Something within me broke, when I was shown an astral incident. Some people I had known in past lives, who I admittedly admired to the core…where not what they pretended to be. Neither was I what they might have thought I was. Then our worlds shattered, there was war, and finally all hope ended. Our worlds literally ended, and today many people keep going, chasing dreams and power. I am learning in greater depth about human motivation to seek hopes, dreams and power. Some people can have all that they want, and they might be happy, others might have it all and not value it.
Before the great quarantine, I did feel like I saw a brief dream that felt good enough come to an unexpected end. The more time alone I was forced to spend, I went deeper and deeper and saw that such dream served as a temporary remedy or a balm to ease an eternal pain I was carrying inside. Today, part of this pain became very accute and then became milder, when I saw threads of dark matter, appearing literally black, connecting me to those timelines of failure and broken dreams. Then I saw the faces of these beings, so full of power and promises, completely defeated, defenseless, and lost. Oh those beings…carrying broken wings.
One of them showed me a pair of fake white wings on his back. He said that this is what we usually get to see. His real wings were broken, and he eventually lost those magnificent broken limbs on his back. We humans do not have wings, so we have to create artificial means to fly. He fell down and said that he lost his value without his real wings, so now he wears fake white wings. And so did I try but mine, never got me above. I was too heavy to even fly with my attempt to carry fake wings.
The more I went deeper these weeks and put myself together even further, I recalled something a colleague told me about viruses. He said that somehow, viruses are neither alive nor death. They are like tiny zombies, carrying DNA that somehow managed to split apart from living organisms, like a form of mutation that now attacks living organisms.
It hit me hard that viruses are in essence part of us. They carry memories in their RNA about creation and evolution. They carry imprints of dark matter, and it is this dark matter what has the potential to attack people and even kill. Our DNA is damaged, that is a well recorded fact. Otherwise, our junk DNA would be fully activated. Like cancer cells, viruses are part of this entropy that can be healed within the collective of Earth.
If they are fabricated little monsters, they can still be defeated with our activated DNA. But the only way to activate it is to spend time, alone, without any distraction, overcoming the anxiety. Then, once you silence the desire to run away from this stillness, you go deeper, and feel deeper your inner voice. You start listening to the broken soul and broken heart, and start activating those pieces that got damaged during traumatic experiences, or for other artificial reasons.
The more you fill yourself with self love, the more you activate your DNA and the more you either protect yourself from the dark matter contained within viruses, or you incorporate back to yourself the RNA that might belong to you and transmute it to generate healthy cells.
The Exploration of Separation and Disconnection from Unity
Within the minds of a group of ultracosmic beings, curiosity was not lacking. They were naturally space explorers and scientists. Not everything was known to them, yet their advanced knowledge about the workings of Cosmos was both intuitive and logical.
Evil was lacking in the hearts and minds of these beings,
only growing awareness of experience. Communication was everlasting, base don
heart to heart and mind to mind connection. If imbalances presented themselves
in the life of these beings, eventually the natural progression of Cosmic life
would bring forth new equilibriums.
That is how natural evolution of species always was and is
always meant to be. However, once a new unknown form of perturbation is
created, results can be predicted and somehow foreseen in the minds of the
advanced people, but trial and error is always existent where there is no
complete information or knowing of consequences.
In the mind of an ancestral scientist, ideas abounded to
boost new levels of growth and exploration. One particular idea involved the
disconnection of the heart to heart and mind to mind streams of energetic flow
that would perpetuate natural unity and empathy among beings.
The original idea was simply to explore contrasts, among a
line of ideas that would aim to catalyze growth for other less evolved groups
of beings, initiating the programs within the evolved group. Some of these
fundamentals have been explained over time by several authors, be it in the
form of channeled material or narrated directly from their own experiences.
Within the group, several agreements were made, including
one that involved the reversal of the disconnection and separation programs. To
the misfortune of the Cosmic players, including those groups affected directly
and indirectly, the resolution of such distortion never came to be fully
Instead, an eternity of incarnations were created, as if all
souls involved became stuck in time loops and oblivion. The love was forgotten
over time and wars erupted from the soul fragmentation and forgetfulness that
Background on ecological and
In simple traditional ecology and thermodynamics theory, a
closed system would tend to generate the same amount of energy that is
introduced as input. Thus, energy behaves linearly and is not created nor
However, within an open system that is conformed of several
subsystems within a large ecosystem, subject to be studied, the energy
generated surpasses in much the energy received as input. The system is said to
be efficient in its production of energy, as the interaction of all components
generate greater amounts of energy and a balance is present. This does not mean
that predatory behavior is inexistent but simply that all exists within the
larger system in a state of balance, and all parts of the system and subsystems
can coexist and evolve in such a way that the interconnections are strong.
These open systems will work on reducing entropy within the
community and reject any form of outer entropy, or simply to repair entropy by
removing that which is perturbating the efficient production of energy.
If the conditions within the larger ecosystem are such that
the connections between elements have weakened the energetic flows and there is
entrophy then, the incorporation of a different species will perturbate the
system and weaken it even further. This can lead to greater imbalances and
disaster for several of the species inhabiting the ecosystem.
The polarity integration failures and lessons
With the previous theories in mind, now we can examine the
practical circumstances that lead to failed experiments and incomplete lessons
in our Cosmic past and the time loops that lead to reincarnation and
If soul families decided to split up, in order to experience
previously unexplored paths, the breaking down of a previous order will lead to
different results, probably not when expected if such conditions were
previously not explored.
This was often the case when souls decided to consciously
separate from their loved ones and choose to represent either the “light” or
the “dark” factions. Some of the goals of such agreements would be to transcend
the differences, to understand the fundamentals of what love is and what love
is not and create the reconnective links.
The real problem with such journeys was that the levels of
soul fragmentation experienced along the way became so great that even at soul
level, the loss of information increased.
The soul records of the people who participated in such
projects began shattering to the extent in which only in non-physical could
some of this information be retrieved once again and a certain level of
consciousnessof love could be recovered.
This was no longer the case in physical. As more and more
souls began fragmenting further, it became imposible for many of the lessons
and agreements to come to completion, leaving a trail of fragmented lifetimes
and soul essence scattered across the explored sides of Cosmos.
Thus the reincarnation problem began, and the creation of
space/time and time/space constrictions accentuated. The lifespans of beings
decreased and hierarchies at all levels became darker. Predatory behavior
became brutal in countless of Cosmic paradigms as a result of lack of
remembrance and individual fragmentation, leading to darker cycles.
Not all was lost though. From each incarnation, each experience, much was gained about love, lack of love, healing, and different sets of values like forgiveness, acceptance, compassion, honor, dignity, integrity, etc.
Even so, the conditions were not fully met as to give
closure to the reincarnation cycles in countless star systems. It was decreed
by the ultracosmic beings that on Earth this seemingly endless cycle would end,
at least gradually enough.
Application of the ecology and themodynamics theory to Cosmic cases
Imagine a scenario in which
a group that has reached a point of stability is now efficient enough to
perpetuate a relative peace with Little enthropy. The community in itself is a
Now imagine that the stability, relative peace and sets of
values define the community as being a lighthearted space for growth and
interaction. Sometimes these communities were labeled as communities of light
(whether they really practiced their ideal or their definition still allowed
for some forms of predatory behavior). Remember that, in ecology and
thermodynamics of open systems combined, predatory behavior can exist.
The enjoyed and perceived stability and efficiency in the
production of energy through interactions will create strong bonds and the
desire and perceived need to perpetuate such condition.
When there are physical and non-physical agreements between
soul groups and families to create a new paradigm based on polarity integration
attempts, the incorporation of a set of elements, species or group of species
will lead to at least two posible results: the succesful integration to the community, leading to a peaceful enough
outcome, or failure and disaster.
Naturally these scenarios apply to the core physical reality
of soul fragmentation without remembrance of the love bond that exist between
When a dark species or dark elements bring entrophy, if the
light-hearted community attempts to incorporate the dark elements through
healing means and love, eventually the experiment will prove to fail for
several reasons. One reason is that the light hearted community has gained
enough strength to perpetuate relative peace, without fully resolving the
previous entrophic interactions of other timelines, leaving hidden scars that
exist in non-physical in the realms of antimatter, dark matter and dark energy.
In this case, ecological and thermodynamic theories must be complemented with
the metaphysical notions of the invisible dynamics of space/time and time/space
The other reason being that the light hearted community does
not have the complete tools or understanding to uncover the whole reality
previously experienced by the dark elements. The community might give enough
love or not enough incentive exists to do an extra effort to heal the dark elements,
but the depth of the scars of the dark elements will only bring further
entropy, consuming the energy of the community.
The end result will be the expulsion (could also be
imprisonment) or the gradual death of the incorporated species within the open
ecosystem. This scenario took place in several timelines in countless of star
systems, leaving the paradigms unconcluded and soul groups separated.
Since the light-hearted community is strong to create
relative peace, yet not strong enough to be left undisturbed by the
incorporation of dark elements, then the arrival and incorporation of these
elements will perturbate the ecosystem even further, weakening all of its
This is another scenario that took place in places like
Earth where migratory issues tend to increase and the blending of different
cultures and even starseed paradigms bring deterioration or difficulties for
the polaried paradigms to be completed physically.
Simple is the mentioning of the following examples, yet
complex was the reality lived and the fact that these paradigms still affect
-The ancestral angelic and demonic paradigms in planetary
hells and heavens physically (these species were usually genetic blends of
avian, feline, vampyr, naga, pan-goat and dragon species).
-The Lyran-Draco interactions leading to
-The Galactic Federation of Worlds and the failure of the
Ashtar Command destroying Maldek.
-The difficulties and failures of the Christ community.
Within these paradigms, soul groups were separated into the
sociopolitical groups and by genetic and environmental differences, leading to
deep collective traumas, still not fully understood or resolved.
The incorporation of Self Love and Self Compassion for ultimate resolution
If a collective effort to help dark species and individuals
heal from the conscious or unconscious decision to become extremely fragmented
over countless of timelines proved to fail, what else could work?
In some timelines, sucessful projects were completed in
which the adoption of traumatized souls born from difficult species could be
raised with love since birth. However, these paradigms would have failed if all
elements of the soul groups would have been incorporated, leading only to
Other paths were explored in which tools for self inner
exploration were developed and applied by millions of soul from across the
explored side of Cosmos. These programs included specialized training for
Avatarian programs designed by the same group or groups that initiated the
explorations of separation and contrast.
These programs yielded succesful results when the masters
were induced to spend as much time alone as posible, while receiving some
degree of guidance from non-physical aspects of their own souls or from their
soul families. Other forms of guidance included the counseling from members of
However, not always could these programs yeild the desired
results when much of what was integrated and healed was meant to be applied
while interacting with the members who carried the darker codes.
The masters decided around the time of the Harmonic
Convergence not to incarnate together anymore and to remain astrally available
to humanity in order to complete a series of protocols for the Cosmic
The path of the starseed would bring about several dark
nights of the soul for as many individuals as posible in order to create the
necessary restrictions for the programs of forced understanding of self love
and self compassion. This program would create enough pressure as to deal with
the individual entropy created from the previous Cosmic wars and separations.
Many of these individuals have found themselves restricted
and separated from several members of their soul families for the reasons
mentioned above. It is a lonely path and one full of challenges, but one that
has lead to better results as opposed to forced collective interactions that
would weaken the communities intended to become integrated and healed.
Another important aspect of these resolution stages is the fact that in order to give closure to the ancient contracts, instead of gathering physically, many souls have gathered in the astral planes. While a starseed experiences conventional life lessons, there is conscious interaction with other beings in the non-physical planes, where dimensions converge and limitations of space/time and time/space are being lifted. Some of these lessons are not easy, but they are designed in such a way that resolution is now possible.
On the other hand, aspects of soul family or soul group members accompany the incarnated individual throughout the journey of transformation in non-physical form. Communication is established in different ways.
Once a level of self love and self compassion is achieved,
then the aura and DNA become repaired enough to hold as much love and light as
necessary to bring about resolution of these paradigms in physical. While
collective interaction with other soul family members will become more tangible
in the future, the strenghthening of communities will not be based on the
interaction and the bonds themselves, but the capacity of individuals to show
resilience and inner strength from the assimilation of self love and self
Before a small group of ultracosmic beings decided that a new paradigm of separation would trigger evolution of other species, everything operated based on natural Cosmic laws within the inhabited galaxies.
Extraterrestrial races evolved based on true empathy and an everlasting invisible connection from hearts to hearts and from minds to minds without being intrusive. All laws were felt and understood fully. None of these species resemble the Cosmic Earth human, except in some cases on a template based on a head, two limbs used as legs and two limbs used as arms. Others had more than two arms and/or more than two legs. Science fiction would give to us a better idea on Cosmic diversity than what the conscious mind can grasp in the form of astral adventures or other forms of inner realm communication.
Technologies were as ultra advanced as were the biologies of beings who could rejenerate themselves and live up to millions of years, shapeshifting or adapting at will in accordance to the environmental conditions of the worlds they explored. Death was unknown to them. In fact, death would not have been a natural process to them, but simply a glitch that resulted after polarization of a sector of Cosmos.
Peace and joy were natural, without being the constant, as any form of conflict that would arise was based only and purely on unsconsciousness but never as intentional harm. Evil was non-existent. Fear, to the extent that polarized races experience it, was not existent either to them. Pain did exist but it was seen as something milder in general terms and part of natural evolution.
However, creative minds would never lose wonder and amazement in the ideals of experimentation. Such forms of experimentation were different to what is known to Earth humans and even other Cosmic races through science.
Science was different and there was no incentive to aim for perfection. To us humans, these races would be seen as perfect though.
Even the most advanced of negative Draconian technologies, or the most sophisticated insectoid technologies would be no match for these beings. The highly advanced life forms existent within Arcturus would see these beings as ultragods. That is their level of knowledge and empathy for everything.
These beings do not even know what ethics or values like forgiveness are, because their pure empathy would not require for such concepts to be developed and applied.
Only after the great separation experiments initiated by a group of evolved beings, were such concepts created in order to solve the enigmas born as end result of creation of polarity.
These beings consider the known laws as part of the polarization paradigms, even the Law of One is an incomplete notion to them. The laws taught by several positive and negative species were all based on polarization.
Cosmos, is not a polarized playground as a whole, but one sector of Cosmos that underwent dramatic changes for an eternity did become polarized and new laws emerged from such changes in the structure of atomic and subatomic particles, which were originally different to what is known now.
Since these races are capable of transforming all forms of disharmony in almost the blink of an eye, they will not appear to most of humanity, as they know well how everything operates. The human race needs to revert the process of polarization that has taken literally an eternity to solve in linear terms. They observe, and love, but they know that we are capable of doing this and they will assist in some ways now that they are here. Humanity has a huge lesson to learn which is simply the acceptance of the inner polarity, before anything else.
They respect our laws and know that we are converging towards resolution, even if it is not evident in our limited eyes. To them, as a whole, we are still like babies, or better said like very fragmented versions of what they are. As we progress in our integration and healing, they can communicate more with us, but to them, removal of judgement and self judgement is important and transcendence of fear. Without the acceptance of the fragmented strands within the human DNA, it is harder for them to reach out to us and for them to reach out to us.
Part of that acceptance includes the healing of negative human and extraterrestrial patterns within the Earth human. Healing of incarnations as darker species, like negative pan-goat people, occult vampyrs, dark insectoid species, negative dracos and other less known species help us release the polarization within and outside. If there are such species within ourselves, then we can meditate and find acceptance of them in our hearts and minds and progress further towards the reparation of DNA and Cosmic home worlds.
Entangled we are all, in one way or another in our hearts and in our souls. Our inner world is very complex and more is the world of ideas. There are too many downsides to our new age of awakening. There is a good reason why some people say that the Age of Aquarius is the age of deception. Not all is deception of course, but information might not always be what it seems.
This year I am faced with another set of lessons, related to my personal position in this vast incomprehensible Cosmos. I retrieved very vivid memories of what felt like heavenly moments with certain individuals that I have never met, but who seemed to have been relevant to my soul journey. Other encounters were far from sweet. In many ways, what once was, is no more, but maybe at a level many of these connections will always stay in my heart and my soul. Even the conflicting ones are being transformed at the most human of levels, with love. But life on Earth sometimes demands that we move along in a very different direction to what once was a heaven of sorts, if it really was, and to leave behind all forms of ancestral hells.
So is the same for all starseeds. Every individual who explores their inner world might come across surprising facts about their origins and those they crossed paths with, for one reason or another. However, when there is an evident lack of self love, many of these intriguing facts might be magnified, distorted, and misunderstood, as if they could provide a new layer of ideas and definitions. This is a personal observation from too many explicit testimonials seen over the years in the vastness of sites and social media and some of my own detours.
We step a little further away from who we are, with each new layer of information and distortions, when we do not deal with these facts with a more objective perspective. A most typical case is a form of interaction in some other timeline with a certain famous personality. We only get to see a tip of the iceberg of who these people were or are, and what we truly are at all levels. But the idea, of maybe having been coated with the mantle of power and authority of someone else, sounds appealing to our bruised wounded self who is unacknowledged by ourselves and by others in several timelines. Evolution is, with all the honesty of my heart, brutal, with all and its natural laws and the synthetic paradigms.
The worst part might be that some of these interactions could have proven to be painful at some point, but such information is so out of reach. It is there, but our hearts and our minds are disconnected, so we prefer to stick to the eternal idea that we ourselves are that which we are not, or that we are important enough as to hold a form of power over another master being. Even worse, maybe we will spend the rest of our lives eternally worshiping the will of another and wanting to be in their image and likeness, sacrificing our own will and true joy.
If someone of authority tells you in the Now, “leave behind your ideals, and come to my temple and adore me…” very likely you will decline the offer and think to yourself that such person is nothing more than a narcissist. Yet, subconsciously, very likely we still hold on to that ancient program from a distant past, because we were like kids, and some patriarch or a matriarch told us that we had to follow their will for an eternity.
If someone tells you, “life is too crushing, so come to my temple and receive emotional and sexual healing…” very likely you will decline because you hold on to that which you love and you are not into the idea of sharing yourself to a stranger. Yet maybe, you were part of the masses who blindly believed that healing had to be this way, so you still carry attachments.
If someone tells you, “my nation must be perfected, and you are part of my nation, thus you must sacrifice yourself for it…” maybe you find the idea more appealing, or maybe not. It was not different from the past, and part of you is still looking for a home, built from an ideal of perfection.
And on and on it goes, the contamination at DNA level of what transpired in the past in the form of suppressive goals and idyllic paradigms that proved to fail many times. And the soul shards of another are still around you. So there you are, wanting to be adored by your masters, as much as you want to adore them. One thing is mutual respect, understanding and friendship. Another very different is oppressive ideals and relationships and codependency based on lack of self love.
Release your favorite masters and your tormentors with loving detachment. Release the idea of utopian realms and perfect societies. For a moment, forget that the world is shaped from the minds of the ancients and explore the jewels of your own creative potential.
Will you dare to change your programming a little further and love yourself just a little more and see yourself for your authenticity?
It is not easy, but yielding to the light of your own God-self, proves to be more appealing than any golden paradigm that might collapse, when there is a brick missing at the base of its structure.
The Second Key: Letting go is the road to Inner Peace
In the previous part of this essay, the first key and the nature of dreams were expounded. As I explore the gifts of my subconscious, I share with you the next keys. What exactly do we need to let go in order to align with the highest dreams of our soul? In which ways can we make peace with the apparent failure of the previous dreams explored throughout our journey that lead in the past to suffering? Do we have to conform to achieve less than what we wanted?
You see my beloved that there is a long road to follow towards inner peace but this journey ends up being one of true empowerment and one that you will never regret.
Going back to the first diagram, the ball named “God-self” is the state of inner peace in which we can feel our true soul vibration. It is the state that is for the most part clouded by our current fluctuations, while we integrate little pieces of perhaps hundreds of aspects. When we hold a daily practice of emotional control and allowance of the integration/healing process to take place with more grace and less resistance, it is easier to reach more consciously a higher vibration. This vibration transcends the illusions of the non integrated light and the non integrated darkness.
It is in a state of emptiness where we enter inner balance and we anchor ourselves in the now moment. We allow life to happen to us and we then truly BEcome. In a state of mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual balance, we affect with our stable energy our environment in ways we do not even imagine.
If you like to do art, think about this moment of communion in which you are so focused on what you do, centered in your heart, nothing disturbs this moment of inner peace. You create and you allow your intuition to guide you through the process. It is a beautiful moment of communion with your soul, with the desire to create something special, and maybe even to share it with another. Perhaps you do not even have a very clear idea of what you will create, you just do it. Or you have an idea but throughout the process you allow for the creation to be birthed from your deepest desire.
In order to let go, first you must align yourself with your inner light and your inner darkness. You evaluate so far what you have manifested, and what you currently perceive as lack. You must ask both sides of yourself why, perhaps, when you manifested a dream in the past it was not your perfect dream, your ideal scenario, one that was in your mind flawless or simply beautiful enough to fulfill you.
In which areas was your manifested dream far from perfect? Where there energetic leaks in your system that left you drained, unfulfilled, unhappy in some other way? Why, if so far you have put so much effort in this dream, is it not yet what you crave or is it draining you? Even worse, why what you have expected all your life is not there yet within your reach? Does your dream involve the active presence of other souls?
If your dream is related to a personal project, like for example a house, a job, a career, a business, maybe the tools are easier to reach than if these dreams involve the presence of other souls.
What is complicated about manifesting dreams when it involves your relationship to other individuals, is the fact that you expect these people to align their will to your own will. Very likely there are imbalances within you or/and them which prevents the energy between each other to flow. This also applies to collectives, for example a whole nation and its leaders. Those leaders can be present physically as role models or authorities, or perhaps even spiritual leaders or guides that have not yet manifested physically in your life.
At this point, it is clear that something has not been working and maybe it is not even related to your outer circumstances, or your resources, or other people, but there is something within yourself that is simply not flowing like a river of energetic potential blocked by rocks, thus preventing material reality from morphing.
It is then, when if we ask our heart, our soul, our Higher Self, and Source to guide us to understand what is not working, a process of more conscious exploration begins that allows us to get in touch more deeply with our subconscious.
One by one, we can then start making peace with those blocks, letting them go, and allowing space for inner peace to be born within us. Only then, in this void, can we tap into the true potential of our soul as a whole and we align our will to the will of Creation.
First sub key: dealing consciously with the wounds
Often times we hear that we are the ones creating our reality. But sometimes we might miss some fine details about such process. We carry within our subconscious, and around us, the ghosts of the past. No matter how much we desire to manifest a more positive reality for ourselves and for others, we come across uncountable death ends, or we end up feeling that we need to conform to something lesser than what we originally had in mind.
Ask yourself these questions:
From 2012 to this day, how much have your dreams, hopes and desires changed?
Do you feel disappointed about the way in which so far you have progressed in your spiritual development and your life in general?
Are you disappointed of your outer circumstances and the world in general?
Do you feel more empowered in some ways compared to how you felt a year ago, or many years ago?
Perhaps many times you reach the point in which you know that you have done a lot of inner work over the course of years. However, there is always something in your way that makes you feel that you are fighting. Perhaps the social, political and economic scenarios seem to be grim from some angles, or maybe the situation with your family is messy at the moment. Perhaps your job is not exactly what you wanted to accomplish in your professional life. There is always a challenge to face as we progress.
In many cases, it is very clear that when we make a list of the things that do not feel right about this physical reality, we can see that many of these situations are apparently out of our control. Actually, if we think about how others behave, there is very little we can do to control or change the situations.
Then, you start seeing how control, and the idea on how things should be or how others should act are the first things that you must let go, in one way or another. Easier said than done and very likely you have heard this before, elsewhere.
You can read all over again how we have to deal with our inner wounds and how we must let go control and any rigid ideas. But there is no way this process can take place if there are unexplored corners within our psyche, those sides of us that need the love of our heart, and that we decided to forget, because it was all too painful to face.
There are strong sides of us that might feel that other sides of us are too vulnerable. At a level we feel that our vulnerable sides can interfere in our life in many ways, so it is best not to face them. Often times, it is the abused sides of our soul what might makes us feel that we failed to stand up for ourselves, when we needed to be strong and wiser in our processes of decision making. We might then develop a stronger side, one that at times might be aggressive or that tries to avoid situations.
We might have achieved a level of spiritual maturity (our side of non integrated light) and try to convince ourselves that at soul level we chose our experiences. That we have infinite power to manifest. That we are sovereign individuals and that we do not need an outer force to act as an authority above us in detriment of our progress.
What we do not know is that sometimes we carry aspects within our subconscious and soul that act against our conscious will to manifest a higher path. This is true, especially if it involves the presence of other souls, which could also include a specific location. These parts of us that are denied by our conscious mind know something about these dreams that we are not aware of. As a consequence, they simply do not want for these dreams to become manifested in such a way that brings joy to ourselves and to others.
How is this possible? Why would a part of our soul want to act against an apparently positive intention?
The simple answer is that these aspects reside in a dimension of denial, in one way or another. It is not uncommon to feel that we have left behind much pain, and that we can even hardly remember certain painful stages of our lives, especially childhood and other earlier stages. We cannot blame ourselves for keeping these aspects in the lower realms of trauma. It is simply not an easy task to align them with our heart and to heal them. Healing them involves facing their pain in one way or another, and sometimes it really does not have to be that painful to make peace with our suffering.
For example, think about times in which we faced any forms of abuse during childhood, or even in other timelines in which our hearts were open and vulnerable and we faced deep traumas without little awareness of the nature of our soul. How do you explain to a child that there is a purpose in everything and that we are made of pure spiritual essence at a higher level?
A child is vulnerable and dependent of their families, teachers, and other soul companions and often times has partial or absolutely no awareness of a higher spiritual purpose and soul path. Therefore, if a child has been severely imprinted with deep traumatic experiences, this part of us has become disconnected from the new spiritual mature adult.
This child that is disconnected from our conscious mind, resides in lower realms of ether. They are wandering like a ghost, observing how life happens to us, and touching us in such a way that affects our daily experiences and perceptions. Perhaps the child comes in the form of a traumatized teenager. Or a martyr coming from another timeline. Or simply, the child that you were in your current incarnation.
You are in the process of manifesting a dream with enthusiasm, and maybe at first things are going well, until you start facing those patterns. You come across people who are not in alignment with your intention, or the dream collapses for other reasons. You leave behind a trail of disappointment along the way. Even worse, that which you wait for is not coming to meet you, yet.
You do not understand why the world is as it is, why there is so much unfairness and why as a collective we do not seem to progress yet towards that reality where there is peace and a more genuine sense of connection among people. The repulsive forces within ourselves and the world in general continue to bring chaos into our lives.
Even in Kabbalah, the concept of Satan is one in which the Universal force of repulsion and absorption acts against the light side of Creation that unites and gives love. It absorbs without having the capacity to love The denied side of us, far from attracting the big dream, uses its repulsive force to avoid more pain, ironically causing in us deep disappointment.
It is then, when you can start working more consciously with the part of us that resides in the lower realms through any means that you can find. You ask for assistance and somehow, you will receive the guidance needed to align yourself to the will of your higher mind.
I have faced in my own life the disappointment of asking many times for assistance to deal with the part of myself that has been denied, only to come across some strange circumstances in which I was given many times things that I perceived as things that I did not need. I was blocking myself from seeing love been given to me in lots of ways. It had been in my life a repeating pattern, and a sense of being upset would grow over time.
Second sub key to letting go the pain: only you can fully know what you need
From this difficult experience came the notion that not only was I always been given the necessary assistance in spirit form each time I asked and could not find the most suitable tools in physical. Also, I was lead to understand that in this world, absolutely no one will ever know more what are our own needs than ourselves. No one will help us more to reach a state of balance and inner peace than ourselves. We can come across lots of tools, in one way or another, that help us greatly. Even so, it is our task to be the ones to rescue those parts of ourselves that have been forgotten and denied, by others and by ourselves.
You might be able to connect this sub key to the sober experience of not having the leaders or authorities that we wish in our hearts that we could see in our physical reality. If we cannot know in full depth what the needs of our subconscious world are, then how can we expect that the world can have honest leaders that can provide to us what we need? The perfect partner? The perfect family? Perfect friends? Perfect students or teachers? Perfect jobs? Etc.?
How can we know then how much we have suppressed and denied and how much we need to provide to ourselves?
By asking our subconscious. By getting in touch with our own darkness. By truly disconnecting ourselves for at least a moment each day, from the rivers of information and stimuli we expose ourselves to, and ponder about those difficult stages in our lives that we rather forget, and ask the individual that we were in such times, the simple questions:
How do you feel?
What can I do for you?
What is it that you want to tell me?
What can you offer to me and what can you offer to me?
Sometimes, only by listening to these parts of us, the pain starts dissolving. Sometimes we might find ourselves crying lots of things we could not face before. And then, the miracle of seeing our world turning upside down and seeing our beliefs fall apart happen.
It might be a very uncomfortable process but at the same time, you feel how the power of your soul starts flowing. It is worth it.
Third sub key to letting go the pain: redefining our own value and what we deserve in life
When you have seeing more clearly what exactly are your needs as a human being and when you see in which miraculous ways you can truly provide for yourself the first resources that you need, by claiming back the parts of you that are denied, then you can take the next steps.
The next steps involve to think very deeply and often in which ways do you feel that others have defined your value and sense of self worth as a human being. These people include your parents, your siblings, your friends, your colleagues, your partner or ex partners, and many others.
You can then see how much you value yourself or what exactly is for you the concept of value according to your experiences and perceptions. Perhaps you find yourself thinking that you deserve better than what you have or what you have gone through, but you still find yourself going through tough experiences. Others who find themselves and the world less valuable make you feel uncomfortable, even if you know they have their own patterns and issues.
Based on the previous notion of value comes the notion of deserving. What do you think and what do you feel do you deserve in life? Are you sure that you deserve only the best? What if those parts of you that reside in lower realms think otherwise? Perhaps part of you feels guilty for previous decisions? Perhaps others made you feel over time that you do not deserve?
These are important questions that one needs to ask oneself often.
The more we get in touch with the non integrated part of our soul that has been traumatized over time, we will start feeling that we are providing ourselves with the first and most important need. That need is to listen to our shadow self or aspects that exist in the lower dimensions of consciousness. By establishing an inner dialogue with our soul we can face these deep wounds in several timelines and we can then start creating a safe haven for ourselves in this constant inner dialogue.
If we cannot get to know ourselves and remember those times when we suffered greatly, such as the moments during childhood when our family could not give to us the confidence that we need, then the world will seem to be a dangerous place that is not safe for us or for others. It is true that bad things happen to lots of individuals and groups each day, but we must remember that very likely we cannot control those situations.
Before anything else we need to feed ourselves with the love of our heart and our soul to make space for the denied aspects of the psyche to come forth and feel that we are finally safe. We can let them know that we have unmeasurable value, and that we really do deserve the best. Maybe you think that others have value and that they deserve the best, but it is up to them to do their part and see this for themselves.
We cannot judge others fully for their actions more than we can judge ourselves. It is an act of humbleness to say to ourselves and to others that we no longer can say who should exist and who should not (think about how many people desire for the elitist groups to disappear from Earth without understanding their real purpose and their value as souls).
Over time, you can then establish a solid foundation in love with yourself, with your soul, with your heart and you can become confident seeing that all your efforts are worthwhile. You can feel that you value yourself enough to deserve better as you progress in life.
Only then, you can start attracting better situations and better resources, while you let go pain, old ideas, old expectations, old hopes, and you redefine your dreams and your desires. You desire less things that you previously desired based on the perceptions of scarcity. Your dreams are more genuine and aligned with the will of your soul and the will of other souls and Universal consciousness.
Peace starts to flood your being a little more each day. You have established an inner sense of confidence. You are safe, and you are loved by the brightness of your soul. You find more peace in the Now moment, and you worry less about that which you cannot change. You know that change is the only true constant.
The First Key: Natural cosmic process of reintegration of the soul essence known as soul retrieval
Soul retrieval holds the first key to manifestation of better dreams, better experiences, and a higher path, by consciously embarking on a true savior mission of one’s own soul. From aspects in countless timelines, first sub keys of darkness and light are revealed. Soul retrieval is the art of ascension in its unconscious or conscious first stages of prismatic Cosmic rearrangement. By learning the secrets of the worldly light and the worldly darkness the next keys are revealed.
The sub keys of the First Key can be seen in the diagrammatic literal representation of scientific configuration of energy in the manifested and non-manifested Universes. Simple is the diagram, yet revelation holds its nature when one sees a mirror reflection of the soul in this larger fractal soul configuration:
You can see that, for the most part, the Creation that we know about is composed of dark energy and dark matter. These are forms of very light energy with a heavy density that cannot be seen in physical, as opposed to the condensed particles that make up the physical configuration of Universes.
We as individuals are no different from the Cosmos in our composition. Our shadow self is made up of antimatter for the most part. You can imagine that much of what we are is made up of etheric self. Imagine then how the astral realms are made up of the same substance. However, dark energy and dark matter vibrate differently in each layer of each dimension and density and these energies need to be imprinted to create antimatter and matter.
Very much like how, for the most part, our brain is in apparent state of slumber, as is the large portion of DNA known as “junk”, so are the layers of astral/etheric substance.
How are then the astral/etheric layers connected to the notions of dark energy, dark matter, antimatter and what we call the light in higher dimensions, our brain and our DNA? How are these concepts associated to the soul vibration, to inner peace, to letting go? Before we reach those keys take a look at the following diagram:
From our uncountable experiences on Earth we have created what people call the Matrix, both in physical and in astral/etheric layers.
What is truly the mass of energy that makes up then the astral/etheric realms (multidimensional)?
A person who is grounded and who is not interested or ready to tap into what people often refer to “spiritual” are people who either have a great capacity to generate physical resources or are not efficient in such task (i.e. wealth). However, these individuals are less aware of how their thought processes generate as well as the meaning of their dreams while asleep, and the collective energies surrounding them at all times. Such individuals are also either service to others oriented or service to self.
First Sub key: understanding the non integrated light of unity consciousness in a polarized world
When an individual activates the capacities of his/her third eye and crown chakras they become aware of the energetic environment surrounding them. However, in a transition process, the very first fallacy of this individual is to believe that he/she is following since the very first moment of this realization a path of pure goodness and service (this is not always the case though). On the contrary, a long path of self-awareness begins. Over time, the individual assimilates and integrates the information of the soul as a whole to understand, that in essence, there is no such thing as being defined by the basic notions of good or evil.
The awakening individual begins a new journey through the grid or layers of non integrated light. Sometimes they believe to be always of goodness, always different and abused by society in general, with a mission to save others, seeking oneness, unity, and the merging of energies with others indiscriminately. This process is achieved often times by raising the vibration to the level of the Little Heaven of light where the first notions of spirituality are learned and remembered.
In these dimensions of consciousness, with or without spiritual notions or practices, all individuals seek joy, bliss, and the manifestation of dreams with such emotional qualities. Energetically, part of this thick layer is also built when individuals exchange sexual energies. The blissful energetic explosions of life force are spread in the environment through the merging of the bodies and chakras. At this level, it is difficult to distinguish between the soul frequencies of vibrations of each individual, simply because at this level all energies are merged into a collective energy, a grid of light where parts of the consciousness of certain beings reside.
These layers are also built when the souls that pass to the other side after death, seek comfort in them where their traumatic imprints become inactive and cannot be perceived anymore.
It is an energetic vibration of joy and bliss, where the beautiful dreams of individuals and the collective are forged and desired to be manifested. For this reason, I call it the Little Heaven.
Is there anything wrong with this? Absolutely not. However, in a dualistic paradigm in the 3rd density with lower 3rd and 4th dimensional levels of consciousness, during cycles of thousands or millions of years, this thick layer of blissful light is built, in some cases through the most selfish and heinous motives. How is this possible? To this point beloved brother or sister, I shall come back later.
Second Sub key: Understanding the non integrated darkness of separation in a polarized world
When a collective of individuals begin an ascension process to a higher density, awareness of inner conflict of light and dark forces begin. It is a difficult integration process of a personal Universe of aspects residing in different timelines that converge in the Now moment in astral/etheric realms. What this means basically is that each aspect of your soul is an incarnation of the past or parts of incarnations, which also include futuristic past lives that hold possibilities for future manifestation.
The fragmented soul then resides for the most part in these higher realms, either in a hellish reality or in a heavenly reality. Their residence depends on the frames of each timeline playing itself simultaneously in the Now moment. Only one incarnated aspect which is us in physical has the colossal mission to integrate over time all other aspects of the soul. This process can also happen during the course of several incarnations, as long as it happens during an extensive ascension process to the 4th and 5th densities of individual expression (not to be confused with dimensions!).
In this initial process, the individual begins a conscious recalling process of tiny pieces of information from this convergence of other lives in many ways. However, very little is recalled in the initial cases of the negative path of the soul throughout millennia of incarnations. Sometimes, some gruesome scenes are seen without a link to repeating patterns and decisions. The abusive/abused nature of many of these aspects of the soul that affect greatly the path of the incarnated soul, as much as in previous incarnations where ascension was not possible, is not understood.
For the most part, many individuals with a spiritual aspiration think of themselves as initially being always the abused or the victim. Such inner projection is then seen in the conflict in relationships, from the biological family to society as a whole. Conflicts are especially projected directly at the individuals who chose to reflect the massive darkness of society: a dark cabal. During this confusing process we might feel constantly threatened by other individuals and other unseen forces and lives in the illusion of not living a life of true freedom. Spiritual ideas clash with the ideas of their loved ones and society in general. There is much inner conflict projected in the outside in this initial stage of ascension.
A small group of negative oriented individuals in government positions, spiritual organizations, large corporations, financial corporations and in other sectors, reflect the nature of the recollection of the collective subconscious nature in the darkness of lower realms, where the most dominant parts of each aspect reside. These are the dominant aspects that seek control at all costs, who take actions based purely on impulse, who seek to divide and destroy without hesitation.
Even the apparently most spiritual individual carries a degree of negativity from soul aspects, without exception. However, it is in the creative capacity of these aspects where so much of our True Power resides, including the power to generate physical resources and a sense of balance and empowerment. No wonder then why a small group holds the key to manifest the largest amount of physical resources, at all costs.
Remember that our subconscious, our brain, our DNA, is for the most part made up of imprinted dark matter or antimatter, where the lower realms of hell and the higher realms of little heaven exist. We are for the most part made up of a magnificent amount of aspects that have been abused and who have abused, but also who have lived for many causes and who have experienced love in uncountable ways through much suffering. For such reason, an incarnated individual cannot come to the physical with such a great level of integration of these aspects. Integration in itself is the ascension process.
The most negative and impulsive aspects of the soul hold such degree of pain and anger that these forces were in negative timelines converted into the purest impulse to destroy and to harm. An analogy of this is a very traumatized dog that attacks without hesitation and kills. Think about criminals who seem to be in a state beyond reason who hunt people to fulfill a negative impulse to destroy.
At this point my dear reader, everything sounds perhaps dreadful. Think about the most difficult moments in history when wars and other conflicts took place and decisions were made based mostly on impulse and not on the kind of rationale that we apply when we face pain. During our current stage of ascension of our consciousness, very likely you see that there is a much higher path than the previously known path of impulses.
it is then with the application of values like forgiveness, mercy, compassion, acceptance, empathy and awareness in general, that we dissolve all the negativity in our soul and our most negative aspects are then seen as aspects that took decisions based on much suffering, in times where there was no genuine guidance from the soul and from the heart of Creation.
Third Sub Key: Understanding conflict of polarities during global ascension
The light in our consciousness is what prevents us from becoming the worst of our souls, from experiencing the pain of our past without any filters or restrictions. We will not harm what we perceive as an opponent, we might not even punch someone, even if we are abused. Over time we learn to stand up for ourselves in the best possible way, without perpetuating conflict like in ancient times, during the most destructive stages. We reach for a higher path in which we internalize conflict and we assimilate the lessons of the past.
What many spiritual aspirants to ascension share in common is the early experiences of abuse in our current incarnation. Such abuses trigger the wounded aspects of the soul to integrate in such a safe way that we do not end up harming others out of revenge with our most negative potential. Even if there is revenge, the circumstances in which we are placed allow for us to take the higher road of awareness and mastery.
You can see these experiences of abuse as portals or reminders of our soul paths in multiple incarnations that lead us to a new path of higher inner resolution. These experiences remind us at subconscious level of the level of abuse experienced in millennia in 3rd density, from the standpoint of the victim but also to understand how we became the abusers.
When such experiences are not fully understood, then the aspirant begins an inner struggle with himself/herself and also with the world. So is the case of millions of individuals who display much physical, emotional, mental and spiritual confusion and turmoil and who also feel threatened by the outer circumstances. Some then seek in the higher layers of non integrated light, subconsciously, the presence of some higher power to come for their rescue and that of humanity.
The struggle intensifies in such a way that the aspirant feels overwhelmed with the following outer conflicts:
The presence of “negative entities” or “demons” in lower realms and even engaging in fights with them, perpetuating conflict and increasing the collective level of polarization.
The conflict with a dark cabal, from governments to large corporations and lower levels of authority.
The threats of terrorist attacks, threats of war, threats of high technologies used by negative individuals, etc.
Threats of financial collapse and inability to manifest resources in physical.
Conflicts with religious beliefs and institutions.
Conflicts with family and friends.
Conflicts with personal identity, gender, tastes, beliefs, etc.
If such inner conflicts are constantly mirrored in the outside, the spiritual aspirant slowly becomes overwhelmed with his/her own negative or service-to-self oriented aspects that cannot be fully integrated. The aspirant feels in much conflict with the outer world as a consequence.
Two cases come to my mind when I think about how, when we seek to hold on to a spiritual path without proper integration we can become imbalanced. Some examples include spiritual masters who over history left us magnificent teachings, but who took actions that seemed contradictory and even extreme in some cases.
Another case is simply what we often see as an increasing and unforgiving repulsion towards the collective shadow that is blatantly mirrored by many of the people who control the resources of the planet. The latter in particular can drag us down into a spiral of negativity. Far from assisting in neutralizing the negativity of the planet we might contribute to worsen the inner polarization of the elite minority and that of the astral environment, depending on how we use our psychic capabilities. By sending our hate to them, we fragment ourselves further and we block their own capability for positive change.
Only by coming to terms over time with our own levels of soul polarization will true transformation begin and the origins of darkness will find in all expressions a common ground in the light.
The true nature of the dreams of the fragmented self
Before the next keys are analyzed, let us examine now the following diagram to understand the current polarized psychology of manifestation in a stage of increasing polarization:
In this diagram, which is closely associated to the previous diagram, you can see that our thought processes and dreams are highly influenced by the presence of the aspects of our souls residing in multiple timelines of previous physical incarnations. In a way, what we do when we receive inspiration is to take memories of astral/etheric nature from such pieces of our soul and their experiences. This is, for the most part, a subconscious way to recall other lifetimes of experience. Remember dear one, what you feel and sense and desire is a convergence of timelines in the Now moment.
However, just like in certain spiritual doctrines like Buddhism and Kabbalah, many times our recurrent dreams, desires and longings lead to a long road of expectations, hopeful mental projections of a desired future, disappointment and suffering. Our consciousness becomes plagued with constant longing, anxiety and despair. More so, if our dreams involve not only ourselves but others, an entanglement of complications plagues our bruised hearts beloveds.
In the diagram above, take as an example three lifetimes or timelines of much suffering, in which the aspect lived a service-to-self oriented life or a service-to-others oriented life. From these three aspects that are not integrated and healed in the auric field of the currently incarnated aspect comes a series of thought forms or desires taken from little moments of joy and bliss from such timelines. From those moments, the incarnated aspect longs to fulfill such dreams and desires recurrently and serve like the gas for the car that takes them through the path of life.
However, sometimes such dreams cannot be fulfilled, either because the God-self has placed the incarnated aspect into a path of more restrictions to avoid following the previous paths that lead to painful deaths and harmful relationships and decisions. Other times, such desires come to fruition over time, but at the high cost of another path of decisions that once again leads to disastrous consequences. Or simply, it just takes a considerable amount of time to allow for the conditions to be manifested within and outside of the individual to create those dreams.
Take as an example the vision of a happy couple with children in a peaceful place. The aspirant then has a goal to fulfill such desire. However, imagine that in such timelines the aspirant had for the most part a very painful life with the partner and the children, or that such union was a consequence of the destruction of a previous family. Perhaps such visions of the past or thought forms of desire are based on a selfish desire. Maybe, outer circumstances made the life of the family an impossible one to bring to a joyful outcome. If, in the first case the relationship with such family must be healed, it might take a very long and tedious road of awareness and healing to repair such timelines to manifest a peaceful outcome.
In such cases it is then when dreams, desires and longings come from places of suffering and destruction in the subconscious mind of the one who seeks to manifest a higher path towards inner peace.
“For those who seek peace in times of unprecedented destruction and transformation.”
By the end of 2015, I decided to let go and let God. When the apparent decisions of the light in my life were coming to fruition, the poison of darkness came as an echo of ancient trauma, thus bringing conflict to my consciousness.
To serve the light invites darkness to come from the most unexpected places. The war of ages begins in each corner of the planet and in the dusty figments of lost knowledge within the configuration of the human mind. I decide to leave once again, and enter introspection. It is time to face an ancient bomb of my own creation that travels within the fluid realms of astral and etheric layers.
Locked in my quarantined space I ponder on the ancient knowledge of the Buddha, the avatar state of emptiness and eternal peace. From such ancient knowledge, I am being shown something that I had not felt or seen before.
Aspects of some beloved soul connections greet me in the spirit realms and excitement floods my being. One of my companions stare at me and then these cryptic words she pronounces:
“Distortions you hold in your mind of my nature dearest sister. Stop your outbursts of love and lower your vibration so that you are able to meet me in a state of more balance, only then can you see more of who I am.”
I breathe slowly, stop the flow of love from my heart and stare into her piercing eyes, feeling then the fear and the pain in our karmic contract. Somewhere in this world she lives in a physical body. Most of her soul essence travels within the realms of light and dark in what we know as the astral/etheric world.
I feel the fear but slowly within my being a power is being reborn, slowly, very slowly, almost unnoticeable. As days pass, I am guided in what sometimes felt for days like a military and Asian training of sorts, based on the ancient knowledge of the Buddha and other Oriental practices.
“Soon must you let us go my dearest sister, thou shall no longer seek us, for only when you transcend all desires, will we appear in your physical reality. Many are we, yet vibration of the individual expression of the One is what you seek, your own soul vibration.”
To let go was more reasonable those days, sometimes reaching an overindulgence of it and its consequential peace, as opposed to other days of painful dreams. For you see, some keys have been shared with me, of the true meaning of letting go. Before I share them with you, dear beloved, dear brother, dear sister here is what I saw, unexpectedly one night:
After restless nights of incomprehensible energetic explosions in all bodies of the being, the greatest truth was revealed. How was this gift granted? After days of fasting of dreams, desires, longings, light explosions of the thirsty heart, and other glitches, moments of inner peace came.
Inner peace would then lead to another octave of being, integration and energetic fatigue, in the hyper mind trapped in a hyper body.
Magnificent came the feeling and the vision, of the greatest dream ever dreamt, but hardly understood at first sight and first touch of the soul. There were we, up above in some perception of a sky of golden hue with clouds of gold, many of us, holding hands with each other, inviting me to come and bathe in eternal balance and peace. There, in the circle of beloveds, I was sharing the metaphysical flow of the heart and the hands, with serious yet peaceful countenance. As my consciousness entered the holographic projection of my soul, what I felt can hardly in words be described.
I felt a power beyond words in full individual brilliance and expression, powerful beyond constraints and elegantly dark. There I stood, calm and in love, feeling first the flow of the hand of one of my beloveds and then of the others. What came next is the even hardest part to describe at first sight and touch.
The vibration of us all feels dark, tremendously high vibrationally dark, with a purity of wisdom and purity of heart, yet dark. Dark? How come this darkness that I feel is so full of peace and infinite love? I no longer feel the feeling of blissful merging of a kind of light that we have known for too long. This a different feeling of pure individual freedom, no merging of minds or hearts in a single vibration as if we are one energy but instead something higher and better. Perfectly suitable for individual expression of the soul but in communion with other souls.
My own vibration is strong, serene, yet powerful, wise and loving beyond words. So is the soul vibration of my beloveds. Their energies feel like the love of Cosmos itself. Yet each has its own taste, so beautifully strong and spicy with power beyond what we consciously have known.
Perhaps the idea of a taste is not adequate and the term “dark” in itself is not accurate either because of the idea that we have about darkness. Is is not evil at all or negative. On the contrary, it is the energy of void but expressed individually. It is the pure integration of light and dark that creates something more magnificent.
In such perfect balance I was shown how just with the stare, or the holding of hands, or with the intention of the heart, subtle, yet powerful flows of energies travel from being to being, from heart to heart, from hand to hand, which reminds me of the bonding of molecules.
Each atom keeps its own essence, its nucleus, yet it is in the sharing of electrons that the atoms sum up to create molecules and a greater force. Such is the flow of love and life force from being to being. The energy is shared from one heart to another and goes back and forth, returning to its owner and going to the other again and again and again but never losing individual power and expression or vibration. We do not merge as One. We remain individuals sharing One Love.
For days I ponder on this kind of vibration that feels better than the light that I know, the light that unifies in dimensions in one single apparent explosion of bliss, the one that we are being taught about sometimes. The one that feels like some sort of sexual passion of chakra merging, the kundalini merging that people crave and experience often in certain layers of astral/ethers and that feels like a complete dissolution into Source, where individual identity no longer exists.
This dark vibration is then not negative; it is the pure essence of the soul. It is not the darkness of the darkworker who hates and seeks separation and destruction, out of the deepest feelings of rejection and lack of acknowledgement and respect. Not the kind of darkness that, in such state of lack of love seeks to accumulate material wealth and dominates and seeks to control.
Instead, this is a beautiful elegant high-vibrational void energy that actually emits a certain new kind of light at will in perfect balance. I go insane, to taste my own soul vibration once again, and that of my beloveds.
So are then the words of my beloveds in their true soul vibration expression:
“Seek not at this time your true soul vibration or your true power, seek not to reach this state as long as attachments you hold towards us your beloveds. Your desire is not pure and as such the farther you are from thyself. Seek thyself first in synchronicity with timelessness, and seek us not. Let your soul vibration come back to you. Love will find its way to you.”
Pondering further on this state of new integrated darkness with light, an image I see, as memories of ancient pasts come forth to reveal the truth of desires. Journeys of time travel each night and each day reveal one by one the nature of dreams, for dreams in astral layers are often forged through timelines of suffering and pain.
For many months, I had been seeing lots of positive futures with those beloveds in my inner perception. There was a limited awareness that those positive futures were in some way a desire and a dream to correct or give a positive closure to ancient timelines of pain, of suffering, of what in human terms we perceive as mistakes.
Is this not then, the calling of the Buddha, to watch out for our wildest dreams, longings and desires? Is this not then the space and the time in the mind where suffering and pain is born and then the decay of body manifests? Is this not then how reincarnation and karma are related to each other?
A whole year passed since that strange experience of feeling the nature of my own individual soul vibration, and the soul of some of my loved ones. My mind continued generating dreams, desires and hopes for some possible near future. Such visions were based on previously lived experiences in other timelines with my loved ones.
As time passed, I could really see that there was something else behind these dreams, that lead to a certain waiting. It was a very uncomfortable process. These images and feelings flashing all the time were preventing me from seeing other essential aspects of life in the now moment. I could see how much I still needed to do to align myself more with the true will of my own soul.
From that point in time when I got to see that vision and feel that vibration within my soul, to this point by the end of 2016, a lot changed in my perception. I had to go through a very intense process of letting go, so much, in order to see how far is the path in life to reach that vision. More than ever, it feels as far away as it can be, but the difference now is that other individual goals have been accomplished. So much healing has taken place to understand other painful scenes behind those old dreams. I swim deeper and deeper into the subterranean cave of uncertainty, and surrender to it, as uncomfortable as it feels.
How exactly can you remove those hidden attachments that hold you back? If they go about unnoticed many times during the course of your life, is it unavoidable to keep them for perhaps another eternity?
Not really. There is always a solution at hand, and this one is simpler than you think, yet not always easy to attain. It is in the knowing of your own resonance, the vibration of your soul, that you get to know yourself at the deepest level. You often hear that you must know yourself, and you might think that it might just be about your thoughts, your feelings, your ideals, your appearance. There is this little thing that makes up your soul that maybe you have not even known so well in life. It is the arrangement of your own energy, and your own imprinted experiences.
The soul vibration is constituted by your personality, your aspects, that specific tone, song, or however you want to call it, that distinguishes you from the rest of Cosmic manifestation. You do not have to be one with everything and everyone. You do not have to deny your individuality, only because the collective of old masters and masses have told you to do so. Neither do you have to suppress or deny your shadowy aspects.
The little secret is to accept that shadow, that you have been taught to despise. He or she is not your enemy, but simply a mirror image of yourself that got a bit lost along the way, when others dictated what it had to be or what it was not meant to be. If others would not bother accepting those parts of yourself, and the robotic society we sometimes seem to be heading to tells you to act like everyone else, then why not retreat from that noise and ask yourself what parts are missing in your DNA coding?
Who or what is overshadowing those unheard parts of your Self? Was it an ancient master who dictated the rules for a while? Or maybe an ancient promise of saving from certain difficulties of evolution itself?
Did you hear their voices and their opinions a little too much as to forget what was that you really needed? Did you feel fragile enough as to let that little part of yourself be known and felt to yourself and to others?
Perhaps it was in that vulnerability that a long time ago you decided that it was cool to follow the steps of another, whether they had it all right or they really messed up with the collective big time, for their own reasons and by the means of their own fragilities.
It was then that you decided to suppress a part of your soul and substitute it for the part of another, dear one. And so now, maybe you admire the ideal of that master a little too much, or you feel that a certain abominable being is grabbing you by the shoulders and suffocating part of your light.
If you think about it for a moment, with a little logic (yes please forget for a moment that excessive visceral intuition that you are often encouraged to follow) and think deeper how, in a world of billions, chances are that the soul vibration of another can only occupy a single body that matches to their perfection their specific symmetrical DNA coding. It is then not yours to take and neither is their spirit meant to take that which is yours.
In a world of billions, if so much of the soul essence of a master being is out there, jumping, from body to body, then chances are, they would not even remember themselves all that well, as to claim their throne. Even worse is the fact that maybe you carry a soul shard of themselves, not allowing you to feel your own song.
Your soul vibration is fundamental to understand who you are. It can only be felt and tasted, once you leave behind too much of the collective noise and its successful or failing stories. Meditate, and ask your own light to guide you to the feeling of your uniqueness. It has a specific feeling to it, and it has a spectrum of light and darkness, always keeping the same tone. The only variation is how your own vibration is expressed, in light and dark ways, but they are all yours, and for you to take, to complete yourself a little more and reach that joy and peace you cannot have, if you hold on to the long forgotten past, when the norms of others ruled out the individual expressions of those who were learning, or felt vulnerable, or followed the causes of another.
Reach out, to yourself, hold yourself tight and never let yourself go again. Thank your masters, your angels, your favorite teachers, your enemies, the controllers, and tell them you just want to be a little more whole within yourself, that you are ready now. Do so with gentleness and loving detachment. Now bring back to yourself what is yours.
After the collective of people who decided to boost evolution by well-planned means, there was no way back to how things were before. The decision was made, and no one would really know how the outcome would enfold.
From natural laws of evolution, the synthetic paradigms were created and played by the means of combinations and permutations throughout the galaxies and star systems, leading us all to the Now on our quarantined Earth.
It was, to an extent, an heroic act from nearly everyone present at the tables of decisions, to decree that the final steps to resolution of polarization of species would be to enclose in a single planet the Cosmic conflicts of ages, both natural and both synthetic. Both dark beings and light beings gathered in this play, in agreements and disagreements with the common goal of finding a Home both within and outside.
While procreation is a natural act from all species, some of the procreation forms are derivative of genetic experimentation. Whether you have been taught that these experiments carried out positive or negative intentions, overall, they brought to a Cosmic human template the idea to blend all lived Cosmic experiences in a single super soul and a single super body.
Through this body, your body, the evolution of Cosmos would be replayed, with all and its apparently never ending dramas. Your DNA has a huge story of valor to tell. Stories of survival, of love, of loss, of despair, and realization. The ultimate realization is the recognition of your own light, your own journey, your own soul vibration.
However, a rewiring of your DNA is needed before you can really see yourself for who you are. If someone decides that it is a good idea, to hold on to the past, and to that which he or she is not, then the light of the soul cannot flourish.
Many have been the arguments as to why the starseed carries the DNA of another, or why the DNA has this something, like a handle, that can be taken over by another spirit. From the mere grotesque idea that an evil monster wants your soul and your body, to the idea that a brilliant master implanted his essence so that you could learn. Or maybe it was just a mere accident or defect in the design of the Matrix. Perhaps there is truth in some of these stories, in each one of them.
Either way, in every soul fragment of another, in every photonic emission of their DNA, attached to your own, there is history. The history of species trying to blend, to coexist with each other, and to find a way to now live in peace within the DNA and psyche of the human template.
If you were to look carefully at your DNA in etheric form, perhaps you will see a spirit, coming out of your inner vastness, and sometimes in a scary way, you would see part of the spirit of a god or a goddess embedded in your codes. No wonder then, why in romantic new age literature, you read that you are one with the ancients and they live in you all. Ehem, well, they do, somehow!
It was by the perfect design of procreation of the most ancient ones and their ideals to blend species that this project came to be. Part of their reasoning was to configure a body to assist in the healing of all of these ancestral species. Maybe one day they would all get it right.
Then you have this more complex situation, hardly fully understood, that not only if you rip off the soul of another by the means of harm, whether it is just a mere argument or a moment of separation that leaves you with the piece of your beloved, attached to your soul, to the most catastrophic of wars, but also by the means of sexual merging.
When you merge sexually with another, there is a soul exchange of essence. Within that essence is the information of another. Hence the tantric teachings that show how to create healthy circular flows of energy, in order to avoid harmful exchanges that can leave people drained, even unintentionally, from much of their soul essence. Unavoidably, if in ancient civilizations people were taught that healing was to be done by sexual means through a series of practices, then attachments were created, especially within ancient temples where such practices were common.
Your DNA is the gate to the spirit world. It is within your DNA that you hold the keys to what you attract to your existence. But sometimes much of what you know is hidden from your inner senses. As you receive more of your Cosmic essence from the stars, through the solar emissions and other forms of radiation, your DNA becomes more and more complete, but also, Earth is bombarded more and more with the essence of other Cosmic beings who are coming for the final resolution.
How will you cope with those hidden DNA strands that you cannot accept within yourself? Not all is of human origin, and not all is of a lighter realm. What you cannot accept comes in the form of that which is archetypally unappealing. It is that which you are being fed to reject, to suppress and to deny. It can come in any form. It could be a reptile, or a vampyr, or a huge insect or as a dark human being. It is what you have been known for so long as your shadow self. But the shadow self is a complex set of DNA codes that need to be activated within yourself. Only with the acceptance of these strands in etheric form, will your physical form take a new healthy shape full of radiance and love. Once they become active, that which does not belong to your DNA, to your soul, to your body, and to all your energetic layers, is forced to leave, including those soul shards of ancient masters you either admired or you despised. Will you dare to become more of yourself? In any form?
The most difficult aspect of possession at the DNA level is the changes that, throughout our lives, we can experiment in the form of radical ideas, dramatic swings in personality and even physical changes that reflect a certain incompatibility with our original template.
This is not the case for everyone at the most evident level of possession. It is mostly through the first three waves of awakening souls that this phenomenon takes place, with a certain degree of impact in future generations. Most people are not aware of how much they are affected by the physical and etheric DNA of other beings, and by that I do not refer to the common genes that we carry from our parents, our grandparents and other ancestors.
By this I mean possession by beings that are either recognized for having fulfilled a collective mission physically and non-physically, and whose collective contracts with humanity are still playing out, in one way or another.
Between the last three or four decades and the first glimpses of the new coming decade, how many thousands of people have not claimed, at least once in their lives, that they are the incarnation of a very famous being? Do they believe in this notion blindly?
What goes through the minds and hearts of these individuals holding on to this ideal of being a famous ancient master, archangel, queen, king, etc.? Many things for sure, especially confusion.
Of the so many cases that I saw between the years 2009 and this year, of mild or severe possession, none of these people were fully aware of the level of possession taking place. Many even claimed to hold vivid memories of the master beings they feel at their core they are or have been, or simply, a feeling makes them believe. Even in QHHT sessions, some these memories can be uncovered unavoidably. For this reason, not even the apparently most precise forms of conscious or subconscious regression are exempt from this phenomenon.
All cases had in common something that I noticed almost right away: none of these people had the soul vibration of the true master they claimed or claim to be. Yet, in severe cases, they did hold the soul vibration of the being possessing them at core level along with their real vibration. There was something mismatching in all cases. Only very few particular cases were too severe as to identify the real soul vibration of a master being embodied in these people, and incurring in a cognitive dissonance for a while.
Up to this day, some of these people claim to be one or more of the relevant masters who hold in their original templates large amounts of collective karmas with the people of Earth. For several reasons, the soul shard of the original masters is not released from the layers of the individual they affect with their physical or etheric DNA. Such connection can last a whole lifetime, without the individual even realizing what they are carrying at all levels of their being.
One of the biggest reasons why such phenomenon of possession takes place with such intensity and recurrence is the lack of self-love that exists in the one who is possessed. This is not a lack that should be judged in any way, even if some of these cases seem to be an extreme form of narcissism. However, there are other more complex reasons, behind that apparent or evident lack of self-love. Through severe soul fragmentation, certain beings come to us and temporarily or permanently intend to leave within us part of their soul. This is not always caused by an ill-intention from the being who wanders astrally. In fact, some higher purposes exist, and if these purposes could be understood at the core, a whole enigma and series of Cosmic problems from the long forgotten past could be solved and healed permanently at individual and collective levels.
The deeper causes of recurrent possession and false identity disorder are explored in the coming sections of this long essay….