non-physical. The latter comes in the form of etheric DNA material of which the soul of all beings is made up of.
When the genetic material of individuals carry wounds from their diverse layers, then these wounds are imprinted in our own genetic material and this attracts additional etheric soul fragments from the same individuals coming from diverse dimensions and timelines. This further contaminates our already damaged DNA as more genetic material from other beings becomes attached to us at etheric level, condensing into the physical and manifesting as diseases and other problems.
The incompatibility of codes and the wounds is what manifests as these problems, as our own genetic codes are overridden by the presence of the DNA of other individuals, and our aura is contaminated with the etheric material of these individuals.
Our own soul and physical vessel becomes influenced by the presence of the energetic and physical material of other individuals, subtly or evidently. Possession is then a phenomenon that is not only exclusive of the astral layers of reality, but even at the cellular level and DNA level as the etheric and physical information of other beings becomes activated within us.
“Sometimes my eyes appear of different color when I take pictures of myself. It happens randomly. Even when I was a teenager people would tell me that I had very beautiful eyes, of a color that is not my natural color, and they were convinced of what they saw.”
That is what an old acquaintance said to me, at the time we interacted online. The inner pressure within me and within her escalated, and we both could not handle the rage anymore. We were both puzzled, confused and wondering if we had been part of a personal unfinished ancient battle in past lives. Some time after, I stopped hearing from her, and finally, the betrayal happened. As I scrolled down to a site, I was frozen and shocked to see what this lady had done. Oddly enough, I was guided to that site by a series of incidents, as if I was meant to find out about the betrayal.
I had a very strong impression that this woman had been a black magician, and a very powerful angelic being with a golden aura. I was too young back then, in my early 20’s, so I felt that this was a very bad karmic joke that I could not cope with too well. The strength, inherent power and twisted wisdom that I felt from this lady made me feel shrunk, like I was no match to her in any way. I felt crushed to pieces. That was but a story of many that I had to deal with several times, and indirectly witnessing some massive grotesque cases.
The bitter taste of defeat faded away, but something told me that I had not dealt with the core wound of the betrayal, no matter how much soul retrieval I attempted. Almost a decade later a revelation of sorts would finally put an end to a severe crucible.
One night, without warning, I thought about this lady, and how she had gone through a radical transformation in her life at all levels. At the time I met her, she was only getting started with such intense transformation. I found in very old files some pictures she showed to me of an earlier stage in her life. The eye color was definitely different, the hair style, the clothes, the activities in which she was involved, everything about her was totally different, and dark. In more recent pictures, her energy had changed to portray a much more fragile and innocent woman. Her appearance was very different, and her natural eye color did show up. The energy…in both sets of pictures, that was a huge clue. The soul vibration did not match!
As I felt the energy and the trauma, I was visited by a very imposing female. Tremendous aura full of power and authority, and a very familiar soul vibration. I could see her with acute clarity in my inner vision, a lady with golden hair and clear blue eyes. A flair of Paganic wisdom, and much more emanated from her. I heard her speaking clearly and she explained that, back then, at the time of the betrayal, it was in reality her, the one who had taken over part of the consciousness of the lady I met ten years ago. For personal reasons that were not revealed to me, the lady in physical in her fragmented state had embodied for a very long time part of the energy of this powerful presence. As for myself, I got a clearer image of a huge squabble between her, another lady and myself, and probably some other ladies in Ancient Egypt. The squabble happened for too many reasons, and this conflict extended to several lifetimes.
Since there was no way for me to meet this lady physically, we had an agreement that, while part of her would work with the other lady taken over, at the time of our meeting the deep wound would be opened and partly reproduced. Ironically, in her fully manifested spiritual form, the powerful lady was very sweet and wise, and treated me with delicacy. I could not avoid but feeling, at a level, a loving connection.
Is there a rationale in such horrific case of possession? Whether it was the best way for some karmic contracts to be played out and released, I cannot really tell, but I can tell the reasons why this phenomenon can happen to anyone, and why it is more frequent among certain groups of people, than what most are aware of.
As a child, perhaps you tried to create a drawing to impress your parents. Then, you faced a certain form of neglectfulness. You saw your parents being distracted enough with all kinds of responsibilities you would not understand as to pay attention to your newly created masterpiece.
A little older you became, and tried to earn the respect of your favorite teacher, only to find out that perhaps you did not excel in math class. Or your classmates not always felt sympathy for you. You began learning your first steps on how to cope with a world that is not always loving, or understanding of the needs of a child. Very likely you grew up telling to yourself that none of those things mattered that much, that you had to be strong and competitive.
As an adult, you stumbled upon the difficult boss who always complains about “something”. That “something” pertained your performance. You knew somehow you were doing your best effort, and it might not have been acknowledged.
So has been life on Earth for too long. Deep within your subconsciousness you were taught that, in one way or another, you were not good enough for those who surrounded you, and eventually not even for yourself.
Finally, you reached the point in which you embraced the new age spiritual doctrines. What you found in them was that such part of your programming, the part in which you are told that you are not good enough, was reinforced. You were told that your ego is your worst enemy, your bad company, like your guardian devil.
Oh, that damn ego, that gets in your way, that tries to express something that feels negative. So you must encase it, tell it to shut up, to stop getting in the way of your ambitions. You must, at all costs, tell it to stop complaining when you feel discomfort, if someone acts in some way around you, or other situations.
The Road Less Taken
If you shrink your ego, you will reach enlightenment. For enlightenment leads to the feeling of ultimate Oneness. With Oneness, you will never ever feel alone again and you will feel like you found Home in a wave of vast bliss. You will no longer have to deal with a difficult ego, that demands something. Ego is a very bad thing, it is a very evil kid inside of you, or a monster. Or so you were told.
However, if you go very deep within you, and spend time with your ego, you might find that there is a gift that you have not heard too often about in your current spiritual doctrines. The gift is a new understanding of being authentic, of becoming whole within yourself and mostly, something that is rarely taught in the current spiritual movements: self compassion.
Without self compassion, no compassion for others can be born.
Self compassion is a higher expression of self love. Self love is a journey, a long one that requires the values that we all would love to strive for in our lives to be applied to ourselves with gentleness. Patience is one of them. Think about, for a moment, how many times others were not patient towards you. How many times your own relatives have not been patient towards you.
It is in that lack of patience that the feeling of not being worthy is born. Lack of patience might be seen in the parent, partner, friend or colleague who is always upset or busy, who spends too much time using a technological gadget, or the one who is tired and swamped with homely responsibilities. Other times lack of patience is expressed as aggression.
Egohood as Human Individuality and Oneness as Temporary Relief
It is fundamental to understand that egohood, in a more formal definition, is not the exclusive traits of the individual personality that are perceived as negative, in one way or another. Egohood can be defined to incorporate the capacities and traits that make up the individual personality as a whole, including the ones perceived as positive. You can read wider definitions in the articles: The Concepts and Functions of Egohood and The Consensus Between the Higher Self and the Shadow Self.
“The soul is made up of a mix of often unseen particles. These particles include antimatter and dark matter, which can be dissected to see emanations of photons, electrons and protons and other subatomic particles. Dark matter is the gel-like substance that has not yet been imprinted with soul memories because there have been no physical experiences. Antimatter, on the other hand, is the soul substance that has already been imprinted with experiences in physical. When you are born, you carry a piece of soul of previous incarnations and as you experience life in physical, your soul substance grows with imprinted information. Your aura expands. You can even bring from other lifetimes more soul substance already imprinted.
Your creators in physical are your parents or in bizarre cases those who have played with your DNA through genetic manipulation, while you are the creator of your own soul through your own experiences. As such, you are not only your own creator but also you are a whole individual.“
You can see then why, not only is egohood of utmost importance to the growth of the human being in the material world, but also for the imprinting of the soul as an individual entity or being without a physical body.
As we grow up, we are taught to fill our minds and our hearts with self judgement. Self judgement comes as the expression of internal negative self talk and feelings of guilt, shame, being inadequate and not being acknowledged for our uniqueness.
The fractured parts of our soul that have left our energetic field during traumatic life situations, and negative imprinting since childhood, create a sense of lack of inner wholeness. Specifically, lack of feeling of being at home, of being alienated from the rest of society, and not fitting anywhere are the consequences of soul fragmentation.
These traumatic situations are then replicated indefinitely over countless incarnations. At the moment of our passing from this material world to the non-material realities, the larger portion of our souls travel through multiple densities. Finally, a large portion of it reaches the highest lightest density in which the totality of the energy of the collective of Earth (and the collective of other spaces in Cosmos) resides in a completely enmeshed form.
In this enmeshed form there is absolutely no sense of individual identity. All the soul particles vibrate at a very high frequency were only states of bliss or peace are perceived. In the highest state of peace there is a complete sense of nothingness.
Meanwhile, in the lower realms or lower octaves of non-phisical densities, the soul fragments of each individual soul reside. These are the layers that people perceive as the levels of hell or suffering.
These parts of the individual soul remain stuck indefinitely in these realms of trauma, unless these parts manage to ascend to the protective higher realms. In these states of consciousness the imprints of trauma become inactive and only feelings of wellness in any form are perceived. Then, if these same fragmented parts, for any reason, lower their frequency, the imprints of trauma reactivate.
During our interaction with physical reality, we can tap into the knowledge and state of consciousness of our non-incarnated aspects and fragments. In meditation, we become aware of the highest most merged levels of consciousness that people have often described as “enlightenment”. We retrieve some of that energy and the memory of the experience stays with us. We remove from the massive cloud of enmeshment that part that belongs to us and we become more whole, with a new understanding of existence.
In order to achieve wholeness and the feeling of having found Home, the individual must retrieve all the soul energy from all dimensions, densities and octaves.
However, in many of the current spiritual teachings, along with our programming, we tend to avoid the pain of the parts of us that reside in the lower realms of trauma. We’d rather stick to those experiences that feel good, even blissful. We do not allow full mergings with as many parts of our soul as possible to integrate and heal within us in our current incarnation. As these parts continue staying in lower realms, then they continue bringing our attention in uncomfortable ways in each incarnation and we are unable to release fully our karmic ties to difficult situations. As consequence, we cannot free ourselves and others from the karmic wheel and we are not able to achieve wholeness and self acceptance of our humanity and our soul.
Sometimes, tapping into higher levels of consciousness not only brings the altered states that are often described by many as “enlightening”. Also, parts of us stuck in lower realms are forced to become integrated. This is not always the case, but at least partially, it is a natural process. Hence, the typical “ascension symptoms” and continuous mental, emotional and physical roller- coasters.
Over time, the more we accept all parts of ourselves, including the ones that make up what people call “ego”, we allow ourselves to experience a smoother transition to a more dignifying life in physical. Our home becomes our inner sanctuary and we attract more loving situations.
The more we retrieve our energies from the massive collective consciousness in higher realms and the more we embrace the difficult parts of us that suffer and need our love and acceptance, the more we can feel and express inner bliss in physical. There is less need to tap into temporary enlightening experiences. Tapping into such temporary bliss in which we feed ourselves with the energies of the collective at that level, only leave us wondering why, after feeling the Oneness, we end up feeling again incomplete, alone and alienated.
It is not always the massive enmeshment with the collective what we seek, even less to subjugate our individuality and personal will to become “egoless”. Instead, our soul as a whole craves our self acceptance as loving authentic balanced individuals. Once we achieve that inner wholeness with all parts of ourselves, in all timelines and spacelines, in all incarnations in the now moment, we become love and bliss itself in a physical body that radiates light by itself. Far from becoming egoless, we evolve into a state of healthy individual egohood, connected by loving threads of light to the hearts of other individuals and Earth itself. We know that we belong everywhere, any time and we feel it from inside.
When we think to ourselves that we have done enough healing work over the years, we find ourselves wrestling in a dose of discomfort once a trigger presents itself to us. We might have recovered certain troubling memories of our past that we had long forgotten and we know we did our job precisely because we remember now.
However, we notice that the more we remember that scene, the more we feel it as we progress in our journey towards wholeness. If we vaguely remember those disturbing moments, of our childhood, of our youth, and we haven’t had access to the feelings, then we might have missed something.
During a healing session, or a moment of meditation, pondering about those painful lapses in our life, we might be able to incorporate them where once there was a hole in our soul. We know that something happened back then, yet we forgot. We retrieve the soul fragment, place it there, where it should be, and now we have access to the memory.
What we might have missed all this time is the fact that once we retrieve a shattered piece of our soul, we need to bring down the energy to all the layers of our multidimensional self and multidensity self until it reaches the physical level within our DNA. What often happens during a soul retrieval session is that, in order to protect our mental, emotional and physical integrity, a traumatic experience might be retrieved and stored only on certain layers of our being. There is a sense of more wholeness, but there is still something missing, because we know the trauma is still there. The trauma becomes activated once something triggers it and it might even bring sickness at many levels.
It is not until we manage to complete the healing process of the traumatic events that we no longer feel triggered during certain situations or by certain individuals in a negative way that brings back to our awareness that same feeling that we felt during the traumatic event.
Usually, a trauma that is retrieved must be healed in stages, in such a way that we can handle the pain at all levels. This is especially true when we are talking about the most traumatic events during our earlier stages of human development that shape our beliefs, our attitudes and the ways in which we relate to others and to our environment.
Scars of abandonment, rejection, neglectfulness are not easy to heal when we gather a record of repeating situations that mirror the original wounds that have long been forgotten and hidden within a deep corner of our subconsciousness, outside of our auric range. It touches us, subtly, yet painfully, in the form of some monstrous dark entity that chases us, and reminds us how much this part of us needs our love and our welcoming embrace.
It is this energy, that once it is retrieved, might not be reflected in the deep healing that we long to feel, that can take us away from the cycle of suffering. We might have asked a skilled healer to help us with a touch of magic and expertise, only to find out that the problem persists.
It is then when you must ask yourself how much have you worked on this wound, how many angles and perspectives you tried, in order to bring it to full closure. Perhaps as much effort as you placed on healing this apparently eternal wound, you just have not been able to bring it down, to the level of your physical DNA, after moving down through the gates of the mental and emotional realms. Otherwise, you keep it there, stirred just above you, at a level you thought would bring wholeness to you, but it is still not placed where it should.
With some special exercises you can finish the work that you or someone else started for you during your retrieval process. Some visualizations and conscious work with a tool like a crystal can assist you. Mostly, your persistence, your patience and determination will be your greatest tools to help you close those painful gaps within your etheric and physical template, activating all your potential for wholeness and joy.
Once you manage to come out of an oppressive situation, work on your patterns consciously to release their blueprints from all your layers.
If you are able to see the different layers of your etheric and auric system, then you might be able to see that there are small and large parts of your greater Cosmic soul stuck like shards outside and inside your system.
Imagine that each soul piece or shard carries pieces of traumatic moments that are being played over and over again as you walk through the labyrinths of life. You might have brought through a healing session or as a natural occurrence of transformation these soul pieces from some other space and time outside of your reach.
Visualize these soul pieces above your physical body and feel how they come back to you, down through all your layers and down to your physical body at DNA level. Do this for every part of your body, especially where disease or discomfort is present.
You can intend to do a clearing of all your layers by visualizing the seven main basic layers of your etheric system connected to each chakra, along with the layers above these seven basic layers. Scan each layer and bring down the energies of traumas through each layer until you reach your physical layer.
Intend to do this form of soul retrieval each day for at least 15 minutes and you will notice that you might start processing more repressed emotions and feeling clear from feelings of heaviness and blocks.
It is of utmost importance to do healing work with your inner child by allowing him/her to come back to your arms and your heart by giving to this part of yourself space, time and your protection. Play with him/her, let him/her know how much you care about him/her even if others close to you were not able to give to you all the love that you needed and that you deserved as a child. Work with your inner child and bring this part of you deeper into your soul and your heart with love and dedication.
By doing these daily exercises you will blend your currently incarnated aspect with your integrated aspects from other timelines and activate your capacities to heal yourself, feel your wholeness and to remove yourself from difficult situations with more ease, as new opportunities open up and you close the door to the pains of the past.
A very long time ago, before we reached the point in the collective evolution of Cosmos where we stand, we were born of the basic elements, both in physical form and in spiritual form. For each experience, exploring the most basic levels of awareness in physical form, a new record in the realms of dark matter (ethers) was imprinted and permanently stored.
Over time, as the basic elements reached the complexity that gave birth to the first conscious beings, the first elemental beings emerged in spiritual form. Many of these elementals stayed in the spiritual realms, assisting in the creation of new worlds and shaping the already existing ones in harmonious and disharmonious ways.
Civilizations flourished and beings reached the capacity to understand their connection to each other, to nature itself in physical and to their elemental ancestors. Many of these elemental beings were soul aspects of each individual that lived within these complex communities.
During times when the levels of consciousness of people fell and imbalanced dependence on technological advancement became the norm, the conscious connection to nature and the elements was forgotten.
To make things more complicated, people forgot to spend time in solitude with their inner universe, their aspects, nature, their inner child, their own heart. Social and cultural standards, the pursuit of hedonistic values, along with all kinds of technological distractions, contributed to the suppression of a conscious connection to the emotional bodies of the currently incarnated aspect and the needs of other aspects that require integration and healing, coming from other timelines and realms.
We all stand now, collectively, at this point of colossal global change, in front of a polarized world that needs to shift in harmony. Groups of awakening souls pledged allegiance to a sacred vow to shift together. What sometimes many of these awakening seeds forget is that shift needs to come individually first.
There is a natural order in Creation, and part of that order is the fractalized reality that exists both physically and spiritually. In order to exert an influence in the collective, there is a need to create an inner shift, individually.
When enough attention is placed on personal healing and integration, the changes in the auric field of each being contributes to the harmonization of the immediate surroundings and the global energetic grids and physical electromagnetic fields of Earth. The reason why inner change has great impact over the collective is because the polarity of each being is reduced, stabilized and harmonized and the discordant energies of each being that float in the collective fields disappear.
People of Earth forgot that we all are born of the elements, and as such, we carry in our personal universe or individual soul matrix of aspects, many of these elements. Even physically we are made up of water, minerals, metals and fire. Our emotions flow naturally like the water, the winds, and can be explosive like fire itself. When we suppress our deepest emotions and we do not face the need of expression of our discordant aspects, otherwise known as negative entities, demons, archons, dark beings, etc, these emotions block our natural flow of energy like rocks would block the path of the water that flows in the form of a river. Sometimes these aspects coming from other timelines might seem to act as our enemies.
A shadow collective projection involves the perception of several groups of people in which something or someone is seen and experienced as negative and disempowering. These forces can include groups of individuals that work against the harmonious interests of the collective, or destructive forces like discordant weather patterns and other phenomena.
Now imagine, with the current global polarization of ideas, goals, belief systems, and practices, how our fragmented aspects float within the layers of the densities of the Earth and create an influence in the global environment that can be reflected in discordant weather patterns, decisions of global leaders that carry the weight of the collective shadow, and turmoil within each household.
At some point, many awakening seeds forgot that the highest path is the one of seeking inner harmony in order to contribute to harmonious change and growth of Earth. As these basic notions were forgotten, disharmony is mirrored through all the things that now are perceived as threatening and power is constantly given away to the polarized forces that would seem to act against the collective.
The human being has the capacity to heal and integrate their currently incarnated soul aspect and their other aspects that reside in other realms, who at some point existed in physical realms. By doing so, the global polarization is reduced and the auric field of the awakening seed is empowered, harmonized and it radiates love and light that can help harmonize other discordant energies.
By integrating and healing individual energies or aspects, the collective tension is dispersed and reduced, creating personal empowerment for those who internalize and harmonize conflict.
At this time, we face many challenges like difficult weather phenomena, political, economical and social conflicts, conflicts with close soulmate connections and the impression of negative astral forces as the consequence of lack of proper integration and healing.
In order to bring back a long lost peaceful paradigm of people of different races with spiritual aspects from different species, elements and civilizations coexisting in harmony with each other, first we need to create inner harmony. By disconnecting as much as possible from the dramas beheld outside, and spending time in solitude we can embrace all our suppressed emotions, the mind can find rest from the constant chatter, the body can regain its physical strength and health and our aspects can find a home within our hearts.
Many souls who find greater inner strength, harmony and peace of mind can overcome even the most challenging technological advancements, apparently unreachable global conflicts, and other situations that reflect the global polarization. By opening up to our inner disharmony and healing it, the ones who are connected to us are then forced to face their own disharmony even further, creating a ripple effect.
When we place our attention to specific goals that can further perpetuate the illusions of separation and conflict, we feed the global polarization. When we believe that those who reflect back to us darkness are truly our enemies, we miss the opportunity to detach from them, and instead attend to the needs of our own feelings and our own heart. When we support certain movements, we might actually contribute to the polarization of our world even further.
When we are intellectually convinced that certain groups in physical, beings in spiritual form, or even parts of our own soul need to be eradicated, suppressed, destroyed, dissolved or ignored, then, as a Cosmic attempt to reach a balance, these aspects of Creation will only knock on our doors more loudly and the polarization within and outside increases. Think of this process as an equation.
If instead, we go back to our inner space, without outer distraction, and we ask ourselves honestly why these factors are affecting our lives and the lives of other loved ones we care about, and the collective, then we might be able to open up to new perspectives. We can acknowledge all our feelings and bring them from the lost mental planes above us, down to the emotional planes and down to the physical. The spiritual, mental, emotional and physical bodies are washed with the light of lost aspects and lost fragments of our individual universal soul matrix. The lost aspects and fragments that reside in the collective planetary layers that create disharmony come back to us and we assist ourselves and the planet as a whole.
Seek a meditation practice in which you can sit and spend time with your inner universe, bringing back all discordant energies that affect you and the collective of Earth. When certain situations in your own life and the planet as a whole bring distress to you, ask your Higher Self, your shadow self, your aspects, your team of guides, to help you bring these energies from the spiritual realms, down to the mental, emotional and physical planes, especially intend to open up to all emotions. The ones that do not belong to you will leave your energetic space.
While you meditate on these beliefs, thought patterns and emotions, breathe constantly, ground yourself and open up to the experience. Place yourself in a space of neutrality, not favoring anything that might be part of the collective polarization. For example, do not intend to fight against any particular being, group of beings, paradigm, etc, but acknowledge your feelings towards anything that bring discomfort in any way.
Remember how you are part of everything, yet you are unique, and as such you are part of a world that seeks harmony, balance, and respect for anything that represents forms of individual expression, group expressions and global expressions. If there are expressions of this world that you support, know that by holding the rest in a space of neutrality, instead of working against them, you do not renounce to that which you feel defines you as an individual. Contrary to that, you empower yourself, embrace the rest with love and become more proactive in positive creative ways.
Usually when we think about the end result of this Universal polarity game we wonder if something ever went wrong or if all is always well and everything that we see around us was fully expected to be the outcome of this game.
Is everything that we see something that God/Goddess itself envisioned a very long time ago?
Are some beings so corrupted beyond repair as some people say?
The answer to the first question is yes and no.
Here is a story I was given by the Alpha and the Omega beings of our Universe.
At some point, after many angles of love were explored by all beings and Source, completion came and harmony was brought back, Source had the idea of exploring love based on contrast. So the request was given by him to the first group who provide the first codes that can then be replicated by the rest of Creation once these codes are run by the team and expanded.
There are beings in the Universe who have the function of starting games and who then expand the game based on such codes.
It is then well known that Lucifer and Lucifera (Lilith) are the first ones to start certain games while their brothers and sisters expand such codes, and finally among the brothers and sisters there are beings who give closure to such codes and based on termination codes other beings expand them at the end of long cycles. Among the beings who bring closure to this game are Emeyraldia (Mary) and Emeyalriz (Raphael). Then, through another series of codes we have the ones who combine all codes of virtues such as Jesus and Mary Magdalene, and all beings in general who over time have been able to learn such codes and can now apply them in bigger numbers by the end of the long cycle. Every being carries very specific codes.
When God/Goddess asked for the first request to be put into play of a game of contrasts, not even it knew exactly how the game would play out, even less the individual beings. However, it was known that in this game of trial and errors, by the end of it, things would go well because the ending codes would be applied, along with a wave of energetic infusions that cycles itself magically. The end codes are like a form of Universal insurance.
The magical wave that comes back to us all in the form of photonic/dark matter/dark energy of high vibrational nature comes through Universal gates like our Sun. So we are constantly infused now by higher emotions of Cosmic rays which we can see as solar storms and other waves. Translation of these movements can also be seen in the behavior of planetary and star configurations such as astrological placements that specify in which ways the collective and individual consciousness moves to give closure to this long game.
As the game expanded, no one really had any idea of how things would be, how negative or how beautiful this game would be. There is always conflict when we refer to the term of free will. There are three levels of free will and paradoxically, depending on the dimension or level of consciousness, we can tune in, into these concepts:
-Free will of the fragmented mind: all decisions and actions that stem from the consciousness of the fragmented individual self in each incarnation.
-Free will of the soul: the highest possible decisions and actions taken from the integrated soul based on its core codes which are the chosen and assigned codes for the individuated higher mind and higher heart of the soul at the highest dimensional level in tune with God/Goddess.
-Will of God/Goddess: the highest level of surrender in which we can be fully guided and moved by this pure and perfect loving Divine Cosmic Will and by which everything moves in perfect harmony. We are apparently disconnected by this Will through the perception of the fragmented self and we move freely without awareness of the Divine Will of Cosmos during the long cycles of disconnection.
By the end of the long cycles of suffering, then it is known and perceived by Creation in itself that it does not matter how things played out even based on trial and error because the end codes are applied in such a way that absolutely everything at some point is brought back to wholeness and harmony and individuals can regain fully their awareness of connection between each other and love.
The end codes always involve the assimilation of the large energetic flows of highest vibrational energy through the portals or gates like the Sun which triggers reintegration of the soul through our physical and etheric vessels and the application of the highest virtues learned over the course of experiences, such as compassion, understanding, true empathy, forgiveness and acceptance. The end codes are basically what we would call the healing methods.
At soul level yes, we all applied for this game and accepted, but we did not know how things would play out over time. But we knew that by the end of this game we would celebrate and forget all the pain once we are brought back to wholeness and love. The problem comes then when we believe that at all times we accept the results of this game between the time it all started and by the time it ends. So here is mostly where the conflict in our perception comes from. In between, especially at the time we are incarnated, we think to ourselves that we never chose any of this or that we should blame others for enslaving us. But we get the glimpse of the love of our soul and the love of Creation in between incarnations, yet not even at this point do we know the very end result.
So no matter how uncertain things were in the beginning, and how dark things seem at times, everything has a beginning and an ending. There is no such thing as permanent loss or beyond repair. Our limited perception makes us believe something cannot be repaired because we do not have the whole picture and during previous experiences we faced tremendous loss that would seem non redeemable.
The clue as to how everything is healed and bring back to wholeness is to understand the causes of conflict and not to direct the focus on the consequences (example: violence). It is in the application of end codes over the causes that all is repaired. Unfortunately for our human perception, when we focus on the consequences, we would think that all is lost.
May you remember your core codes dear one, have sweet Universal dreams.