More than 10 years ago I met Maryann Rada through her work. One of the things that I felt a deep resonance towards was the opalescent energy and the connection to the Pleiadians. This blueprint was very different to what I was learning about the Pleiadian people back then. The energy felt somehow powerful and embracing more than the already established energy of the people of the Pleiades, as portrayed by many.
Her work was a stepping stone for my awakening to begin, while I connected to other people who were also connected to the Pleiades. Since then, this energy is ever present in my life and my soul. I recently went through a lengthier period of disconnection from what transpires out there, in order to focus on a new beginning. On this first day of 2020, I am called again to write down this new awakening.
Two or three years later after I discovered “Opalescence” and other transmissions by the Pleiadian Renegades, I read a series of books from authors Dr. Beatrix Czeizel and Anikó Greskó named Stellar Nations in which they mention the importance of opals within a Galactic society in the Andromedan constellation. Back then, I wondered if both Pleiadian and Andromedan realities were dissociated, as I had the impression that opals carried an essence that belonged to both, somehow. Both authors also carry strong beautiful Pleiadian-Angelic codes.
As the new year starts, I wake up to deeper and more vivid levels of remembrance of our Cosmic origins, triggered since last year by the strong presence of many beings, especially a beautiful Angelic-Pleiadian woman in spirit form. She woke me up embracing me with her fire and love and reminding me of a lost connection we had as priestess and gatekeepers. She brought forth a beautiful vision of herself giving to me a large opal in the form of an egg. It was a gift she gave to me when we lived in Temmer, one of the planets rotating in the vicinity of Taygeta. This morning, another close soul sister in spirit form enfolded another story associated to opals and their importance as gifts and technologies.
I found myself accompanied by her presence in an Andromedan planet, darker than many others and very acquatic in nature. We were humanoid-looking with beautiful and colorful glittery amphibian skins, similar to metal and large round eyes. This realm is physical, not fluid. I can see the details vividly like in movies. We are talking on a beach, enjoying this paradise in purple, blue and yellowish tones for the most part. The mountain ranges can be seen at a distance in dark purple-bluish tones. At night, the beach becomes illuminated by the luminous life forms, and our skins also produce this kind of luminosity.
I give to my friend and sister a large opal and she hugs it and covers it with her gown. It strucks me that even before the people of the Pleiades migrated from Lyra, in other incarnations they had already touched these enigmatic Andromedan lands whose mountains and caves were rich in dark opals.
The first woman who appeared as an old Pleiadian friend in Temmer carrying the opal egg showed to me that she had incarnated before as an angel serving a sacred purpose in some other distant planet in a yet to be recalled star system. She was carrying a most typical white robe, which later on was adopted in the form of fine Pleiadian dresses in Taygeta and other home worlds within this star system and two pairs of bird-like wings. Pleiadian females had kept their angelic codes untouched and would express them in the form of Divine Feminine traditions wearing those beautiful dresses but no longer carrying their Avian wings.
In this angelic vision, my friend showed to me another opal. This one was angelic in nature like herself, milky with subtle colorful rainbow tones. I understood that even in many Angelic paradigms before the Lyran wars took place, opals were kept and given as sacred symbols of love and friendship, reminding each other of the natures of our multicolored souls and our connections within the Cosmic tapestry, which resembles a huge colorful opal.
Opals have existed perhaps everywhere, and their colors represent the realms where they came from. For example, there was an orange and light green variety coming from positive reptilian beings in Orion, which reminds us of how grounded they are and how connected they are to the soil and nature, unlike the soft opals from the Angelic beings which reminds us of the spiritual sacred missions in the skies. The purple-blueish ones remind us of our Andromedan connection and the watery realms. Red-orange opals are associated to the fire worlds like the ones where the red devilish people came from.
If we connect to the energies of opals, we will find pieces of Cosmic remembrance mirrored in our souls. Most important is their meanings and their codes. Within the Pleiades, opals from many sectors of the Galaxy were traded and kept and now we have all Cosmic varieties on Earth as gifts of remembrance of our past.
The awakened individual is highly sensitive and empathic towards the immediate surroundings. The presence of other people around them might overwhelm them. But what if this form of sensitivity is not just a mere condition of the aura of the awakened and instead, the core reason is deeper than what is thought to be?
I am myself highly sensitive to my surroundings and to be around the presence of certain people can become an unbearable task that demands real strength. What is frustrating is that these people seem to be totally unaware of the discomfort “they” provoke or the type of connection that presents in front of their eyes. They appear cold as stone, unaware, or joyful of their linear lives.
Linear. That is the clue. That is how life happens for them, at least most of the time. If they struggle, their view of it is just a simple incidence of life and life just happens as a straight path, sometimes ambitious, sometimes comfortable. Meanwhile, we cringe, we writhe, we struggle, and think to ourselves that this is just a bad Cosmic joke and that this place is simply awful for our “aura” or our “highly sensitive” nature.
Yes, sometimes this is the truth. Sometimes the environment is simply too dense and we capture the electromagnetic emanations of echos of experiences and polarized collective struggle. But this is not as often the case as we might think.
The deeper reality of an apparently awakened individual can be the opposite of what might be thought of, especially if you have been indoctrinated over the years to think you are really the victim of a dense planetary reality and your purity cannot withstand the badness outside. If you use an astrological reference in the form of a natal chart, and discover that you have a few planets in retrograde, I have not so good news for you, dear reader.
You might be dealing with a difficult mission to deal with lifetimes of karmic experiences that are echoing in your aura and within the core of your DNA becoming constantly activated as you experience life in the measurement of your capabilities.
To me this is the sober reality of life. I am fully aware that I came in life with many planets in retrograde when I was born, and not only that. The Galactic Center shows as “retrograde” in my chart, which is not literally a fact, but what this means is that I came here to deal with as much karmic debts as possible in as many timelines as possible in one single lifetime. This situation has left me shattered over and over and over again while interacting with people and even in my long stages of solitude.
During these past weeks, the process of healing and integration have intensified to such an extent that, as soon as the weekend comes, I am left postrated on bed for hours, weeping uncontrollably and sick at my core after a week of physical interaction with ancestral connections that were, eons ago, a huge cause of my demise in countless past lives. It is impossible not to end up confused every time interactions go well, yet, the energies open up chapters of horror within my consciousness. We greet each other, work together in controlled doses. Sometimes circumstances will prevent at all costs interaction when the situation could magnify the discomforts, and who knows what could start happening.
Even worse, one time, one of my colleagues asked younger ones if they believed in past lives. Some were silent, and a young lady said no. The one who asked that first question asked if they had never felt somethimg towards certain places, as if they could remember something. Again, the lady said no, that she did not feel anything.
It really struck me that people who very likely have natal charts with less planets in retrograde are totally unaware of past lives, of spiritual realms, of so many things that the awakened individual is aware of. Not only that, those people do not feel anything being around others, unlike people with planets in retrograde. Their lives go easy. Meanwhile, I am left with horror just by being around them. I dream of them and recall ancient dramas and their energies feel like poison. Other times I feel a positive connection, and they are unaware.
After weeks of assimilating this aspect of reality, more and more answers come to me and I understand a bigger puzzle. I wonder now how many people who have been struggling with hypersensitivity have brought to themselves so much karma to be dealt with in the best way possible as to give permanent closure to ancient dramas.
It makes more sense as to why people with retrogrades in their natal charts are the ones who more easily recall ancestral realities either here on Earth or outside, in one way or another. Plus the fact that interaction with other people overwhelms them because they are more consciously processing karmic ties to the collective of Earth and to certain groups or individuals. So this is really not about being merely “sensitive” or “empathic” but there is a lot more than meets the eye.
Reflect on this and maybe it will make sense to you. If you do happen to have planets in retrograde, are you aware of what your own soul demands from you in relationship to Earth and her people?
The Exploration of Separation and Disconnection from Unity
Within the minds of a group of ultracosmic beings, curiosity was not lacking. They were naturally space explorers and scientists. Not everything was known to them, yet their advanced knowledge about the workings of Cosmos was both intuitive and logical.
Evil was lacking in the hearts and minds of these beings,
only growing awareness of experience. Communication was everlasting, base don
heart to heart and mind to mind connection. If imbalances presented themselves
in the life of these beings, eventually the natural progression of Cosmic life
would bring forth new equilibriums.
That is how natural evolution of species always was and is
always meant to be. However, once a new unknown form of perturbation is
created, results can be predicted and somehow foreseen in the minds of the
advanced people, but trial and error is always existent where there is no
complete information or knowing of consequences.
In the mind of an ancestral scientist, ideas abounded to
boost new levels of growth and exploration. One particular idea involved the
disconnection of the heart to heart and mind to mind streams of energetic flow
that would perpetuate natural unity and empathy among beings.
The original idea was simply to explore contrasts, among a
line of ideas that would aim to catalyze growth for other less evolved groups
of beings, initiating the programs within the evolved group. Some of these
fundamentals have been explained over time by several authors, be it in the
form of channeled material or narrated directly from their own experiences.
Within the group, several agreements were made, including
one that involved the reversal of the disconnection and separation programs. To
the misfortune of the Cosmic players, including those groups affected directly
and indirectly, the resolution of such distortion never came to be fully
Instead, an eternity of incarnations were created, as if all
souls involved became stuck in time loops and oblivion. The love was forgotten
over time and wars erupted from the soul fragmentation and forgetfulness that
Background on ecological and
In simple traditional ecology and thermodynamics theory, a
closed system would tend to generate the same amount of energy that is
introduced as input. Thus, energy behaves linearly and is not created nor
However, within an open system that is conformed of several
subsystems within a large ecosystem, subject to be studied, the energy
generated surpasses in much the energy received as input. The system is said to
be efficient in its production of energy, as the interaction of all components
generate greater amounts of energy and a balance is present. This does not mean
that predatory behavior is inexistent but simply that all exists within the
larger system in a state of balance, and all parts of the system and subsystems
can coexist and evolve in such a way that the interconnections are strong.
These open systems will work on reducing entropy within the
community and reject any form of outer entropy, or simply to repair entropy by
removing that which is perturbating the efficient production of energy.
If the conditions within the larger ecosystem are such that
the connections between elements have weakened the energetic flows and there is
entrophy then, the incorporation of a different species will perturbate the
system and weaken it even further. This can lead to greater imbalances and
disaster for several of the species inhabiting the ecosystem.
The polarity integration failures and lessons
With the previous theories in mind, now we can examine the
practical circumstances that lead to failed experiments and incomplete lessons
in our Cosmic past and the time loops that lead to reincarnation and
If soul families decided to split up, in order to experience
previously unexplored paths, the breaking down of a previous order will lead to
different results, probably not when expected if such conditions were
previously not explored.
This was often the case when souls decided to consciously
separate from their loved ones and choose to represent either the “light” or
the “dark” factions. Some of the goals of such agreements would be to transcend
the differences, to understand the fundamentals of what love is and what love
is not and create the reconnective links.
The real problem with such journeys was that the levels of
soul fragmentation experienced along the way became so great that even at soul
level, the loss of information increased.
The soul records of the people who participated in such
projects began shattering to the extent in which only in non-physical could
some of this information be retrieved once again and a certain level of
consciousnessof love could be recovered.
This was no longer the case in physical. As more and more
souls began fragmenting further, it became imposible for many of the lessons
and agreements to come to completion, leaving a trail of fragmented lifetimes
and soul essence scattered across the explored sides of Cosmos.
Thus the reincarnation problem began, and the creation of
space/time and time/space constrictions accentuated. The lifespans of beings
decreased and hierarchies at all levels became darker. Predatory behavior
became brutal in countless of Cosmic paradigms as a result of lack of
remembrance and individual fragmentation, leading to darker cycles.
Not all was lost though. From each incarnation, each experience, much was gained about love, lack of love, healing, and different sets of values like forgiveness, acceptance, compassion, honor, dignity, integrity, etc.
Even so, the conditions were not fully met as to give
closure to the reincarnation cycles in countless star systems. It was decreed
by the ultracosmic beings that on Earth this seemingly endless cycle would end,
at least gradually enough.
Application of the ecology and themodynamics theory to Cosmic cases
Imagine a scenario in which
a group that has reached a point of stability is now efficient enough to
perpetuate a relative peace with Little enthropy. The community in itself is a
Now imagine that the stability, relative peace and sets of
values define the community as being a lighthearted space for growth and
interaction. Sometimes these communities were labeled as communities of light
(whether they really practiced their ideal or their definition still allowed
for some forms of predatory behavior). Remember that, in ecology and
thermodynamics of open systems combined, predatory behavior can exist.
The enjoyed and perceived stability and efficiency in the
production of energy through interactions will create strong bonds and the
desire and perceived need to perpetuate such condition.
When there are physical and non-physical agreements between
soul groups and families to create a new paradigm based on polarity integration
attempts, the incorporation of a set of elements, species or group of species
will lead to at least two posible results: the succesful integration to the community, leading to a peaceful enough
outcome, or failure and disaster.
Naturally these scenarios apply to the core physical reality
of soul fragmentation without remembrance of the love bond that exist between
When a dark species or dark elements bring entrophy, if the
light-hearted community attempts to incorporate the dark elements through
healing means and love, eventually the experiment will prove to fail for
several reasons. One reason is that the light hearted community has gained
enough strength to perpetuate relative peace, without fully resolving the
previous entrophic interactions of other timelines, leaving hidden scars that
exist in non-physical in the realms of antimatter, dark matter and dark energy.
In this case, ecological and thermodynamic theories must be complemented with
the metaphysical notions of the invisible dynamics of space/time and time/space
The other reason being that the light hearted community does
not have the complete tools or understanding to uncover the whole reality
previously experienced by the dark elements. The community might give enough
love or not enough incentive exists to do an extra effort to heal the dark elements,
but the depth of the scars of the dark elements will only bring further
entropy, consuming the energy of the community.
The end result will be the expulsion (could also be
imprisonment) or the gradual death of the incorporated species within the open
ecosystem. This scenario took place in several timelines in countless of star
systems, leaving the paradigms unconcluded and soul groups separated.
Since the light-hearted community is strong to create
relative peace, yet not strong enough to be left undisturbed by the
incorporation of dark elements, then the arrival and incorporation of these
elements will perturbate the ecosystem even further, weakening all of its
This is another scenario that took place in places like
Earth where migratory issues tend to increase and the blending of different
cultures and even starseed paradigms bring deterioration or difficulties for
the polaried paradigms to be completed physically.
Simple is the mentioning of the following examples, yet
complex was the reality lived and the fact that these paradigms still affect
-The ancestral angelic and demonic paradigms in planetary
hells and heavens physically (these species were usually genetic blends of
avian, feline, vampyr, naga, pan-goat and dragon species).
-The Lyran-Draco interactions leading to
-The Galactic Federation of Worlds and the failure of the
Ashtar Command destroying Maldek.
-The difficulties and failures of the Christ community.
Within these paradigms, soul groups were separated into the
sociopolitical groups and by genetic and environmental differences, leading to
deep collective traumas, still not fully understood or resolved.
The incorporation of Self Love and Self Compassion for ultimate resolution
If a collective effort to help dark species and individuals
heal from the conscious or unconscious decision to become extremely fragmented
over countless of timelines proved to fail, what else could work?
In some timelines, sucessful projects were completed in
which the adoption of traumatized souls born from difficult species could be
raised with love since birth. However, these paradigms would have failed if all
elements of the soul groups would have been incorporated, leading only to
Other paths were explored in which tools for self inner
exploration were developed and applied by millions of soul from across the
explored side of Cosmos. These programs included specialized training for
Avatarian programs designed by the same group or groups that initiated the
explorations of separation and contrast.
These programs yielded succesful results when the masters
were induced to spend as much time alone as posible, while receiving some
degree of guidance from non-physical aspects of their own souls or from their
soul families. Other forms of guidance included the counseling from members of
However, not always could these programs yeild the desired
results when much of what was integrated and healed was meant to be applied
while interacting with the members who carried the darker codes.
The masters decided around the time of the Harmonic
Convergence not to incarnate together anymore and to remain astrally available
to humanity in order to complete a series of protocols for the Cosmic
The path of the starseed would bring about several dark
nights of the soul for as many individuals as posible in order to create the
necessary restrictions for the programs of forced understanding of self love
and self compassion. This program would create enough pressure as to deal with
the individual entropy created from the previous Cosmic wars and separations.
Many of these individuals have found themselves restricted
and separated from several members of their soul families for the reasons
mentioned above. It is a lonely path and one full of challenges, but one that
has lead to better results as opposed to forced collective interactions that
would weaken the communities intended to become integrated and healed.
Another important aspect of these resolution stages is the fact that in order to give closure to the ancient contracts, instead of gathering physically, many souls have gathered in the astral planes. While a starseed experiences conventional life lessons, there is conscious interaction with other beings in the non-physical planes, where dimensions converge and limitations of space/time and time/space are being lifted. Some of these lessons are not easy, but they are designed in such a way that resolution is now possible.
On the other hand, aspects of soul family or soul group members accompany the incarnated individual throughout the journey of transformation in non-physical form. Communication is established in different ways.
Once a level of self love and self compassion is achieved,
then the aura and DNA become repaired enough to hold as much love and light as
necessary to bring about resolution of these paradigms in physical. While
collective interaction with other soul family members will become more tangible
in the future, the strenghthening of communities will not be based on the
interaction and the bonds themselves, but the capacity of individuals to show
resilience and inner strength from the assimilation of self love and self
The story of the ancient explorers and the female Logos
Long before the arrival of the Nibiruans, ancient explorers came to Earth to establish their colonies and nations. Some of them resembled hybrids with reptilian and avian traits. Many were the missions of these groups, from mere observers to bringers of structures and institutions and terraforming projects.
Among the ancients who arrived, a young woman was assigned the role of female planetary Logos for the governance and management of Earth. She was well known for her skills in such matters, so the great council knew that their decision was sound. Back then, many of the ancient goddesses were still known as great mothers or Great Mother, with a political and community-based connotation. Goddesses were assigned the roles of being teachers and caretakers of their own communities and for whomever wanted to learn from them and who were assigned to them.
Gaia was the name of such Great Mother and the new female planetary Logos of Earth. After she fulfilled her role, others followed, and others had already come to implement governance on Earth, such as Lord Jehovah. None of these ancients resembled the modern human template. They were all humanoid, but their appearance was not always as human looking as we might think. Some of them were closer to reptilians, avians, felines, vampires or pan people for the most part.
Originally, Gaia came from a lineage of reptilian-avian hybrids. However, as humanity blended more and more and the genetic combinations gave birth to the current Cosmic human template, in subsequent incarnations, these gods and goddesses participated in important projects in civilizations like Ancient Greece, where Gaia was once again present.
The spiritual and physical nature of Earth
Civilizations were birthed, and then fell apart. Throughout this process, the name of Gaia was replaced for Earth, as a more formal means to label the planetary sphere that would hold one of the greatest biodiversity projects of Cosmos.
When some people mention that Gaia is the soul of Earth, this statement is only partially correct. Gaia does happen to hold a very large mass of etheric soul essence. Her soul travels through the astral realms of Earth and has access to any node through portals. She still has a relevant role in the Cosmic matters on Earth and matters pertaining to Earth itself. One of her ancient functions is to preserve the environmental integrity of Earth and the sound management of resources.
As for the rest of what Earth is made up of as a soul, the planetary sphere holds billions of individual entities. Each one of us as Cosmic human beings are part of the great soul of Earth, and as such has the responsibility to be the caretakers of the planetary sphere. However, we still live in times of oblivion, and a large portion of humanity is unaware of how interconnected life on Earth is, and how every decision affects the whole.
Even within some awakened communities, there is still a degree of unawareness of our power to affect the resources of Earth through our decisions and our vibration. It is mostly through the disharmony in our soul record that we can perpetuate imbalances on Earth, aside from our physical responsibilities. Meanwhile, thousands of awakened souls have been handling the balance of Earth for a long time, and more people are becoming increasingly aware of the current imbalances taking place. When we use our inner resources to connect to the spiritual nature of Earth, we can restore the planetary balance. This process is further explained in the article Harmonizing the collective energies of Earth during times of distress.
During our modern times, the first man to propose openly that Earth is a system of interconnected components and a living entity as a whole was James Lovelock. He formulated the Gaia Hypothesis:
The Gaia Hypothesis was named after Goddess Gaia, the ancient planetary Logos.
Our Cosmic Earth abounds with spiritual beings from different star systems and even galaxies. Many of these beings carry within themselves the ancestral codes of the ancient times when people in physical knew how to work consciously with the elements and do miracles. That capacity has been mostly lost. For such reason, spiritual beings still assist humanity and the planet as a whole with their own power to move the elements from their current residence in the higher planes of Earth. Gaia is one prominent soul, among the vastness of souls who once held in their hands the fate of the planet in physical.
Entangled we are all, in one way or another in our hearts and in our souls. Our inner world is very complex and more is the world of ideas. There are too many downsides to our new age of awakening. There is a good reason why some people say that the Age of Aquarius is the age of deception. Not all is deception of course, but information might not always be what it seems.
This year I am faced with another set of lessons, related to my personal position in this vast incomprehensible Cosmos. I retrieved very vivid memories of what felt like heavenly moments with certain individuals that I have never met, but who seemed to have been relevant to my soul journey. Other encounters were far from sweet. In many ways, what once was, is no more, but maybe at a level many of these connections will always stay in my heart and my soul. Even the conflicting ones are being transformed at the most human of levels, with love. But life on Earth sometimes demands that we move along in a very different direction to what once was a heaven of sorts, if it really was, and to leave behind all forms of ancestral hells.
So is the same for all starseeds. Every individual who explores their inner world might come across surprising facts about their origins and those they crossed paths with, for one reason or another. However, when there is an evident lack of self love, many of these intriguing facts might be magnified, distorted, and misunderstood, as if they could provide a new layer of ideas and definitions. This is a personal observation from too many explicit testimonials seen over the years in the vastness of sites and social media and some of my own detours.
We step a little further away from who we are, with each new layer of information and distortions, when we do not deal with these facts with a more objective perspective. A most typical case is a form of interaction in some other timeline with a certain famous personality. We only get to see a tip of the iceberg of who these people were or are, and what we truly are at all levels. But the idea, of maybe having been coated with the mantle of power and authority of someone else, sounds appealing to our bruised wounded self who is unacknowledged by ourselves and by others in several timelines. Evolution is, with all the honesty of my heart, brutal, with all and its natural laws and the synthetic paradigms.
The worst part might be that some of these interactions could have proven to be painful at some point, but such information is so out of reach. It is there, but our hearts and our minds are disconnected, so we prefer to stick to the eternal idea that we ourselves are that which we are not, or that we are important enough as to hold a form of power over another master being. Even worse, maybe we will spend the rest of our lives eternally worshiping the will of another and wanting to be in their image and likeness, sacrificing our own will and true joy.
If someone of authority tells you in the Now, “leave behind your ideals, and come to my temple and adore me…” very likely you will decline the offer and think to yourself that such person is nothing more than a narcissist. Yet, subconsciously, very likely we still hold on to that ancient program from a distant past, because we were like kids, and some patriarch or a matriarch told us that we had to follow their will for an eternity.
If someone tells you, “life is too crushing, so come to my temple and receive emotional and sexual healing…” very likely you will decline because you hold on to that which you love and you are not into the idea of sharing yourself to a stranger. Yet maybe, you were part of the masses who blindly believed that healing had to be this way, so you still carry attachments.
If someone tells you, “my nation must be perfected, and you are part of my nation, thus you must sacrifice yourself for it…” maybe you find the idea more appealing, or maybe not. It was not different from the past, and part of you is still looking for a home, built from an ideal of perfection.
And on and on it goes, the contamination at DNA level of what transpired in the past in the form of suppressive goals and idyllic paradigms that proved to fail many times. And the soul shards of another are still around you. So there you are, wanting to be adored by your masters, as much as you want to adore them. One thing is mutual respect, understanding and friendship. Another very different is oppressive ideals and relationships and codependency based on lack of self love.
Release your favorite masters and your tormentors with loving detachment. Release the idea of utopian realms and perfect societies. For a moment, forget that the world is shaped from the minds of the ancients and explore the jewels of your own creative potential.
Will you dare to change your programming a little further and love yourself just a little more and see yourself for your authenticity?
It is not easy, but yielding to the light of your own God-self, proves to be more appealing than any golden paradigm that might collapse, when there is a brick missing at the base of its structure.
By the end of 2018, I had a nightly visitation by two soulmates. I was fully anchored here, and wide awake. It was not possible for me to see them, but they moved my body to let me know they were there by my side and I heard them speak. The loving touch on my hands was so palpable, almost physical. I could really feel their hands touching my hands and holding me by the shoulders and arms and showing to me how they came from portals that were wide open in my room.
The love and respect that I sensed in our connection was amazing and soothing. In past lives, we had contracts that were difficult. However, I had known that they had incarnated aspects on Earth, so I was puzzled. I thought that night that maybe the information I was given about their presence on Earth physically was outdated or coming perhaps from past lives. I felt sad somehow, to know that they were fully disembodied, but at the same time I thought to myself that then maybe contact with them would be easier this way.
One of the elements of contact that stood out to me was that when I closed my eyes, I did get to see, somehow, that in their plasmatic form they could take any shape. In the case of the male, he could take the shape of a reptilian being, but also human, while in the case of the lady what I could see the most was a powerful Atlantean form.
They told me to relax and to try to fall asleep as a huge healing would take place. I got to feel immense waves of heat and tingles as if my whole lightbody was burning. The next day they were gone and I was left with some diagrams about their presence that they drew as they held my hand that night. I got a new clarity and understood that it was not wrong, my knowing that they do exist here in the Now, physically incarnated on Earth. However, it all started when I decided to use a fetish, in the form of a small stuffed dragon, as an offering to the female soulmate. She took the offering gladly, and filled it with her essence, in such a way that she opened a portal, connecting part of her essence in the fetish to much of her soul energy residing in higher realms or densities and to my lightbody.
Zero point and our multiple aspects
Have you ever watched the movie Interstellar? These kinds of experiences like the one I had that night are very similar to the hypothetical situation presented in the movie. What this nightly experience proved even further about the understanding of the great shift and reaching zero point, is that our aspects coming from other timelines and spacelines are definitely incarnating through us as we merge further with them. We give closure to the wounds of those timelines and spacelines. My two soulmates came from those densities to me, where they are still individual souls, in order for the healing to take place, and then, when they left, they reached out to their currently incarnated forms to merge in their lightbodies.
Here is exactly what we need to understand about reaching zero point both from a metaphysical and psychological combined perspective:
Zero point is the full awareness of the Now, where the past and the future do not interfere in our consciousness, except when consciously we remember the past and base our future dreams on what so far we have built in uncountable lifetimes and what we want to explore as something new. Our consciousness does not fluctuate anymore without control between subconscious memories and realities. We are fully integrated and healed and our mind is silent and fully present in the Now moment, while our intuitive side is balanced.
In every lifetime, you create a copy of yourself with certain variations in the form of a soul. Every copy of yourself undergoes a level of soul fragmentation/wounding. These soul shards affect you from lifetime to lifetime, creating the perceptions of spiraling time and linear time in physical and non-physical realms. Unconsciously, you are tapping into the experiences of your aspects or copies and you cannot ground yourself in the Now moment. You bounce back and forth from the past to the present to the potential future. Your mind races and your emotions fluctuate too much, even without physical catalysts. Or experiences trigger these aspects to influence you.
The more you merge with your past lives/potential futures or selves, the more your consciousness can become grounded in the Now and is not affected by the past wounding and separation. You have control of your mind and your heart. You embody all of your selves from all timelines and spacelines in this present moment.
Disappointment. Distraction. These two factors could block us from progressing further in our path towards finding ourselves, not just as precious jewels of Creation embodied in a human body, but as souls born directly from the essence of Source itself. You feel that there is no point anymore in thinking about having big dreams in your mind. Just think about how many things you do each day, that prevent you from spending time with yourself in silence. Yes you could say…but I have many responsibilities to attend to. So much to do in such little time. What about a few minutes before going to sleep? Or during the weekend? Are you 100% sure you do not have time?
Third key: The state of timelessness of the mind and zero point
Over the last years we have been reading and hearing that in order to ascend we need to reach zero point and step out of time. I suspect though, that so far, there has not been a clear recipe provided for such colossal mission. Do you have any idea how to step out of time?
It is not an easy task. That is for sure. Yet stepping out of time is a natural step towards becoming one with our Higher Mind and Higher Heart. We can help ourselves reach that beautiful godly state of peace and potential for the highest harmonious manifestation possibilities.
Time is not something that can be overcome just by switching from one modern calendar to an ancient one. It is a bit more complex than what we have been told. Meanwhile, we naturally approach such state of anchoring our consciousness in zero point as we become whole and we step out of suffering.
Going back to the previous parts of this essay, in summary, we must have in mind that these are the things that we need to let go:
Expectations on how things should be in our lives, in the lives of others, and the world in general, simply because we do not hold the greatest picture. Our information available is limited.
Expectations on when certain occurrences or situations should happen. This one is very much linked to the first point.
Any ideas we hold related to scarcity. If we focus for the most part in all the things that we wish we had, and all the things that we think we need but that we do not have, or the things that others should have, then we need to evaluate very deeply from where these scarcity perceptions come from in our subconscious.
Expectations on how others should behave. This one is often times a huge source of disappointment.
Our suppressed emotions.
All things that we think are threatening to us and to others. In other words, sometimes we need to surrender, and to understand that we are not always meant to fight huge fights, or even some smaller fights lead nowhere but to more cycles of suffering. Sometimes we need to let go the control, and to stop resisting the things that we perceive as dark. Fighting against what we think is dark might lead to further polarization and further disconnection from our Higher Mind and Higher Heart which perceives things as unified and who understands the greater picture.
The painful past. We cannot change the past, but we can accept what happened to us and to others. By understanding new depths of the past, we can heal what once seemed impossible to forgive.
The factors mentioned above contribute greatly in the creation of time in our consciousness. However, as we already know from the second key, these perceptions have their origin in suffering across many timelines of experience, including our current lives.
First sub key: understanding how the perception of time is created
The clock is ticking, and you feel that you might die, or maybe you are just wasting your life, or simply, you do not have enough time to do all the things that you want to do. You say that you wish that you could turn back in time to fix that problem that nags you, right?
Let us go back to the rumor-fact that when we ascend to a new density, with a new dimension of consciousness, that we will live in a state of timelessness or zero point. Before that, we simply feel that time is not enough, something is being lost…lost…lost…lost…lost.
That is how time was created in our minds, since the very first moment in some incarnation, a very long time ago, when we felt for the very first time that we lost something. Maybe even since the moment we are born, we come out of the cozy womb, and feel for the first time a certain coldness. That security we once had, is now lost. With this feeling came the first notion of time. Part of your consciousness left your being and got stuck in a lapse, when that something precious to you was lost.
So there you go, you now have an awareness from one point, to another, the point of the loss, to the point in which you live. Then, you lost more, and more, and more, and more. And now, you drive yourself nuts with all your loses at subconscious level, feeling as you vibrate higher, that you have less time to repair, what you lost. You are afraid that you will never have enough time to recover what you lost, a very long time ago. Something or someone, took that love away from your heart and your subconscious is stuck in a line of experiences or points, that you call linear time.
The more you heal then, the more you bring back your pieces, the less concerned you are about time, and you just flow with the flow. Yes the planets keep spinning, the Sun goes down, the moon goes up and so on…but you live in a less linear way, and you are more allowing, and you have more patience and you can wait for an eternity, because you are actually waiting less, and living more in the now, in the state of timelessness or zero point.
You even realize at some point, that the thing that you were waiting for, might have become somehow flawed once again if you had ventured in a humongous mission of looking for that thing that would make you happy. You had to find what was blocking you subconsciously and now that you see it with new lens, you prefer to slow down and start perceiving things differently and start doing things differently.
Remember then, always, that time begins since the first moment you feel something was lost.
Second sub key: training yourself to reach zero point
You get back home from having a stressful time with your boss or with some family member and maybe one of the first things you do is to turn on your computer or look in your phone and you start feeling bad because of the latest news on how the natural resources of Earth are being destroyed, the latest news on what some authorities did to perpetuate a war, or how there is an archon right beside you to take your potential peace away. So you rant and say to yourself that there is no hope for a better future.
You feel trapped, enslaved, imprisoned, out of place, burdened. You feel that inner child crying, because this world is not a safe place for you.
When you realize how much a great part of you cries and demands your attention, you seek the tools that you need. But often times you become distracted with what sounds promising and then you have to switch to other tools. Remember that you must listen to the depths of your broken heart. Know that you can do this, and only you can do it better for yourself than anyone else.
Disconnect now, from the outer world. Take a seat, and rest for a moment. Think for a few minutes how much time you spend thinking everyday about what burdens you. You see the minutes passing by. Think about all the things that bother you right now. The clock keeps ticking. Perhaps it is a lot? Maybe no longer as much of a burden as it was years ago? Maybe worse? Now start feeling the emotions.
Notice how many of the things that burden us and that we wish we could control and change create energy leaks in our system. Perhaps the problem even comes from giving energy to others who are not open to receiving our energy, so we leak and leak and leak.
Other times we are so blocked to receiving love that no matter how much love we are given, we simply do not feel it. We need to restructure our whole system and understand where the imbalances come from subconsciously. How can we do that then if we think that we do not have time? Maybe it is time to sacrifice some activities and the way we try to love others in our perception and start attending more to our own needs for a while.
Learn to deal the best way you can with your emotions, but never suppress them. There are uncountable treatments, like natural medicines, meditation, inner dialogue, etc. What is important is to allow yourself to feel what you must feel and that way, the less we resist our own emotions, the less they will overwhelm us over time. The more we will be able to navigate them and turn them into energy that comes back to us.
As silly as it sounds, we often forget to breathe properly. Our brains might be dying each day of suffocation without us even being aware. Breathing is not just about providing our brains with the necessary daily doses of oxygen, but also our energy flows better and we allow our missing parts to come back energetically.
Learn to control your kundalini and not the other way around. In our current society we are taught that we must overindulge in sexual practices, even spiritual ones and that we must meditate to trigger intense kundalini experiences. If we cannot control our own energy, we cannot control the rest of our system.
Sometimes, without us becoming fully aware, kundalini is triggered by fragmented parts of other souls and I doubt you would want to share your sexual energy with any entity. Energetic exchanges between you and other entities is very real, so ask your subconscious mind and your heart why you are allowing these explosions to happen without control. You will be surprised to learn about this unexplored or misunderstood area. As blissful as merging might feel, learn to respect your energetic system as much as you want your physical body to be respected and treated like a sacred tool. Do not worry too much about entities, but learn to set healthy boundaries in the energetic planes of existence and treat entities with respect and compassion, establishing if needed a healing dialogue.
Learn to clear your negative thoughts not by suppressing them but by understanding where these patterns come from. Listen to these thoughts, and if needed bring all this broken energy down to the emotional system, to the level of the heart where you can safely get in touch with the wound and see how these thoughts disappear. You can do this with positive practices like art, exercise, meditation, inner dialogue and therapy.
Learn about nature itself, we are part of it. Our broken minds and hearts are like the exacerbated forces of water, fire, earth and wind. When we learn to navigate the elements within ourselves, we learn to flow with the natural forces of the Universe.
Disconnect each day from any source of distraction that prevents you from being intimate with yourself. By intimacy it is understood that you open up your heart to your soul, you learn to listen to yourself and you learn to communicate with your soul. Only then, we can learn to have true intimacy with others. Intimacy involves facing our deepest fears and embracing every part of ourselves with love, grace and compassion. We stop avoiding our pain. We stop distracting ourselves with any addictive pattern.
Once we manage to achieve the above points each day, then we learn to control our physical bodies. Our body starts regaining its functions of self regeneration and we become energized. We become efficient in all we do and we feel less scattered. We feel more anchored and we gain a new sense of physical and spiritual security. We feel that we have finally created a true home for ourselves in our inner world and in our physical homes.
Fourth key: approaching our god-self and inner peace
The more we spend time in communion with our souls without neglecting our chosen responsibilities in life, the more we recognize and feel nurtured by our own soul vibration or energetic signature. We become more whole and feel less need to fulfill our needs and expectations from outer energetic resources, but we accept the love that we receive.
We learn to navigate the challenges that life presents to us and we accept the gifts behind these challenges. We feel less worried about what we cannot touch in the outside, yet we add magic to that which we are allowed to touch. We shine light for ourselves, and others learn to see it.
The outer chaos of this world no longer consumes us, and instead we walk among chaotic nodes of global experience left untouched. We have created our safe space in our inner world and we have created our home in a physical space.
Others see that there is this radiance in you that emanates a peaceful energy. You have arrived to a station where you have reached the peace that you longed for, but that you could not even grasp. You thought it came in other forms that you craved for. You leave behind old dreams, and create new and better ones. You manifest better outcomes, based on inner fulfillment and no longer on outer scarcity. You feel confident about who you are, and you feel strength. You enjoy your creations a little more each day and time expands in front of you. Time stretches because for you, it is now an abundant resource. One that truly never existed.
The Second Key: Letting go is the road to Inner Peace
In the previous part of this essay, the first key and the nature of dreams were expounded. As I explore the gifts of my subconscious, I share with you the next keys. What exactly do we need to let go in order to align with the highest dreams of our soul? In which ways can we make peace with the apparent failure of the previous dreams explored throughout our journey that lead in the past to suffering? Do we have to conform to achieve less than what we wanted?
You see my beloved that there is a long road to follow towards inner peace but this journey ends up being one of true empowerment and one that you will never regret.
Going back to the first diagram, the ball named “God-self” is the state of inner peace in which we can feel our true soul vibration. It is the state that is for the most part clouded by our current fluctuations, while we integrate little pieces of perhaps hundreds of aspects. When we hold a daily practice of emotional control and allowance of the integration/healing process to take place with more grace and less resistance, it is easier to reach more consciously a higher vibration. This vibration transcends the illusions of the non integrated light and the non integrated darkness.
It is in a state of emptiness where we enter inner balance and we anchor ourselves in the now moment. We allow life to happen to us and we then truly BEcome. In a state of mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual balance, we affect with our stable energy our environment in ways we do not even imagine.
If you like to do art, think about this moment of communion in which you are so focused on what you do, centered in your heart, nothing disturbs this moment of inner peace. You create and you allow your intuition to guide you through the process. It is a beautiful moment of communion with your soul, with the desire to create something special, and maybe even to share it with another. Perhaps you do not even have a very clear idea of what you will create, you just do it. Or you have an idea but throughout the process you allow for the creation to be birthed from your deepest desire.
In order to let go, first you must align yourself with your inner light and your inner darkness. You evaluate so far what you have manifested, and what you currently perceive as lack. You must ask both sides of yourself why, perhaps, when you manifested a dream in the past it was not your perfect dream, your ideal scenario, one that was in your mind flawless or simply beautiful enough to fulfill you.
In which areas was your manifested dream far from perfect? Where there energetic leaks in your system that left you drained, unfulfilled, unhappy in some other way? Why, if so far you have put so much effort in this dream, is it not yet what you crave or is it draining you? Even worse, why what you have expected all your life is not there yet within your reach? Does your dream involve the active presence of other souls?
If your dream is related to a personal project, like for example a house, a job, a career, a business, maybe the tools are easier to reach than if these dreams involve the presence of other souls.
What is complicated about manifesting dreams when it involves your relationship to other individuals, is the fact that you expect these people to align their will to your own will. Very likely there are imbalances within you or/and them which prevents the energy between each other to flow. This also applies to collectives, for example a whole nation and its leaders. Those leaders can be present physically as role models or authorities, or perhaps even spiritual leaders or guides that have not yet manifested physically in your life.
At this point, it is clear that something has not been working and maybe it is not even related to your outer circumstances, or your resources, or other people, but there is something within yourself that is simply not flowing like a river of energetic potential blocked by rocks, thus preventing material reality from morphing.
It is then, when if we ask our heart, our soul, our Higher Self, and Source to guide us to understand what is not working, a process of more conscious exploration begins that allows us to get in touch more deeply with our subconscious.
One by one, we can then start making peace with those blocks, letting them go, and allowing space for inner peace to be born within us. Only then, in this void, can we tap into the true potential of our soul as a whole and we align our will to the will of Creation.
First sub key: dealing consciously with the wounds
Often times we hear that we are the ones creating our reality. But sometimes we might miss some fine details about such process. We carry within our subconscious, and around us, the ghosts of the past. No matter how much we desire to manifest a more positive reality for ourselves and for others, we come across uncountable death ends, or we end up feeling that we need to conform to something lesser than what we originally had in mind.
Ask yourself these questions:
From 2012 to this day, how much have your dreams, hopes and desires changed?
Do you feel disappointed about the way in which so far you have progressed in your spiritual development and your life in general?
Are you disappointed of your outer circumstances and the world in general?
Do you feel more empowered in some ways compared to how you felt a year ago, or many years ago?
Perhaps many times you reach the point in which you know that you have done a lot of inner work over the course of years. However, there is always something in your way that makes you feel that you are fighting. Perhaps the social, political and economic scenarios seem to be grim from some angles, or maybe the situation with your family is messy at the moment. Perhaps your job is not exactly what you wanted to accomplish in your professional life. There is always a challenge to face as we progress.
In many cases, it is very clear that when we make a list of the things that do not feel right about this physical reality, we can see that many of these situations are apparently out of our control. Actually, if we think about how others behave, there is very little we can do to control or change the situations.
Then, you start seeing how control, and the idea on how things should be or how others should act are the first things that you must let go, in one way or another. Easier said than done and very likely you have heard this before, elsewhere.
You can read all over again how we have to deal with our inner wounds and how we must let go control and any rigid ideas. But there is no way this process can take place if there are unexplored corners within our psyche, those sides of us that need the love of our heart, and that we decided to forget, because it was all too painful to face.
There are strong sides of us that might feel that other sides of us are too vulnerable. At a level we feel that our vulnerable sides can interfere in our life in many ways, so it is best not to face them. Often times, it is the abused sides of our soul what might makes us feel that we failed to stand up for ourselves, when we needed to be strong and wiser in our processes of decision making. We might then develop a stronger side, one that at times might be aggressive or that tries to avoid situations.
We might have achieved a level of spiritual maturity (our side of non integrated light) and try to convince ourselves that at soul level we chose our experiences. That we have infinite power to manifest. That we are sovereign individuals and that we do not need an outer force to act as an authority above us in detriment of our progress.
What we do not know is that sometimes we carry aspects within our subconscious and soul that act against our conscious will to manifest a higher path. This is true, especially if it involves the presence of other souls, which could also include a specific location. These parts of us that are denied by our conscious mind know something about these dreams that we are not aware of. As a consequence, they simply do not want for these dreams to become manifested in such a way that brings joy to ourselves and to others.
How is this possible? Why would a part of our soul want to act against an apparently positive intention?
The simple answer is that these aspects reside in a dimension of denial, in one way or another. It is not uncommon to feel that we have left behind much pain, and that we can even hardly remember certain painful stages of our lives, especially childhood and other earlier stages. We cannot blame ourselves for keeping these aspects in the lower realms of trauma. It is simply not an easy task to align them with our heart and to heal them. Healing them involves facing their pain in one way or another, and sometimes it really does not have to be that painful to make peace with our suffering.
For example, think about times in which we faced any forms of abuse during childhood, or even in other timelines in which our hearts were open and vulnerable and we faced deep traumas without little awareness of the nature of our soul. How do you explain to a child that there is a purpose in everything and that we are made of pure spiritual essence at a higher level?
A child is vulnerable and dependent of their families, teachers, and other soul companions and often times has partial or absolutely no awareness of a higher spiritual purpose and soul path. Therefore, if a child has been severely imprinted with deep traumatic experiences, this part of us has become disconnected from the new spiritual mature adult.
This child that is disconnected from our conscious mind, resides in lower realms of ether. They are wandering like a ghost, observing how life happens to us, and touching us in such a way that affects our daily experiences and perceptions. Perhaps the child comes in the form of a traumatized teenager. Or a martyr coming from another timeline. Or simply, the child that you were in your current incarnation.
You are in the process of manifesting a dream with enthusiasm, and maybe at first things are going well, until you start facing those patterns. You come across people who are not in alignment with your intention, or the dream collapses for other reasons. You leave behind a trail of disappointment along the way. Even worse, that which you wait for is not coming to meet you, yet.
You do not understand why the world is as it is, why there is so much unfairness and why as a collective we do not seem to progress yet towards that reality where there is peace and a more genuine sense of connection among people. The repulsive forces within ourselves and the world in general continue to bring chaos into our lives.
Even in Kabbalah, the concept of Satan is one in which the Universal force of repulsion and absorption acts against the light side of Creation that unites and gives love. It absorbs without having the capacity to love The denied side of us, far from attracting the big dream, uses its repulsive force to avoid more pain, ironically causing in us deep disappointment.
It is then, when you can start working more consciously with the part of us that resides in the lower realms through any means that you can find. You ask for assistance and somehow, you will receive the guidance needed to align yourself to the will of your higher mind.
I have faced in my own life the disappointment of asking many times for assistance to deal with the part of myself that has been denied, only to come across some strange circumstances in which I was given many times things that I perceived as things that I did not need. I was blocking myself from seeing love been given to me in lots of ways. It had been in my life a repeating pattern, and a sense of being upset would grow over time.
Second sub key to letting go the pain: only you can fully know what you need
From this difficult experience came the notion that not only was I always been given the necessary assistance in spirit form each time I asked and could not find the most suitable tools in physical. Also, I was lead to understand that in this world, absolutely no one will ever know more what are our own needs than ourselves. No one will help us more to reach a state of balance and inner peace than ourselves. We can come across lots of tools, in one way or another, that help us greatly. Even so, it is our task to be the ones to rescue those parts of ourselves that have been forgotten and denied, by others and by ourselves.
You might be able to connect this sub key to the sober experience of not having the leaders or authorities that we wish in our hearts that we could see in our physical reality. If we cannot know in full depth what the needs of our subconscious world are, then how can we expect that the world can have honest leaders that can provide to us what we need? The perfect partner? The perfect family? Perfect friends? Perfect students or teachers? Perfect jobs? Etc.?
How can we know then how much we have suppressed and denied and how much we need to provide to ourselves?
By asking our subconscious. By getting in touch with our own darkness. By truly disconnecting ourselves for at least a moment each day, from the rivers of information and stimuli we expose ourselves to, and ponder about those difficult stages in our lives that we rather forget, and ask the individual that we were in such times, the simple questions:
How do you feel?
What can I do for you?
What is it that you want to tell me?
What can you offer to me and what can you offer to me?
Sometimes, only by listening to these parts of us, the pain starts dissolving. Sometimes we might find ourselves crying lots of things we could not face before. And then, the miracle of seeing our world turning upside down and seeing our beliefs fall apart happen.
It might be a very uncomfortable process but at the same time, you feel how the power of your soul starts flowing. It is worth it.
Third sub key to letting go the pain: redefining our own value and what we deserve in life
When you have seeing more clearly what exactly are your needs as a human being and when you see in which miraculous ways you can truly provide for yourself the first resources that you need, by claiming back the parts of you that are denied, then you can take the next steps.
The next steps involve to think very deeply and often in which ways do you feel that others have defined your value and sense of self worth as a human being. These people include your parents, your siblings, your friends, your colleagues, your partner or ex partners, and many others.
You can then see how much you value yourself or what exactly is for you the concept of value according to your experiences and perceptions. Perhaps you find yourself thinking that you deserve better than what you have or what you have gone through, but you still find yourself going through tough experiences. Others who find themselves and the world less valuable make you feel uncomfortable, even if you know they have their own patterns and issues.
Based on the previous notion of value comes the notion of deserving. What do you think and what do you feel do you deserve in life? Are you sure that you deserve only the best? What if those parts of you that reside in lower realms think otherwise? Perhaps part of you feels guilty for previous decisions? Perhaps others made you feel over time that you do not deserve?
These are important questions that one needs to ask oneself often.
The more we get in touch with the non integrated part of our soul that has been traumatized over time, we will start feeling that we are providing ourselves with the first and most important need. That need is to listen to our shadow self or aspects that exist in the lower dimensions of consciousness. By establishing an inner dialogue with our soul we can face these deep wounds in several timelines and we can then start creating a safe haven for ourselves in this constant inner dialogue.
If we cannot get to know ourselves and remember those times when we suffered greatly, such as the moments during childhood when our family could not give to us the confidence that we need, then the world will seem to be a dangerous place that is not safe for us or for others. It is true that bad things happen to lots of individuals and groups each day, but we must remember that very likely we cannot control those situations.
Before anything else we need to feed ourselves with the love of our heart and our soul to make space for the denied aspects of the psyche to come forth and feel that we are finally safe. We can let them know that we have unmeasurable value, and that we really do deserve the best. Maybe you think that others have value and that they deserve the best, but it is up to them to do their part and see this for themselves.
We cannot judge others fully for their actions more than we can judge ourselves. It is an act of humbleness to say to ourselves and to others that we no longer can say who should exist and who should not (think about how many people desire for the elitist groups to disappear from Earth without understanding their real purpose and their value as souls).
Over time, you can then establish a solid foundation in love with yourself, with your soul, with your heart and you can become confident seeing that all your efforts are worthwhile. You can feel that you value yourself enough to deserve better as you progress in life.
Only then, you can start attracting better situations and better resources, while you let go pain, old ideas, old expectations, old hopes, and you redefine your dreams and your desires. You desire less things that you previously desired based on the perceptions of scarcity. Your dreams are more genuine and aligned with the will of your soul and the will of other souls and Universal consciousness.
Peace starts to flood your being a little more each day. You have established an inner sense of confidence. You are safe, and you are loved by the brightness of your soul. You find more peace in the Now moment, and you worry less about that which you cannot change. You know that change is the only true constant.
The First Key: Natural cosmic process of reintegration of the soul essence known as soul retrieval
Soul retrieval holds the first key to manifestation of better dreams, better experiences, and a higher path, by consciously embarking on a true savior mission of one’s own soul. From aspects in countless timelines, first sub keys of darkness and light are revealed. Soul retrieval is the art of ascension in its unconscious or conscious first stages of prismatic Cosmic rearrangement. By learning the secrets of the worldly light and the worldly darkness the next keys are revealed.
The sub keys of the First Key can be seen in the diagrammatic literal representation of scientific configuration of energy in the manifested and non-manifested Universes. Simple is the diagram, yet revelation holds its nature when one sees a mirror reflection of the soul in this larger fractal soul configuration:
You can see that, for the most part, the Creation that we know about is composed of dark energy and dark matter. These are forms of very light energy with a heavy density that cannot be seen in physical, as opposed to the condensed particles that make up the physical configuration of Universes.
We as individuals are no different from the Cosmos in our composition. Our shadow self is made up of antimatter for the most part. You can imagine that much of what we are is made up of etheric self. Imagine then how the astral realms are made up of the same substance. However, dark energy and dark matter vibrate differently in each layer of each dimension and density and these energies need to be imprinted to create antimatter and matter.
Very much like how, for the most part, our brain is in apparent state of slumber, as is the large portion of DNA known as “junk”, so are the layers of astral/etheric substance.
How are then the astral/etheric layers connected to the notions of dark energy, dark matter, antimatter and what we call the light in higher dimensions, our brain and our DNA? How are these concepts associated to the soul vibration, to inner peace, to letting go? Before we reach those keys take a look at the following diagram:
From our uncountable experiences on Earth we have created what people call the Matrix, both in physical and in astral/etheric layers.
What is truly the mass of energy that makes up then the astral/etheric realms (multidimensional)?
A person who is grounded and who is not interested or ready to tap into what people often refer to “spiritual” are people who either have a great capacity to generate physical resources or are not efficient in such task (i.e. wealth). However, these individuals are less aware of how their thought processes generate as well as the meaning of their dreams while asleep, and the collective energies surrounding them at all times. Such individuals are also either service to others oriented or service to self.
First Sub key: understanding the non integrated light of unity consciousness in a polarized world
When an individual activates the capacities of his/her third eye and crown chakras they become aware of the energetic environment surrounding them. However, in a transition process, the very first fallacy of this individual is to believe that he/she is following since the very first moment of this realization a path of pure goodness and service (this is not always the case though). On the contrary, a long path of self-awareness begins. Over time, the individual assimilates and integrates the information of the soul as a whole to understand, that in essence, there is no such thing as being defined by the basic notions of good or evil.
The awakening individual begins a new journey through the grid or layers of non integrated light. Sometimes they believe to be always of goodness, always different and abused by society in general, with a mission to save others, seeking oneness, unity, and the merging of energies with others indiscriminately. This process is achieved often times by raising the vibration to the level of the Little Heaven of light where the first notions of spirituality are learned and remembered.
In these dimensions of consciousness, with or without spiritual notions or practices, all individuals seek joy, bliss, and the manifestation of dreams with such emotional qualities. Energetically, part of this thick layer is also built when individuals exchange sexual energies. The blissful energetic explosions of life force are spread in the environment through the merging of the bodies and chakras. At this level, it is difficult to distinguish between the soul frequencies of vibrations of each individual, simply because at this level all energies are merged into a collective energy, a grid of light where parts of the consciousness of certain beings reside.
These layers are also built when the souls that pass to the other side after death, seek comfort in them where their traumatic imprints become inactive and cannot be perceived anymore.
It is an energetic vibration of joy and bliss, where the beautiful dreams of individuals and the collective are forged and desired to be manifested. For this reason, I call it the Little Heaven.
Is there anything wrong with this? Absolutely not. However, in a dualistic paradigm in the 3rd density with lower 3rd and 4th dimensional levels of consciousness, during cycles of thousands or millions of years, this thick layer of blissful light is built, in some cases through the most selfish and heinous motives. How is this possible? To this point beloved brother or sister, I shall come back later.
Second Sub key: Understanding the non integrated darkness of separation in a polarized world
When a collective of individuals begin an ascension process to a higher density, awareness of inner conflict of light and dark forces begin. It is a difficult integration process of a personal Universe of aspects residing in different timelines that converge in the Now moment in astral/etheric realms. What this means basically is that each aspect of your soul is an incarnation of the past or parts of incarnations, which also include futuristic past lives that hold possibilities for future manifestation.
The fragmented soul then resides for the most part in these higher realms, either in a hellish reality or in a heavenly reality. Their residence depends on the frames of each timeline playing itself simultaneously in the Now moment. Only one incarnated aspect which is us in physical has the colossal mission to integrate over time all other aspects of the soul. This process can also happen during the course of several incarnations, as long as it happens during an extensive ascension process to the 4th and 5th densities of individual expression (not to be confused with dimensions!).
In this initial process, the individual begins a conscious recalling process of tiny pieces of information from this convergence of other lives in many ways. However, very little is recalled in the initial cases of the negative path of the soul throughout millennia of incarnations. Sometimes, some gruesome scenes are seen without a link to repeating patterns and decisions. The abusive/abused nature of many of these aspects of the soul that affect greatly the path of the incarnated soul, as much as in previous incarnations where ascension was not possible, is not understood.
For the most part, many individuals with a spiritual aspiration think of themselves as initially being always the abused or the victim. Such inner projection is then seen in the conflict in relationships, from the biological family to society as a whole. Conflicts are especially projected directly at the individuals who chose to reflect the massive darkness of society: a dark cabal. During this confusing process we might feel constantly threatened by other individuals and other unseen forces and lives in the illusion of not living a life of true freedom. Spiritual ideas clash with the ideas of their loved ones and society in general. There is much inner conflict projected in the outside in this initial stage of ascension.
A small group of negative oriented individuals in government positions, spiritual organizations, large corporations, financial corporations and in other sectors, reflect the nature of the recollection of the collective subconscious nature in the darkness of lower realms, where the most dominant parts of each aspect reside. These are the dominant aspects that seek control at all costs, who take actions based purely on impulse, who seek to divide and destroy without hesitation.
Even the apparently most spiritual individual carries a degree of negativity from soul aspects, without exception. However, it is in the creative capacity of these aspects where so much of our True Power resides, including the power to generate physical resources and a sense of balance and empowerment. No wonder then why a small group holds the key to manifest the largest amount of physical resources, at all costs.
Remember that our subconscious, our brain, our DNA, is for the most part made up of imprinted dark matter or antimatter, where the lower realms of hell and the higher realms of little heaven exist. We are for the most part made up of a magnificent amount of aspects that have been abused and who have abused, but also who have lived for many causes and who have experienced love in uncountable ways through much suffering. For such reason, an incarnated individual cannot come to the physical with such a great level of integration of these aspects. Integration in itself is the ascension process.
The most negative and impulsive aspects of the soul hold such degree of pain and anger that these forces were in negative timelines converted into the purest impulse to destroy and to harm. An analogy of this is a very traumatized dog that attacks without hesitation and kills. Think about criminals who seem to be in a state beyond reason who hunt people to fulfill a negative impulse to destroy.
At this point my dear reader, everything sounds perhaps dreadful. Think about the most difficult moments in history when wars and other conflicts took place and decisions were made based mostly on impulse and not on the kind of rationale that we apply when we face pain. During our current stage of ascension of our consciousness, very likely you see that there is a much higher path than the previously known path of impulses.
it is then with the application of values like forgiveness, mercy, compassion, acceptance, empathy and awareness in general, that we dissolve all the negativity in our soul and our most negative aspects are then seen as aspects that took decisions based on much suffering, in times where there was no genuine guidance from the soul and from the heart of Creation.
Third Sub Key: Understanding conflict of polarities during global ascension
The light in our consciousness is what prevents us from becoming the worst of our souls, from experiencing the pain of our past without any filters or restrictions. We will not harm what we perceive as an opponent, we might not even punch someone, even if we are abused. Over time we learn to stand up for ourselves in the best possible way, without perpetuating conflict like in ancient times, during the most destructive stages. We reach for a higher path in which we internalize conflict and we assimilate the lessons of the past.
What many spiritual aspirants to ascension share in common is the early experiences of abuse in our current incarnation. Such abuses trigger the wounded aspects of the soul to integrate in such a safe way that we do not end up harming others out of revenge with our most negative potential. Even if there is revenge, the circumstances in which we are placed allow for us to take the higher road of awareness and mastery.
You can see these experiences of abuse as portals or reminders of our soul paths in multiple incarnations that lead us to a new path of higher inner resolution. These experiences remind us at subconscious level of the level of abuse experienced in millennia in 3rd density, from the standpoint of the victim but also to understand how we became the abusers.
When such experiences are not fully understood, then the aspirant begins an inner struggle with himself/herself and also with the world. So is the case of millions of individuals who display much physical, emotional, mental and spiritual confusion and turmoil and who also feel threatened by the outer circumstances. Some then seek in the higher layers of non integrated light, subconsciously, the presence of some higher power to come for their rescue and that of humanity.
The struggle intensifies in such a way that the aspirant feels overwhelmed with the following outer conflicts:
The presence of “negative entities” or “demons” in lower realms and even engaging in fights with them, perpetuating conflict and increasing the collective level of polarization.
The conflict with a dark cabal, from governments to large corporations and lower levels of authority.
The threats of terrorist attacks, threats of war, threats of high technologies used by negative individuals, etc.
Threats of financial collapse and inability to manifest resources in physical.
Conflicts with religious beliefs and institutions.
Conflicts with family and friends.
Conflicts with personal identity, gender, tastes, beliefs, etc.
If such inner conflicts are constantly mirrored in the outside, the spiritual aspirant slowly becomes overwhelmed with his/her own negative or service-to-self oriented aspects that cannot be fully integrated. The aspirant feels in much conflict with the outer world as a consequence.
Two cases come to my mind when I think about how, when we seek to hold on to a spiritual path without proper integration we can become imbalanced. Some examples include spiritual masters who over history left us magnificent teachings, but who took actions that seemed contradictory and even extreme in some cases.
Another case is simply what we often see as an increasing and unforgiving repulsion towards the collective shadow that is blatantly mirrored by many of the people who control the resources of the planet. The latter in particular can drag us down into a spiral of negativity. Far from assisting in neutralizing the negativity of the planet we might contribute to worsen the inner polarization of the elite minority and that of the astral environment, depending on how we use our psychic capabilities. By sending our hate to them, we fragment ourselves further and we block their own capability for positive change.
Only by coming to terms over time with our own levels of soul polarization will true transformation begin and the origins of darkness will find in all expressions a common ground in the light.
The true nature of the dreams of the fragmented self
Before the next keys are analyzed, let us examine now the following diagram to understand the current polarized psychology of manifestation in a stage of increasing polarization:
In this diagram, which is closely associated to the previous diagram, you can see that our thought processes and dreams are highly influenced by the presence of the aspects of our souls residing in multiple timelines of previous physical incarnations. In a way, what we do when we receive inspiration is to take memories of astral/etheric nature from such pieces of our soul and their experiences. This is, for the most part, a subconscious way to recall other lifetimes of experience. Remember dear one, what you feel and sense and desire is a convergence of timelines in the Now moment.
However, just like in certain spiritual doctrines like Buddhism and Kabbalah, many times our recurrent dreams, desires and longings lead to a long road of expectations, hopeful mental projections of a desired future, disappointment and suffering. Our consciousness becomes plagued with constant longing, anxiety and despair. More so, if our dreams involve not only ourselves but others, an entanglement of complications plagues our bruised hearts beloveds.
In the diagram above, take as an example three lifetimes or timelines of much suffering, in which the aspect lived a service-to-self oriented life or a service-to-others oriented life. From these three aspects that are not integrated and healed in the auric field of the currently incarnated aspect comes a series of thought forms or desires taken from little moments of joy and bliss from such timelines. From those moments, the incarnated aspect longs to fulfill such dreams and desires recurrently and serve like the gas for the car that takes them through the path of life.
However, sometimes such dreams cannot be fulfilled, either because the God-self has placed the incarnated aspect into a path of more restrictions to avoid following the previous paths that lead to painful deaths and harmful relationships and decisions. Other times, such desires come to fruition over time, but at the high cost of another path of decisions that once again leads to disastrous consequences. Or simply, it just takes a considerable amount of time to allow for the conditions to be manifested within and outside of the individual to create those dreams.
Take as an example the vision of a happy couple with children in a peaceful place. The aspirant then has a goal to fulfill such desire. However, imagine that in such timelines the aspirant had for the most part a very painful life with the partner and the children, or that such union was a consequence of the destruction of a previous family. Perhaps such visions of the past or thought forms of desire are based on a selfish desire. Maybe, outer circumstances made the life of the family an impossible one to bring to a joyful outcome. If, in the first case the relationship with such family must be healed, it might take a very long and tedious road of awareness and healing to repair such timelines to manifest a peaceful outcome.
In such cases it is then when dreams, desires and longings come from places of suffering and destruction in the subconscious mind of the one who seeks to manifest a higher path towards inner peace.
“For those who seek peace in times of unprecedented destruction and transformation.”
By the end of 2015, I decided to let go and let God. When the apparent decisions of the light in my life were coming to fruition, the poison of darkness came as an echo of ancient trauma, thus bringing conflict to my consciousness.
To serve the light invites darkness to come from the most unexpected places. The war of ages begins in each corner of the planet and in the dusty figments of lost knowledge within the configuration of the human mind. I decide to leave once again, and enter introspection. It is time to face an ancient bomb of my own creation that travels within the fluid realms of astral and etheric layers.
Locked in my quarantined space I ponder on the ancient knowledge of the Buddha, the avatar state of emptiness and eternal peace. From such ancient knowledge, I am being shown something that I had not felt or seen before.
Aspects of some beloved soul connections greet me in the spirit realms and excitement floods my being. One of my companions stare at me and then these cryptic words she pronounces:
“Distortions you hold in your mind of my nature dearest sister. Stop your outbursts of love and lower your vibration so that you are able to meet me in a state of more balance, only then can you see more of who I am.”
I breathe slowly, stop the flow of love from my heart and stare into her piercing eyes, feeling then the fear and the pain in our karmic contract. Somewhere in this world she lives in a physical body. Most of her soul essence travels within the realms of light and dark in what we know as the astral/etheric world.
I feel the fear but slowly within my being a power is being reborn, slowly, very slowly, almost unnoticeable. As days pass, I am guided in what sometimes felt for days like a military and Asian training of sorts, based on the ancient knowledge of the Buddha and other Oriental practices.
“Soon must you let us go my dearest sister, thou shall no longer seek us, for only when you transcend all desires, will we appear in your physical reality. Many are we, yet vibration of the individual expression of the One is what you seek, your own soul vibration.”
To let go was more reasonable those days, sometimes reaching an overindulgence of it and its consequential peace, as opposed to other days of painful dreams. For you see, some keys have been shared with me, of the true meaning of letting go. Before I share them with you, dear beloved, dear brother, dear sister here is what I saw, unexpectedly one night:
After restless nights of incomprehensible energetic explosions in all bodies of the being, the greatest truth was revealed. How was this gift granted? After days of fasting of dreams, desires, longings, light explosions of the thirsty heart, and other glitches, moments of inner peace came.
Inner peace would then lead to another octave of being, integration and energetic fatigue, in the hyper mind trapped in a hyper body.
Magnificent came the feeling and the vision, of the greatest dream ever dreamt, but hardly understood at first sight and first touch of the soul. There were we, up above in some perception of a sky of golden hue with clouds of gold, many of us, holding hands with each other, inviting me to come and bathe in eternal balance and peace. There, in the circle of beloveds, I was sharing the metaphysical flow of the heart and the hands, with serious yet peaceful countenance. As my consciousness entered the holographic projection of my soul, what I felt can hardly in words be described.
I felt a power beyond words in full individual brilliance and expression, powerful beyond constraints and elegantly dark. There I stood, calm and in love, feeling first the flow of the hand of one of my beloveds and then of the others. What came next is the even hardest part to describe at first sight and touch.
The vibration of us all feels dark, tremendously high vibrationally dark, with a purity of wisdom and purity of heart, yet dark. Dark? How come this darkness that I feel is so full of peace and infinite love? I no longer feel the feeling of blissful merging of a kind of light that we have known for too long. This a different feeling of pure individual freedom, no merging of minds or hearts in a single vibration as if we are one energy but instead something higher and better. Perfectly suitable for individual expression of the soul but in communion with other souls.
My own vibration is strong, serene, yet powerful, wise and loving beyond words. So is the soul vibration of my beloveds. Their energies feel like the love of Cosmos itself. Yet each has its own taste, so beautifully strong and spicy with power beyond what we consciously have known.
Perhaps the idea of a taste is not adequate and the term “dark” in itself is not accurate either because of the idea that we have about darkness. Is is not evil at all or negative. On the contrary, it is the energy of void but expressed individually. It is the pure integration of light and dark that creates something more magnificent.
In such perfect balance I was shown how just with the stare, or the holding of hands, or with the intention of the heart, subtle, yet powerful flows of energies travel from being to being, from heart to heart, from hand to hand, which reminds me of the bonding of molecules.
Each atom keeps its own essence, its nucleus, yet it is in the sharing of electrons that the atoms sum up to create molecules and a greater force. Such is the flow of love and life force from being to being. The energy is shared from one heart to another and goes back and forth, returning to its owner and going to the other again and again and again but never losing individual power and expression or vibration. We do not merge as One. We remain individuals sharing One Love.
For days I ponder on this kind of vibration that feels better than the light that I know, the light that unifies in dimensions in one single apparent explosion of bliss, the one that we are being taught about sometimes. The one that feels like some sort of sexual passion of chakra merging, the kundalini merging that people crave and experience often in certain layers of astral/ethers and that feels like a complete dissolution into Source, where individual identity no longer exists.
This dark vibration is then not negative; it is the pure essence of the soul. It is not the darkness of the darkworker who hates and seeks separation and destruction, out of the deepest feelings of rejection and lack of acknowledgement and respect. Not the kind of darkness that, in such state of lack of love seeks to accumulate material wealth and dominates and seeks to control.
Instead, this is a beautiful elegant high-vibrational void energy that actually emits a certain new kind of light at will in perfect balance. I go insane, to taste my own soul vibration once again, and that of my beloveds.
So are then the words of my beloveds in their true soul vibration expression:
“Seek not at this time your true soul vibration or your true power, seek not to reach this state as long as attachments you hold towards us your beloveds. Your desire is not pure and as such the farther you are from thyself. Seek thyself first in synchronicity with timelessness, and seek us not. Let your soul vibration come back to you. Love will find its way to you.”
Pondering further on this state of new integrated darkness with light, an image I see, as memories of ancient pasts come forth to reveal the truth of desires. Journeys of time travel each night and each day reveal one by one the nature of dreams, for dreams in astral layers are often forged through timelines of suffering and pain.
For many months, I had been seeing lots of positive futures with those beloveds in my inner perception. There was a limited awareness that those positive futures were in some way a desire and a dream to correct or give a positive closure to ancient timelines of pain, of suffering, of what in human terms we perceive as mistakes.
Is this not then, the calling of the Buddha, to watch out for our wildest dreams, longings and desires? Is this not then the space and the time in the mind where suffering and pain is born and then the decay of body manifests? Is this not then how reincarnation and karma are related to each other?
A whole year passed since that strange experience of feeling the nature of my own individual soul vibration, and the soul of some of my loved ones. My mind continued generating dreams, desires and hopes for some possible near future. Such visions were based on previously lived experiences in other timelines with my loved ones.
As time passed, I could really see that there was something else behind these dreams, that lead to a certain waiting. It was a very uncomfortable process. These images and feelings flashing all the time were preventing me from seeing other essential aspects of life in the now moment. I could see how much I still needed to do to align myself more with the true will of my own soul.
From that point in time when I got to see that vision and feel that vibration within my soul, to this point by the end of 2016, a lot changed in my perception. I had to go through a very intense process of letting go, so much, in order to see how far is the path in life to reach that vision. More than ever, it feels as far away as it can be, but the difference now is that other individual goals have been accomplished. So much healing has taken place to understand other painful scenes behind those old dreams. I swim deeper and deeper into the subterranean cave of uncertainty, and surrender to it, as uncomfortable as it feels.